4 Years on and my mother is still a f~~~ing C~~~

Thanks for all the replies and input guys, really appreciate it.

As far as I’m concerned, I’m treated no better than a convicted murdering rapist by her and her husband. Then my brother and sister follow suite like the loyal little mugs that they are. It’s as if I wronged her in another life and she’s hating on me for it in this one.

You know, when she deserted me and went to New Zealand with her husband and kids in 2001, I was glad to see the back of them in a way, but also felt f~~~ed up about it. I lost my home and my familiar surroundings and boom, I was f~~~ing homeless just like that. For a while i secretly slept in my garage even tho the house had been sold and the new owners were moving in in 2 months. There was electricity so i set up my 14 inch CRT tv and dvd player and took comfort in all the cool films i had. Classics like Jaws, Fx Illusion, Akira, Mad Max, Lethal Weapon etc. My mate lived next door to me at the time so lent me bedding and s~~~ and would hang out with me smoking cigarettes.

During the night, i would walk out of the garage door which led into the garden, and look up at my bedroom window in utter confusion. What the f~~~ happened? Was this real?

This story is a long story, and its too much really to condense into something read-able in 5 mins. But i was still suffering the psychological after effects of a really horrible drug trip i had, something which those c~~~s also punished me for and treated me like filth for.

Maybe 3 months later, i spoke to my mother on the phone and asked if i could come over and see my brother and sister. A few days later, i got a nasty phone call from my stepfather who somehow knew the number to my mate Simon’s house, and called me there. He told me that if i wanted to come over i was to pay for it myself or get f~~~ed. I was 16 years old. How the f~~~ was i going to raise that kind of money on my own? He slammed the phone down on me and i felt my blood boiling with rage.

2 years later, my mates dad, who knew what a wanker my stepdad was (he never liked him) called him up in new zealand to have a huge go at him and that if he didn’t pay for me to come to NZ he was gunna pay for me himself and come with me on the plane to sort him out. I was f~~~ing stunned when i heard him say that. I was so happy someone was fighting in my corner for once.

They regrettably paid half the money for me to come over, and my grandmother paid the other half. I arrived in New Zealand in 2003, and the very moment my mother picked me up from Nelson airport (top of the south island), instead of welcoming me with open arms, or im so glad to see you,she gave me a huge verbal list of rules that my stepdad had instructed to relay onto me.

The whole car trip from the airport to their house was her telling me what the rules were and everything i couldn’t do when i got there!!! You are not allowed to use the computer, you are not allowed to use the quad bike, you are not allowed to watch tv. I knew i had made a huge f~~~ing error in coming over, and i felt trapped and hateful toward them before i even got the chance to recover from the major jet lag and before i even arrive at their f~~~ing house. So they were f~~~ing me i nthe ass before i could even breathe. Thats what pieces of s~~~ they were.

I didnt last long at HIS house. He made my stay f~~~ing unbearable and there were a few incidents which cemented the divide he was so desperate to have to keep me ostracised and exiled from the family for good. He was a control freak and a bully. I went to console my sister one night when i heard her crying in her room, and she screamed at me to get out. My stepfather came running and said dont you ever go in her room, you might be touching her up for all i know. I said to him you are one f~~~ing sick wanker you know that, then it was YOU DO NOT SPEAK TO ME LIKE THAT IN MY HOUSE, DO YOU HEAR ME? DO YOU HEEEAAAR ME? I could smell his dog s~~~ breath he got so close to my face. F~~~ i had had enough of this c~~~. I just stared at him and gave no answer, looked him right in his f~~~ing eyes waiting for him do try and swing at me like he always had done. Knocking me about, throwing me into walls, pinning me up by the throat on the wall when i was 7 years old. The kind of stuff you could do serious jail time for now. BUt now he knew i had moved up a level, gained confidence plus he knew i was boxing now.

When i left, his last words to me when i was hugging my brother and sister were “yeh thats it, say goodbye, cuz its the last time you will ever see them”. I didn’t even respond to his pathetic jibes and comments.

