What were your initial red pill effects?

[AscendedParticipant 698]

Hi,

I’d like to know.
After you (yes, YOU) took the red pill the first time and joined the MGTOW brotherhood, what were your effects? What did you experience?

For me, I swam in red pills day to day when I was 19 and 20 (and even before that). My red pill effects divides into these stages:

Age 12-17
I never figured the benefits of marriage and was basically angered when people told me things like these
“When you have your kids, you will treat them however you want. I am your parent and you will obey.”
“Your kids, your wife, your own family will depend on you”
“You will have very little and lucky boys of yourself”
“Found a girl yet? Are you gay?”
Sidenote: Not anymore. I don’t care what they say today.

Basically, I did not like the idea of one day getting married and have children and left it to that until – how every biggest asshole ever says – I mature.
I didn’t see girls around my age as relationship material and basically was not interested. I kept the scrapped tiny pocket money I had and spent it on the very little things I could afford with it: Lemonade, Chips, Fruits, Snacks and basic foods to feed myself… and even that was not enough.
I didn’t waste a single thought on how to impress somebody when empty pocketed because today it’s 99,9% impossible. Money and looks for men are in fact a factor today.

Red pill effects: Emerging of teases, anger and oppression.

Age 18-20
Little has changed I guess.
I started to consider marriage only and philosophed a ton: Why is it the man, who makes the biggest expense on marriage? What for? Why is it called her day? Why is it he, that kneels down in front of her? What future awaits after marriage? Why do so many people do it and I do not like it? Is it me or them? Why are there sayings about “real men …” and what’s the deal with women and sex? Why does today’s love require money and wealth to impress? Is this what it is all about? I can’t imagine myself being possibly happy with that, is it true what they say?

Question for question, answer for answer it all lead only to one basic pattern: Degradation of a man.

I still afforded the same I could with the little money I had and still suffered under-nutrition.

I started to think about society and marriage yet again but this time in much closer detail: If I have nothing today, what expense can I do when I have nothing now? I lived quite long enough in poverty and when I crawl out of poverty only to get married and return to poverty, screw that. I started realization of what marriage is doing with all elements of the man and his resources and assets…
… just to make her happy and me not.

And just because I have a penis means they expect me to do just that!
Not only was my decision from childhood unchanged but it also has manifested firmly into it. My decision to never get married is as sturdy as a big castle on a high hill. The only siege, that could possibly defeat it is fortunately an unrealistic one: Non-existent characters from some cartoon/anime shows or video games. They were designed much better and more original than what ordinary girls behave like (I have t~~~ and pussy. I am the prize!).

Red pill effects: Shock, Rage of expectations, unique sort of depression (while not exactly depression – that moment you realize what is going on), fully waking up.

Age 20-21 (Today)
Well, here I am.
Basically I don’t care anymore. I have my time and energy and they won’t be expensed on something as stupid as getting married or catching a gold digger. I went icecold and ghost. Once I get a job and some more money, girls inevitably will appear (I have observed that a lot) and try to catch my “heart” of a coldblooded beast… that what I have become.
Because my shields are up and protecting me, powered by the red pill engine. They will try to get inside me but my awareness is higher than their efforts to conquer my wealth.

Red pill effects: Calmness, peace, harmony and comfort.

Summary: For me, the red pill started a little aggressively and developed into disappointments and a sort of depression. A few days during realizations it left me in shock. Once these negative reactions were over, I feel nothing else than the positive effects, that are currently running my life.

"We are free to follow our own path. There are those who will take that freedom from us, and too many of you gladly give it. But it is our ability to choose – whatever you think is true – that makes us human. There is no book or teacher to give you the answers, to show you the path. Choose your own way! Do not follow me, or anyone else."

[NerdtasticParticipant 194]

Nice thought you have there. When I was younger I decided marriage was a bad deal seeing family get divorced and my conviction of this has only gtown.

My red pill kicked in after I left my ex wondering why wasn’t I good enough and started looking online for answers. The knowledge I found was staggering to say the least.

I dated a few woman after that but it was terrible. One woman’s tuna smelt so bad and had damn toilet paper on it still I gagged and left then. The other was fun at first but drooling at thought of babies and marriage after 1 week.

Now it’s more about me with moments of rage when I see the stupid s~~~ they say and do. Besides that it’s gotten way more peaceful.

