Existential Crisis with the Fall of the West

[NomadicExpatParticipant 1785]

Gents,

I’m at a loss. I’ve spent the vast majority of my life fighting to defend the Western World. I’ve fought in Iraq, Afghanistan and a few other unmentionables. I’ve sacrificed everything and spent the majority of my time outside of the candy coated shell of the west, fighting “the evils of the world”.

I left for the war shortly after 9/11. Everyone was waving flags, kissing mom and eating apple pie back then. There was a strong undercurrent of American Nationalism, “Us versus Them”, and we were to defend the honor and very lives of the West, free market economies and democracy.

I truly thought what I was doing was Just, Honorable and absolutely necessary to protect the shining light of civilization from the barbarian hordes.

But after coming home to a divorce rape and seeing the exact same guys I was paid to kill being welcomed into my homeland with open arms, tossed more benefits than my fellow vets and treated like warm houseguests instead of invaders, I now see Reality.

Once I got out, I knew something was terribly wrong. As I tried to figure out complex investments, mortgages and retirement plans, I came to a terrifying reality:

“I had no idea how the economy worked, and at this point, I was too afraid to ask.”

So I researched. I thought it would be boring as s~~~. Instead, I locked myself in my house for a week, mortified by what I was seeing…. That we live in the biggest house of cards ever assembled. I learned the evils of Fiat currency, debt based economies, what the hell happened on Jekyll Island and how we are all essentially wage slaves.

I also realized that the western world had dramatically changed into a gynocentric, pussy worshipping factory that churns out Beta males at the cyclic rate, to be used as worker bees for the hive. I learned that all I was, all I have been, and all that I ever will be was a worker bee keeping the hive’s ponzi scheme going. kicking the can down the road. I learned that my childish dream of retiring in a cabin, living off the land and minding my own business was all but impossible. I foolishly thought that when I paid in full my own land and home, that I owned it. I learned that through property taxes, “family courts” (where the f~~~ is the jury!? how is this a court?) that just about anyone can take everything from you through accusations, legal actions and unlimited U.S. laws that can be bent to a lawyers whim.

I learned that the Western Worlds leaders (Trump being the exception) were all globalists, with no loyalty to their nations. Their loyalty lies solely with the World Bank. With Power. With the “magic money machine” of the fiat currency printing press, they literally have sold us counterfeit currency and rule the world by doing so.

I’ve seen that every s~~~hole I lost friends in has been taken back over by the enemy. I’ve seen that all of our efforts were totally useless and futile. That I would have spent my time better masturbating to porn in my parents basement.

I see that the enemy that I’ve fought are now freely invading us with open arms.

I see that I no longer give a s~~~. Burn this f~~~er to the ground, for all I care. This entire system, the western world, is now build to appease women’s fickle desires. To give them cheap thrills and shiny things. To entrap and enslave strong and capable males for diabolical schemes that are nearly unthinkable.

Now, I’m short on money and it’s time for me to “Man Up”…. Jump into the civilian workforce and “chase the American dream”.

But you see, I’ve taken the red pill. It went down sideways, and was painful as all hell. It was years ago that I first took the red pill, and I feel that I’m past the rage. Past the malaise. I’m now in a full blown state of Nihilism.

I’ve literally done EVERYTHING on my bucket list. I’ve f~~~ed the hottest girls, fought in multiple wars, mastered complex weaponry and team based tactics, jumped out of airplanes, swam 100 feet deep in the pacific, got married, procreated, got divorced, f~~~ed even hotter girls, and now I’m just repeating all the cool s~~~ I’ve already done. Now, it all just feels… Blah. Literally, I could f~~~ a victorias secret model, jump into a hot LZ, shoot a terrorist in the face then snort some blow off of a hookers t~~~, then think to myself, “meh. Last time I did that was better.”

Since I was sixteen I thought I would die in Combat. I lived my entire life with that expectation, so I did EVERYTHING I wanted to do in a short, young life. The problem was…. I made it home. I have no more plans or aspirations. I just… don’t give a f~~~.

