Why do I feel like I do? Is it Red Pill Rage?

[DocParticipant]

I will try and keep this brief as possible –
My Ex-Pumpkin asked me a few weeks ago if I objected to her and her new chad (who is really a simp) went overseas for a few days. Bear in mind that when you live in the UK ‘overseas’ is an hour on a plane to continental Europe. Anyway, Pumpkin has to ask because we have two young children. I said I didn’t mind as it’s not my affair so she said she had relatives who would help me with the kids. I told her I need no help. If she ain’t around to have the kids, I am. I have them between 2-5 nights in a row anyway, and my son is home at least 4-5 nights per week.

So there I was last week – feeling fine and upbeat about having the kids home for several days until Pumpkin actually went.
Then a whole raft of emotions smashed through my body.
Anger to the point of rage – resulting in a swollen knuckle.
Jealousy, envy, contempt, and more rage.

I seriously did not see that coming.
The contempt and part of the anger is because she has f~~~ed off and left the kids so she can have a jolly with chad. But I’m holding contradictory thoughts because there are many times where the kids are with me and she don’t see them. But this time it’s because she has gone overseas.

What the f~~~ is the jealously and envy all about????
Even as I type this I am still trying to make sense of that. I freely admit that I still have feelings for my ex Pumpkin so can partly understand the jealousy and envy but she has been seeing this chad for months so why am I feeling these feelings now? It makes no sense.
I even had fleeting impulses to call one of my orbiters for sex. I managed to control that impulse however because I would feel bad giving in to my resolution to go Monk.

My final note is that irony is a wonderful thing.
My two are not missing their mother. I said that she will be back tomorrow and she wants them to go to her. They don’t want to go.
So true that you reap what you sow.

So what am I feeling? Is this red pill rage? Or am I a blue pill simp?

Feel free to offer thoughts because I would appreciate it in fact.
Please don’t troll me. I am afraid I might bite today.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape, finding oneself in the ranks of the insane. Marcus Aurelius

[Ranger OneParticipant 16836]

Seems like Red Pill Rage.

I had that before. Since, I’ve evolved into a cold blooded MFer.

I popped a nut in her over a year ago when she flew back to pick up the rest of her s~~~. NFG that she was probably going to get f~~~ed by her chad the next day.

Its just a damn wet meat hole.

What Satan (Al Pacino) said in “Devil’s Advocate” is essentially true:

“Love is overrated. Biochemically no different than eating large quantities of chocolate”

All my life I've had doubts about who I am, where I belonged. Now I'm like the arrow that springs from the bow. No hesitation, no doubts. The path is clear. And what are you? Alive. Everything else is negotiable. Women have rights; men have responsibilities; MGTOW have freedom. Marriage is for chumps. If someone stands in the way of true justice, you simply walk up behind them and stab them in the heart-R'as al Ghul.

[DocParticipant]

Ah so it is Red Pill Rage then.

Ranger One wrote:

cold blooded MFer.

Working on this daily. With some results.
I constantly strive to better myself.

Ranger One wrote:

What Satan (Al Pacino) said in “Devil’s Advocate” is essentially true:

“Love is overrated. Biochemically no different than eating large quantities of chocolate”

Totally buy this. At a biochemical level there are many thing s as good as sex.

Reaching some of my excercise goals is always a good one.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape, finding oneself in the ranks of the insane. Marcus Aurelius

[CarnageParticipant 22113]

What ranger said about love.

In my case I don’t care about the bitch, I just wish to pay her back for all the s~~~ she put me through.

To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.

[AwakenedParticipant 35207]

Label it what you will.

The bottom line is that after a relationship ends, our heads can still play games with us from time to time.

This too shall pass.

Experience it, but don’t act upon it.

Take the kids out, and enjoy your time with them.

Focus on YOUR NEW LIFE, and NOT YOUR PAST LIFE.

In a World of Justin Beibers Be a Johnny Cash

[Anonymous 7]

Doc wrote:

They don’t want to go.
So true that you reap what you sow.