[Blue SkiesParticipant 15665]

great post! i enjoyed reading it.
wow, it looks like you took the red pill at a young age.

my red pill effects……

peace, freedom, less stress, financial stability (a.k.a. even more freedom)

MGTOW is not a movement, it is a way of life.

[Anonymous 11]

Ascended wrote:

“Found a girl yet? Are you gay?”

God, I used to really hate that one.

Nice write up too especially contrasted against what I wrote.

I remember making the Red Pill transition not knowing it was Red Pill. I spent a few years feeling like I was on my own.

Red Pill for me is a continuous encompassing process of personal evolution both including and superseding women. I share many of your effects too.

[Anonymous 42]

Red pill effects:

At first it’s insomnia, anger, disbelief, denial, and a host of bad emotions (any red pill). \

Then the pieces of the puzzle slowly fall into place and wisdom is born!

Then that area of your life becomes controlled, organized, targeted, and settled.

Then confidence, comfort, easement, relaxation, and genuine happiness as all the mind razors that once slashed through your head are forever removed.

After fully digesting the red pill (any red pill) I get a strong spirit of PEACE Like it’s set in stone….

[Silverstone the SecondParticipant]

The dots began to connect themselves, and drew a picture of society that was totally unlike the one I had been told my whole life. That punctuated by some red pill rage, at how society treats men, and how unfair it is, and despite that, women are still up on the f~~~ing cross playing bleeding heart martyrs.

Then comes peace.

Feminism is a movement where opinions are presented as facts and emotions are presented as evidence.

[VarunParticipant 2981]

My first red pill side-effect was after two-three days of taking the first dose. I think I made a post over here “Fighting an internal war” about how I was experiencing withdrawal symptoms for not taking the blue pill. Thankfully, the guys over here gave me valuable insights and saved me.

I’ve been told a lot about my ‘obligations’. More to me than to my brothers…just ’cause I was a ‘good’ boy in comparison. People were like :

“Wow! You’re really good at completing household chores. You’re gonna make your future wife very happy.” <- Didn’t understand why I’d make her happy until I came here of course.

“That smile’s gonna attract a lot of girs for you” <- This got deep into my subconscious, so I barely smiled through my teen years.

The ultimate obligation though, I ‘believed’ that I would not fail.. because I would have to do it for my mother. She was like : “One day, I’d like to hold my grand children.” She’s stil under the obvious delusion that I’m gonna have a good life with a ‘good family’ which I won’t….and I’m very worried even now that one day, when she finds out, she’ll be very sad. That part affected me very much. But I’ve decided to deal with it when the time comes.

A bird in the hand is worth two in the bush.

[StargazerParticipant 12505]

I didn’t start applying red pill concepts to my social life until late in the game, but I was red pill when it came to religion, family and work pretty much from the time I was a teenager.

The most difficult adjustment for me has been letting go of the idea that there would be a woman out there who would be the perfect match for me, who would stand by me and help me grow and improve as a person while I looked after and took care of her.

To be sure, I’ve never been married and rarely had any long term relationships… but only because I wouldn’t settle for anything less than that one, ideal woman. Having to accept that she simply doesn’t exist has not been easy. Yes, there has been anger and resentment and I’ve struggled with ideas of fairness and confusion over women’s behavior but I’ve finally come to accept reality.

It’s really not surprising but it took a long time to root out all the bulls~~~ they stuffed into my head when I was young.

[Big Viking Chef BVCParticipant 1286]

Confusion and anger, followed by wisdom and clarity…all leading to:

BVC

Swallow this RED PILL ===> Men will lay down their lives for their brothers, their women and their children. This makes Men useful as slaves. Women will lay down their lives for ONLY their children. To expect more from women is just a FANTASY created by society and reinforced by the unconditional love that we experienced from our Mothers. The key to freedom is the understanding that the woman you meet is not going to fantastically love you like your Mother did. If you buy into the fantasy, then she is your new master. If you do not buy into the fantasy, then she is nothing, and you retain your freedom.

[Mango IngawayParticipant 2264]

I’ve never really had red pill rage, but I do get p~~~ed when I hear my parents spew the old “When you’ll be married and you’ll have kids, you will do x and y…”

I don’t want any of this s~~~ty lifestyle.
Busting your ass off for nothing, nothanx.

Other than that I’m pretty chill, it takes a lot to get on my nerves.
I don’t get mad at feminists and the likes anymore cause retards gonna retard.
Just do your own thing and be happy, that’s the core of mgtow!

It is a common failing of childhood to think that if one makes a hero out of a demon the demon will be satisfied.

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