This is just one little piece (of many) of history that i have stored in my memory from these c~~~s.

My mother blames me for everything. She said that i chose to leave and that i chose not to get on with my stepfather with is pure fabrication and outright lies.

I stupidly replied to her email last night and told her that it was of no surprise to me that she hadn’t changed one bit, and that i thought she and her husband were peices of s~~~. I ended by calling her a ‘c~~~ whore’ and told her to rot in hell. It would have been much more effective if i had just ignored her but my anger got the better of me as usual.

Then my sons mother tells me that my mother sent what i wrote to her and lots of other people in my family.

Not one f~~~ given. Anyone of them has something to say to me, you face me in person or f~~~ off and die.

anonymousyam wrote:

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

I’m kicking myself right now and so p~~~ed off with my self that i bothered replying to my mothers nagging requests for me to get in contact via my sons mother, (fat land whale ex who bulls~~~s and tells one sided horse s~~~ slagging me off to my mother on F~~book) despite cutting her off 4 years ago for being the worthless c~~~ that she is.

I assumed it was regarding my son, to come see him etc so i reluctantly replied to her message asking her what she wanted and she began with the “dont you take that attitude with me” bulls~~~. I said what do you want you miserable f~~~ing has been sow? And watch your f~~~ing mouth, I’m 32 not 12. Then she commences her “no one in our family likes you, we all think you are mentally ill, you have an attitude problem, you treated your sons mother like s~~~, you didnt deserve her, you need help, you are this, you are that, etc etc blah blah blah”.

Why did you get a landwhale pregnant is the first question i have? if you are gonna f~~~ your life at least do it with a hot chick who actually could breed good kids compared to a fatty.

Also you didn’t deserve her is a typical retort used by white knights when they go attack assholes because of their behavior. I guarantee you if i am ever in a similar situation in life this response will probably be used either by a white knight or my mother hating the fact that i do not treat women like a princess nor will i marry one.

Also on a side not (just a little after edit) what happened to your biological father? did the c~~~ try to trap him? did he die? do you still have contact with him? what is the story with him?

She wasnt a land whale when i met her. She was curvy and looked very youthful. As time went on, she f~~~ing morphed into a house, lost her looks, and now looks 10 years older than her age.

The fact she is much older has worked in my favour regarding my son. Imagine if i got a ‘hot’ young c~~~ pregnant, and she was f~~~ing other guys, bringing them around my son, or having more kids etc, that wouldn’t go down with me very well at all.

My biological father is Native American, or at least 50% Cheyenne native american to be pacific which is why i look very different to my siblings. People always assume i am no British and foreign because of my olive skin. I have never met the c~~~ but spoke to him over the phone in 1999 and he was weird as f~~~. Cold, robotic, on drugs, and wasnt interested in me in the slightest. He was 23 when he had me, and abandoned me when i was 2 years old.

The last conversation i had with him was in 2003, where he sent a random email one day suddenly, telling me i wasn’t his son, and my mother had f~~~ed a ‘n~~~~~’ and i was his son. I told him he was a piece of s~~~ and that i didn’t understand why he was suddenly being a total asshole. We ended up arguing and he told me he’d beat the s~~~ out of me, and i told him to get f~~~ed. He then blocked me.

His parents live in Montana, most of them do, and they are all hardcore Christians. I was in contact with his parents but when they found out i was an atheist, they were not interested anymore. I live and let live. I have nothing against religious people as long as you dont try and shove it down my throat. I went to a Church of England school in England and had many religious lessons, but never was a believer. But i enjoyed learning about it at the time.

So both sides of my ‘family’ are wankers. What can you do eh?

anonymousyam wrote:

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

The last conversation i had with him was in 2003, where he sent a random email one day suddenly, telling me i wasn’t his son, and my mother had f~~~ed a ‘n~~~~~’ and i was his son. I told him he was a piece of s~~~ and that i didn’t understand why he was suddenly being a total asshole. We ended up arguing and he told me he’d beat the s~~~ out of me, and i told him to get f~~~ed. He then blocked me.