I wish I was with my fallen brothers. Even if it was for nothing, they died believing in that s~~~. They died believing in something.

I don’t believe in anything anymore. Help.

[Anonymous 14]

Holy s~~~, hell of a post Nomadic. I agree with nearly all of it except the Trump part, I don’t think much will change, certainly not much of what you touched on, banking system and whatnot. It is all a Ponzi scheme…The Wars? I think it is mostly bulls~~~. All of it to me is about control, oil, profit, keeping those around Israel down, moving of refugees into the West to create more chaos that will only justify more actions… Never ending circle of s~~~ in my opinion, all done on purpose with Globalist intents behind it all at every turn.

I don’t know how to console your loss on any level, I had a buddy come back from Desert Storm pretty much lobotomized, I don’t really know what the f~~~ we are doing over there at this point anymore, we sure aren’t making things better. In fact, all evidence points to the intent is to make things worse and worse, for everyone. I have had friends leave the U.S. already and Expatriate years ago, they have yet to come back.

Creature From Jekyll Island is certainly one of the earlier RedPills I swallowed years ago, you may not want to go down the road I have in the 10 years since then, your head may just do this-

[AposematicParticipant 2671]

Existential angst is a program that crops up in the cerebral cortex now and then. It subsides with time. Prepping is in order- which I imagine would be helped by getting a job.

Afinogyny.. from the Greek Afino {to abandon/ to set down/ to leave /to allow/ to let } + Gyny {Women} MGHOW’s philosophy to not engage women without “hating them”. Narcorca =Narcissistic Orca typically spouting to a bathroom mirror taking an arms length selfie ; Wallinate describes post wall females whose SMV is terminally negligible New Years resolution "To not make women happy" . Instadestitue: yet another Neologism for Men that cohabit with women that decide to pull the handle of intervention orders.

[bladeParticipant]

Just watched this . France i think will be next to fall . Swedastan is gone . Check this s~~~ out at paris train station . Done by lauren sluttern

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[Johndom999Participant 376]

NomadicExpat,
From one vet to another – focus ONLY on one day at a time doing what you enjoy doing whether it is playing golf, jogging, pumping iron, playing chess, whatever it is. Your words echo loud & clear in me fore they are true. Many of OUR OWN people have betrayed us, I will not say anymore fore it is too painful & too evil. I [we] can still have a good quality of life in our country & we owe it to ourselves to enjoy it. Our mission now is to enjoy EVERYDAY! ENJOY IT!

[joetechParticipant]

When Viet Nam was still going on an uncle asked me,”If we loose in Nam, then what did all those guys die for?” Well, my answer was, “So we never get stuck in a war like that again.” How long have we had troops in Iraq? I know of the divorce rapes that are committed against veterans. I watched my brother go through it. Throughout history people have lived in historic and troubling times. We can’t control the day and age we are born into. Read my book, The Operative. The main character is in World War 2 and he has survivors remorse. He’s one of the guys that got catapulted off the deck of the Arizona, but he survives. Consequently, he volunteers for anything that can get him killed from then on. After all you’ve been through you deserve better, but the world doesn’t care what we deserve. We have to make our way in the world in which we are born. You have decades ahead of you. Find your dream and live it. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Just think of the difference you can make in the lives of other young men with your life experience and knowledge. You, sir, sound like a mentor looking for a calling. Be at peace, brother, and thank you for your service.

"Don't follow in my footsteps...I stepped in something."

[Manspread MansplainerParticipant 4222]

There are many American patriots who value and love what you represent. The left-wing, antifa regressive feminists have been empowered under 8 years of Obama. Like spoiled children they are now being told to ‘get a haircut and get a real job’ so they riot and pillage and let these sub-human animals in to destroy society.

They have NOTHING to lose. No skin in the game. They hate capitalism and want the whole thing to cater to their superior delusional beliefs.

This whole 64 genders, open borders, intersectional feminist bulls~~~ happened on Obamas watch. He, like Trudumb, Merkel, May etc. etc. are traitors to our civilizations.