Man idk. I have never experienced anything like what the divorced raped men go through.

I can say that you are one lucky divorced man in that you get to see your kids AND the ex fiend has not turned them against you.

Doc wrote:

Anger to the point of rage – resulting in a swollen knuckle.

Vent here. Saves wear and tear on your fists.

[SESQUI ano estParticipant 2535]

Feel it without guilt. Be angry and let it wash through you and be gone. Just last week my ex got an opportunity to go away on short notice and left the kids with me (no surprise there). The anger I felt was only related to the financial issues and how it relates to me. Once she bankrupts herself then there will be more pressure on me. She doesn’t even have a Chad, she is just a self centered spiritual fruit cake. If you are recently separated those red pill moments will come up for a while. focus on yourself. My red pill rage moments seem to come in waves but are waning.

Everyday above ground is a good one. Everyday above ground while single...better still.

[AwakenedParticipant 35207]

SESQUI ano est wrote:

she is just a self centered spiritual fruit cake

LOL LOL LOL

I can relate !!

In a World of Justin Beibers Be a Johnny Cash

[WPLParticipant 2390]

It’s hard. When my ex-pumpkin left me to go live with her Chad and his family (while she and I were still married, I’ll add), she got herself an “instant family” and an “instant support system”… while I was left to clean up the mess she’d made of my life with minimal support from anyone. Nearly all of the mutual “friends” that we had as a couple, sided with her and her Chad, with just a few exceptions.

I still experience some of the same feelings you are having, although the extremes have evened out over time. That’s about all that I’ve found that will help: time and distance (literal and in terms of contact) — and focusing on what you want your life to become now.

[CarnageParticipant 22113]

WPL wrote:

It’s hard. When my ex-pumpkin left me to go live with her Chad and his family (while she and I were still married, I’ll add), she got herself an “instant family” and an “instant support system”… while I was left to clean up the mess she’d made of my life with minimal support from anyone. Nearly all of the mutual “friends” that we had as a couple, sided with her and her Chad, with just a few exceptions.

I still experience some of the same feelings you are having, although the extremes have evened out over time. That’s about all that I’ve found that will help: time and distance (literal and in terms of contact) — and focusing on what you want your life to become now.

That’s why I go my way alone.

F~~~ everyone.

To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.

[Truthseeker82Participant 6406]

This too will pass. Society and biology has a way of programming us men. But with time – you’ll start to override that programming with rational thoughts and actions. This will protect you from further risk.

[Anonymous 42]

When you loose emotional attachments eventually you couldn’t care less if they popped up dead.

You need to loose those emotional attachments then it all goes away same as if they were dead.

Women I once cared for greatly I wouldn’t shed a tear if they show up dead.

No love, no hate, same as death…

[DocParticipant]

Awakened wrote:

Label it what you will.

The bottom line is that after a relationship ends, our heads can still play games with us from time to time.

This too shall pass.

Experience it, but don’t act upon it.

Take the kids out, and enjoy your time with them.

Focus on YOUR NEW LIFE, and NOT YOUR PAST LIFE.

Thanks Awakened. Sound advice. Appreciated.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape, finding oneself in the ranks of the insane. Marcus Aurelius

[DocParticipant]

Anonymous wrote:

DocDJ wrote:

They don’t want to go.
So true that you reap what you sow.

Man idk. I have never experienced anything like what the divorced raped men go through.

I can say that you are one lucky divorced man in that you get to see your kids AND the ex fiend has not turned them against you.

DocDJ wrote:

Anger to the point of rage – resulting in a swollen knuckle.

Vent here. Saves wear and tear on your fists.

That’s why I posted. I needed to vent. Get it off my chest and particular with men who will understand.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape, finding oneself in the ranks of the insane. Marcus Aurelius

[ZarathustraParticipant 2246]

Just remember the time you are spending with your children now, in her absence, is building on a lifetime relationship with those children. Her time with Chad is only a temporary investment until one of them grows bored.