His parents live in Montana, most of them do, and they are all hardcore Christians. I was in contact with his parents but when they found out i was an atheist, they were not interested anymore. I live and let live. I have nothing against religious people as long as you dont try and shove it down my throat. I went to a Church of England school in England and had many religious lessons, but never was a believer. But i enjoyed learning about it at the time.

So both sides of my ‘family’ are wankers. What can you do eh?

Your father probably just was the typcial party asshole who got a bitch pregnant when he did not want to and she decided to have it even thou he was only 23 and still young at the time.

Once your mother found a better cuckold then a scumbag druggie she hooked up with him and found a way to ditch you since you where the mistake who prevented her from getting a higher man on the totem pole since no rich nor attractive men seek out to marry single mothers.

Also i f~~~ing burst out laughing at the point where you say your dad called you a n~~~~~ since a half Indian from the prairie calls you that when you can easily turn the tables and call him a prairie n~~~~~ over that.

Anyway if you got anything more to share i’m intrested in it.

She was apparently married to him for 3 years, but 23 year olds getting married seems like a f~~~ing joke to me. Too young, dumb and stupid. Today i find it quite comical. She got knocked up at 23 the dumb bitch. This is why she has such disdain for me. She had my brother and sister in her 30’s with Mr Perfect, probably why shes so much closer to them.

Over the years she was moulded into a subservient bitch by him, she cant think for herself and needs a man to support her. Yet she has the f~~~ing nerve to tell me im a loser, a bum, etc etc.

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

anonymousyam wrote:

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

She was apparently married to him for 3 years, but 23 year olds getting married seems like a f~~~ing joke to me. Too young, dumb and stupid. Today i find it quite comical. She got knocked up at 23 the dumb bitch. This is why she has such disdain for me. She had my brother and sister in her 30’s with Mr Perfect, probably why shes so much closer to them.

Over the years she was moulded into a subservient bitch by him, she cant think for herself and needs a man to support her. Yet she has the f~~~ing nerve to tell me im a loser, a bum, etc etc.

She probably got knocked up by him then he was forced to marry her by his family (since having a bastard gets your ass disowned). till then he suffered in marriage with the bitch for a few years eventually breaking off and forgetting about both the bitch and your existence as a bad dream.

The bitch knows that if she had taken you to the abortion clinic instead of giving birth to you she knows she would have actually found a richer man to marry and have her fantasy play out yet all she sees of you is that you are your father just a jr version of him.

To which you essentially are except in other posts i have read by you it seems you actually contact your kid instead of ditching him for the hills of Montana.

I see my son everyday, we are very close. I made a real effort to stay in a country i despised just to be with him. If anything i have raised him on my own. His school tries to shove Maori s~~~ down his throat because surprise surprise the principle is maori and female. Very self righteous. And because he doesn’t want to learn such useless bulls~~~ the bitch makes a huge deal out of it.

My son also draw a dick pic in class and they contacted child services on me, can you f~~~ing believe that. “It’s sexual” and ‘totally not acceptable” is what his metrosexual, very gay acting but im married with kids male teacher condescended me with in our one on one meetings. Its a f~~~ing joke. The school is run by c~~~s as usual, and they turn everything into a f~~~ing misery hole. I’m sick to death of this PC world. Enough is enough. It’s time to even out the scales.

But because i raised my son to think for himself and to question everything, im seen as a bad role model. Yet im the c~~~ whos taught him manners, respect, to be a decent person while his mother either slept away her life or neglected him. Yet she’s the one getting all the dole money for him.

Buty my mother and her will continue to slander me and drag me down as much as possible.

Awakened wrote:

You obviously haven’t missed her for the past 4 years, so it sounds like it’s time to cut her/them out permanently, but that’s up to you.

Oh i will do, this has dragged up s~~~ that i had buried for the last 4 years. She is poison and a f~~~ing rotting smell.