Israel, Hungary, Poland, Russia to name a few are fixing to put the old SS Waffen bookkeeper Soros in jail. He is the puppet master of all these fools.

As for economics, it is meant to seem very confusing to keep people in the dark. I’m by no means an expert but inflation (devaluing currency in essence through market expansion) is eternal. Unemployment will always exist because 0% unemployment means rising costs and insane interest rates. Too high unemployment is a weak system that will collapse. I mention this because I want people to be aware the system NEEDS unemployment so try and plan to stay out of that statistic.

The rape of the welfare system of these fake refugees (30 year olds posing as 14 year olds not even from Syria) are meant to ruin us. Bikers, militias and vigilantes will eventually wipe them out (I honestly hope so).

Just want you to know you are not alone at the disgust of modern society. Females are getting worse by the day and are the weak link in the chain of freedom.

If women ran the world = It would become the shithole you are seeing.

[SandalsParticipant 4254]

Welcome, brother. You are not alone.

I haven’t read it, but your intro probably could have been the first chapter to War is a Racket by Smedley Butler.

Well written, beautiful intro, and condolences for the loss of your friends.

In WWI and WWII the best and beautiful and brightest and most wonderful beings that took 4.6 million year to genetically engineer were sent off to die, so money changers could flood the world with fiat currency.

Now they are gone, and we are left with genetic s~~~, and what isn’t is being mutated and brain damaged by vaxxines.

The only time Jesus flew off the handle and went completely ape-s~~~ was at the money changers.

The world is ugly, and the rabbit hole is deep. I am guessing everyone here was at one point a useful idiot. We all believed what we were taught in grade school, even though it was all a pack of lies.

For me the beginning was watching JFK by Oliver Stone. After that, I thirsted for knowledge, to the point where I can no longer speak with any of my family members, as they are all in la-la land as far as I can tell. Likewise, I am in la-la land to them.

There are too many blue-pilled drones in our society to see what is happening. It’s always been this way. The folks on top using the people on the bottom as cannon fodder. Over there it’s more overt – using children as human shields and arming them. Here, it is God and Country.

In Star Trek there is the BORG, which I believe stands for Banks, Organized Religion, and Government. Resistance is futile. Eventually, they convert everybody.

Right now, if you have not already been exposed to him, I would take a lot of time listening to Eckhart Tolle. Listen to The Power of Now, and his other books and lectures. Will blow your mind away, and aid in seeing things more clearly.

If you are interested in more crazy covered up knowledge, then after that, Jordan Maxwell, although he is boring sometimes. There are gems in his videos and talks, but oftentimes takes forever to get to them. Warning – he believe the planet is run by lizard aliens, but he pretty much keeps that on the down-low, except for his Project Camelot talk.

As to what to do, once you realize how the world really works, you will have a crown over your head everywhere you go, and a target on your chest. People will attack you for seemingly no reason at all. S~~~ gets weird. Humans will begin to look like a different species from you, and in a way, they are.

Focus on yourself first. You dedicated your life to putting country and countrymen first. That may be the tough part, but you have to remember that no one really gives a s~~~ about the military protecting them.

And you have probably figured this out, but the military is nothing more than a taxpayer funded mercenary protective service of various corporations. Military doesn’t protect citizens, it protects corporations, which is why it operates overseas, rather than is stationed on our borders.

Your whole life has been a lie. But the sweet part is, the truth has set you free. You are free. You are the sole authority over your own life. The only problem now is by having this knowledge, you are now 100% responsible for everything, and for defending yourself against every person and institution in life that attacks you, and they will attack you.

Thank you brother, for your wonderful intro, and I look forward to more of your posts.

[Manspread MansplainerParticipant 4222]

blade wrote:

Done by lauren sluttern

HaHaHa nice. AWALT luring in the thirsty betas to the so-called alt-right.

If women ran the world = It would become the shithole you are seeing.