Just remember its a blip in time. You will reap better long term rewards.

She a fool for not spending her time with those kids.

[BuckFitchesParticipant 993]

I can’t say without knowing every detail about the story, but I know this: we all have triggers that cause anger.

Somehow you got a little triggered and it might not be much maybe you just need to let it past OR maybe this anger is a sign that you need to do something.

A man’s gotta do what a man’s gotta do, and if you don’t do what you know you need to, it will make you angry at yourself

"Fish can’t climb trees and women can’t be trusted." -Buck Fitches

[DocParticipant]

WPL,
Truthseeker82
Tower
More wise words from all of you. Thank you.

Tower – I know that feeling. A few exes could drop dead and I wouldn’t blink.
One of my exes died in a car accident along with her young daughter. I ditched her so harboured no bad feeling towards her. Really felt for her and her family.

The others don’t mean s~~~ to me tho

Truthseeker82- yes I am focusing on calming myself down when the rage hits. It’s hard but I tell myself I have been through harder times since Pumpkin and I parted.
That helps.

WPL – that’s rough man. Many of our ‘friends’ sided with my ex. Still do. They can burn in Hell for all I care.

Common error people make is to form opinions after only hearing half a story. Stupid bastards.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape, finding oneself in the ranks of the insane. Marcus Aurelius

[DocParticipant]

BuckFitches wrote:

I can’t say without knowing every detail about the story, but I know this: we all have triggers that cause anger.

Somehow you got a little triggered and it might not be much maybe you just need to let it past OR maybe this anger is a sign that you need to do something.

A man’s gotta do what a man’s gotta do, and if you don’t do what you know you need to, it will make you angry at yourself

That’s a fair point Buck. I had a run and did some house based exercises. Pull ups, Bastardos etc.
Push myself and the rage out. F~~~ing knuckle hurts tho.

Zarathustra wrote:

Just remember the time you are spending with your children now, in her absence, is building on a lifetime relationship with those children. Her time with Chad is only a temporary investment until one of them grows bored.

Just remember its a blip in time. You will reap better long term rewards.

She a fool for not spending her time with those kids.

I am definitely a VERY LUCKY man having access to my kids so much.
The stories some of you have told humbles me completely.

Despite the rage these past few days I have calmed a great deal since joining the forum. Thinking about your stories has had that effect.

You are right Zarathustra- she is a complete fool for not spending time with the kids. I grab all I can. No. After how hard it may be. The reward is those kids learning to understand what I do compared to their mother.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape, finding oneself in the ranks of the insane. Marcus Aurelius

[DocParticipant]

SESQUI ano est wrote:

Feel it without guilt. Be angry and let it wash through you and be gone. Just last week my ex got an opportunity to go away on short notice and left the kids with me (no surprise there). The anger I felt was only related to the financial issues and how it relates to me. Once she bankrupts herself then there will be more pressure on me. She doesn’t even have a Chad, she is just a self centered spiritual fruit cake. If you are recently separated those red pill moments will come up for a while. focus on yourself. My red pill rage moments seem to come in waves but are waning.

Thanks for posting SESQUI -they are utterly self centred. It does my f~~~ing head in when it affects the kids tho.

And you too Carnage – you always make me smile Brother.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape, finding oneself in the ranks of the insane. Marcus Aurelius

[Ranger OneParticipant 16836]

If you ever get a chance to f~~~ your ex again, do what I’m going do if I get another chance: pop a big nut on her face and use it to fingerpaint the word “Slut”.

Not sure if I’d even bother though. ZFG, no-rage, and it would only give me moderate amusement. I’d enjoy watching my model trains run more.

All my life I've had doubts about who I am, where I belonged. Now I'm like the arrow that springs from the bow. No hesitation, no doubts. The path is clear. And what are you? Alive. Everything else is negotiable. Women have rights; men have responsibilities; MGTOW have freedom. Marriage is for chumps. If someone stands in the way of true justice, you simply walk up behind them and stab them in the heart-R'as al Ghul.

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