Like many men, I started out my life thinking I would have a happy, long-lasting relationship with a woman. It didn’t work out that way, however.
Nothing I did was ever enough, to make a woman happy. I held down steady jobs and brought home the paycheck. I worked long hours to buy things she wanted, only to hear her constantly complain that she didn’t get enough of my time.
After 4 marriages, and God knows how many live-in relationships I’ve had, nothing I did was ever enough. I’ve been lied to, cheated on, lost children in custody battles, even had my money stolen, and still I was attracted to females. Slow learner I guess.
Hell, in the end, I moved to Asia and had dozens of GF’s. I asked damn little of them. In return for suppling a nice comfortable air-conditioned house, great food (I’m a chef), plenty of fashionable clothing, money for their pockets, mini vacations to the beach and the mountains, even paying for schooling if they desired, all I asked for was honesty, a very little bit of house cleaning, an occasional massage, a bit of sex, and friendly/affectionate attitude.
Was that enough to make them happy ? It was not. Complaints. Endless complaints.
Finally, I just gave up and chose to live alone. But, I am paying a price. There is a huge emptiness in my soul that never leaves me. At age 72, each day is pretty much the same as every other day. I wake, have coffee and a bite to eat, read for a few hours, watch a movie, play chess, prepare a nice dinner, and that’s about it. No zest. No passion.
I don’t know how other guys manage to survive without any love/sex/cuddling. For me, it’s damn depressing.
Bulls~~~, there is no soul, love? Isn’t real is just an overrated impulse to f~~~, sex? Buy it, is what you did, four marriages and you didn’t learn that, cuddling? Get a dog.
Grow dark as dark as you can, grow evil and strong, the best part is you can do it by doing nothing.
“The worst kind of evil is when a good men sees an act of evil and does nothing “
Be evil, a kid on fire? Ignore it.
Someone in trouble? Walk away.
The other day I hit a deer with my car, felt nothing kept driving, it was late night Soo I didn’t even bother in lowering the speed, the lights got f~~~ed up, but nothing I can do about it.
Everything and everyone is trying to f~~~ you up and make a penny out of you.
72? I bet there is a lot of mother f~~~ers waiting for you to die to see if they get something.
0 f~~~s given.
To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.
Anonymous 1 year, 7 months ago.