[SandalsParticipant 4254]

I don’t need your civil war
It feeds the rich while it buries the poor
Your power hungry sellin’ soldiers
In a human grocery store
Ain’t that fresh

[NomadicExpatParticipant 1785]

Thank you Brothers. Sincerely, I thank every one of you. This is the last bastion of Male Camaraderie and exactly what I needed. I felt like I’m drifting out here, alone with the sharks after being in a tight knit group for so long. It really means the world to know there are more of us, self aware and ready to watch each others backs.

Whether it was kind words of encouragement, acknowledgement of similar experiences or just funny s~~~ to put a smile on my face, you all lifted me up.

Thank you for having my back tonight, Gents.

[Anonymous 5]

I know exactly what you’re saying. Ignorance was bliss.
Life had structure and meaning. It didn’t matter if it was all illusion, it still gave us hopes and dreams.
Each red pill takes away a reference point till eventually we have nothing to steer our lives by and no destination to strive for. No Blue Pill goals anyhow.
Theoretically, communism is one of the most gorgeous concepts there is. The Blue Pill dream is also gorgeous but both concepts lead men to destruction. Look at what happened to you and all around you in the pursuit of Blue Pill heaven.

I live one day at a time now. I think all creatures do the same.
I think the happiest people live in the moment.
I take pleasure in the simplest things like having a cup of tea or a blue sky in the morning or even having a good crap.
I’m addicted to learning. I still love fishing just as much as I loved it as a kid. I love lots of little things.

Schopenhauer came to exactly the same conclusion as you and I, and most others here, about 200 years ago, so nothings really changed.
I’ve found the best and most relevant excerpts of his thoughts are in “The Wisdom of Life” where he doesn’t pull any punches about reality but offers some astounding insights into achieving a great degree of pleasure and success in your life.

Thanks for the great post. Few on here, including myself, have the nerve or skills to so aptly describe the state we’re all in when our Blue Pill belief system self destructs on the reef of reality.

[bstoffParticipant 4878]

I guess I just realized, there are a lot more guys who are fully awake to the ways of the world that I expected. I guess, if you can figure out that the system is rigged to favor females, it’s probably rigged in lots of other ways, too.
NomadicExplorer: Like some of the other guys here said, and as a vet, I wholeheartedly agree with everything you brought up, except I’m still only cautiously optimistic about where Trump’s heart and mind really is. I hope he comes through for us.

[MGTOW_MikeParticipant 6253]

NomadicExpat wrote:

I don’t believe in anything anymore. Help.

You are not alone in this. If you take a look at my profile, you will also see one of my early posts is related to existential crisis. It is f~~~ing terrifying. One of the best coping methods I use is just observing what is going on around me. watching things as they unfold and trying my best not to become involved in my own thoughts.

A tranquil mind is neither happy nor sad, it is uninfluenced by external conditions.

[Anonymous 1]

I share a lot of your views and it sucks. all you can really do is hope to leave the world a better place than you found it :/
it may all be incredibly flawed but maybe we can teach people to learn about these things and contribute to the overall improvement of humanity? or maybe we can give £10 to a homeless guy and make his day easier
if everybody leaves a net positive impact during their life, we’re on the right track

[MonkParticipant 17047]

Wars very rarely start on their own. Brushwars sometimes, big wars, never.

[Anonymous 1]

My Step-Dad, was a Vietnam Vet. He went through he same thing you are going through now. Coming back from the war and being spit on by your own citizens. Watching the Politicians prevent you from achieving any victory or meaning for your sacrifices. I remember going to the VFW hall a lot when I was a kid. I listened to those men. I couldn’t enlist for the army after 9/11 because I remembered their stories. I knew Iraq would be another Vietnam. I’m sorry for what you went through, but I still respect your bravery and sacrifice for this God-Forsaken Country.

I have the same dream you do about living off the land in a Cabin somewhere. As you say, property taxes will prevent this from happening. We are not legally allowed to own land anymore and are essentially serfs in a new Corporate Feudal system. My advice would be to stay away from any alien or reptile conspiracy theorists, if you don’t want your mind to get f~~~ed. Just keep a big picture idea of what’s going on. Details are superfluous at this point (read “War Is a Racket” because it pertains to your situation). Find some older Vets, from Vietnam that you can talk to. They went through what you are going through now. They can help you more than, non-vets can. Get the purpose and meaning back into your life, but it may take a long time. Hang in there brother, I’m rooting for you.

[Doc HollidayParticipant 168]

Thank you for your post. I don’t have much to add; you’ve already said it. The only answer I’ve found halfway satisfying: help other men navigate this cruel state of affairs. As I took the red pill and woke up, I spent the first two years consuming content. Now I find myself in a position to produce content. From the perspective of a newcomer: every word helps. There’s a catharsis in seeing, hearing, and reading all the rants and recommendations, whether it comes in the form of a post on MGTOW, blog entry somewhere else in the manosphere, or what have you. Hell, it helped me get through the f~~~ing day at the beginning. I know I’m not alone in that respect. Keep sharing your experience. It’s important.

MAGA

[Ranger OneParticipant 16836]

Part of Playboy’s interview with movie director Stanley Kubric:

Playboy: If life is so purposeless, do you feel its worth living?

Kubrick: Yes, for those who manage somehow to cope with our mortality. The very meaninglessness of life forces a man to create his own meaning. Children, of course, begin life with an untarnished sense of wonder, a capacity to experience total joy at something as simple as the greenness of a leaf; but as they grow older, the awareness of death and decay begins to impinge on their consciousness and subtly erode their joie de vivre (a keen enjoyment of living), their idealism — and their assumption of immortality.

As a child matures, he sees death and pain everywhere about him, and begins to lose faith in the ultimate goodness of man. But if he’s reasonably strong — and lucky — he can emerge from this twilight of the soul into a rebirth of life’s élan (enthusiastic and assured vigor and liveliness).

Both because of and in spite of his awareness of the meaninglessness of life, he can forge a fresh sense of purpose and affirmation. He may not recapture the same pure sense of wonder he was born with, but he can shape something far more enduring and sustaining.

The most terrifying fact about the universe is not that it is hostile but that it is indifferent; but if we can come to terms with this indifference and accept the challenges of life within the boundaries of death — however mutable man may be able to make them — our existence as a species can have genuine meaning and fulfillment. However vast the darkness, we must supply our own light.

All my life I've had doubts about who I am, where I belonged. Now I'm like the arrow that springs from the bow. No hesitation, no doubts. The path is clear. And what are you? Alive. Everything else is negotiable. Women have rights; men have responsibilities; MGTOW have freedom. Marriage is for chumps. If someone stands in the way of true justice, you simply walk up behind them and stab them in the heart-R'as al Ghul.

[Faust For ScienceParticipant 22559]

A Fall of Civilization does not mean the end of the world. When Roman fell, the Roman Empire was broken up into three smaller empires.

Eastern Rome, Western Rome, and Gaul.

Gaul was taken control of by the Visigoths 486AD until Gaul fell to the muslim hordes in 711AD

Some of the locations in these empires had nice places to live in.

The issue now is those that are tearing down western civilization have been partly exposed. The curtain behind the stage has been pulled back a little.

These groups have made it clear from their actions and those they support that their only solution to their losing control of the world is to destroy the world.

From the muslim invasions of Europe, to wrecking the middle east, to trying to start a nuclear war between the U.S. and Russia.

This is both good and bad. The bad is they want to destroy humanity.

The good is this is an omission they have no real workable plans to retain control. Their power is slipping between their fingers like grains of sand.

At the moment, the U.S. and the world have been given a reprieve by a combination of Brexit, President Trump winning the U.S. Presidential election, and the nationalist movements growing around the world.

Barring a few exceptions. Right now, instead of ordering military actions, President Trump is selling arms to everyone he can on almost all sides.

You may have read where Saudi Arabia is about to go to war with Qatar. Well, the U.S. is selling arms to both sides.

This does not sound good.But, it looks like he is giving the troublemakers enough rope to hang themselves with.

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