Suicide?

[Russky2Participant 3100]

I just want to clarify and give a bit more details as to why this is in my mind. First of all I’m not going to eject just yet. I’m talking about an unwritten future when I’m too old to do anything for either MYSELF or anyone close to me. I wold NEVER EVER EVER do this for pussy. But money is a different issue.

I don’t drink alcohol, don’t smoke but do ganja sometimes. My mind is clear 99% of the time. My family was struggling financially for most of my childhood. I was born in 86, and 90s were hardcore times after the collapse of good ole Soviet Union. We had to melt snow just to get any water. One of my biggest fears is ending up in poverty. For those of you who have it made and never experienced it, you have no idea what it’s like. I never want to go through this again.

Another thing is that I just do not wish to live in this world when I can barely walk. There will be no one to help me, and the idea of dying because I can’t get up to even cook for myself really bothers me.

My last point is that I sincerely hate paying taxes. The CRA and IRS are criminal mafia and they leech of of YOU and ME! They will throw us in jail if we don’t pay them. But how about we throw them in there for taking money from us? How about that? Does anyone ever consider this? Last time I checked Obama and Trudeau were on a list of the most richest presidents an pm’s in the world.

So I think that if things go further into oblivion, there is a limited choice. Yes sure finding hobbies, occupying yourself with good books are all wonderful things but I’m not sure if I will be able to enjoy them when all I have is a cane in my hand.

MGTOW AKBAR

[FullMetalExoParticipant 2383]

Damn, you got some heavy, dark expectations. Not that they are unrealistic, but still.
Well then, I will die while playing Half Life 3 anyway… or while waiting for it to come out. Or I will be drinking with my old-fart friends.

Doesn’t bother me.
Things going to oblivion (or people saying that more like ) … Since FOREVER. Life goes up and down in waves.

Me and my best friend decided when we will be old farts, to buy/rent a yacht, go out in to Atlantic Ocean, get drunk as hell and get in to a storm on it. Now that’s a proper way out.

Going out in a Point Break movie style.

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[MutineerParticipant 1467]

I can relate to russky2 quite a bit. I’ve always felt it was a question of when not if i do myself then. I tried my first suicide attempt at 11. The thought of losing my health(it’s already starting to go) terrifies the s~~~ out of me and i don’t want to die alone in my apartment, covered in fleas or rotting away in some dingy retirement home. No doubt there’d be some old drama queen who’d drive you crazy and there’d be no escape.

I’ve often wondered if accepting the Red Pill makes one more likely to feel suicidal. The truth about human nature and the lies we’ve been told is pretty darn depressing. By taking the MGTOW route, you’re also guaranteeing you’ll either die alone or end up in a home. We know too well that you could get married, have kids and still end up in the same place; albeit with a lighter bank account and an even s~~~tier retirement home.

Poverty terrifies me too. Which group is most obsessed about money? The poor. Obsessing about money is no way to live. I’m burning through my savings and when it’s gone it’ll probably be the time to go.

Meanwhile, this site inspires me to live day-to-day. If i hadn’t discovered it last February, i may not have been here to write this message.

If feeling suicidal, try a 30 day cooling off period. Talk to someone. Do everything you can think of to fix the issue. Don’t throw your life away on a whim.

“The thought of suicide is a great consolation: by means of it one gets through many a dark night”. – Nietzsche

"The secret to happiness is freedom... And the secret to freedom is courage." - Thucydides

[MutineerParticipant 1467]

FullMetalExo wrote:

Me and my best friend decided when we will be old farts, to buy/rent a yacht, go out in to Atlantic Ocean, get drunk as hell and get in to a storm on it. Now that’s a proper way out.

Going out in a Point Break movie style.

Awesome idea. Reminds me of one of my favourite scenes from One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest. If you don’t mind me asking, how old were you when you got in shape, went back to school etc?

"The secret to happiness is freedom... And the secret to freedom is courage." - Thucydides

[FullMetalExoParticipant 2383]

In short:
I joined mgtow.com at March 04, 2015 at the age 26
I started my diet since September 2014 till August 2015.

From 189 pounds to 163 pounds. (86kg >> 74kg)

Mutineer wrote:

FullMetalExo wrote:

Me and my best friend decided when we will be old farts, to buy/rent a yacht, go out in to Atlantic Ocean, get drunk as hell and get in to a storm on it. Now that’s a proper way out.

Going out in a Point Break movie style.

Awesome idea. Reminds me of one of my favourite scenes from One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest. If you don’t mind me asking, how old were you when you got in shape, went back to school etc?

Long version:
Since I was 17ish till 25 I was wasting what could’v been best time of my life.

In August 2014 I still felt like s~~~, but I moved from an old house to a solid apartment.

I visited Moscow (Internet friends) for a first time.
Moving around gave me that incentive to use the momentum I had in life to skyrocket out of my depression once and for all. My motivation was trough the roof at that point.

I started my diet since September 2014 till August 2015. Water diet for a year. No tea, no coca-cola, no sugar or sweets. No feeding after midnight, like Gremlins etc.
If the clock was 18:00 – I would only drink water and never eat before night time to NOT accumulate weight as I was still doing f~~~ing nothing for a year.

I joined mgtow.com at March 04, 2015 at the age 26 when I was feeling better, I rethink-ed everything I needed to rethink and dedicated to my new goal – medical field.
I wished to drastically enhance my physique and get myself in shape for the medical college, I wanted to feel good and concentrate on my new life ahead of me.

I lost 8kg (17 pounds) on a diet and exercise that year+summer activity (MTB + swimming once every week in the Baltic sea + running/excercise in the forest).
Next year I lost another 4 kg as I study/worked in a hospital, without a diet or excercise. Just by study/work alone.

I was 86-87 kg in 2014, now from 2015 and until now Im at 72-75kg depending on my vacation time/activity.

PS. My new goal is starting to exercise physically again to get a bit more muscle strength, 2 month’s prior that I go to work as Paramedic, beginning this Summer. There is no goal to lose weight for me anymore, as its good for me (mass/height ratio).
I have the best time of my life this last 3 years.

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[MutineerParticipant 1467]

FullMetalExo wrote:

In short:
I joined mgtow.com at March 04, 2015 at the age 26
I started my diet since September 2014 till August 2015.

From 189 pounds to 163 pounds. (86kg >> 74kg)

Congrats man. You’re an inspiration. I’m planning on doing something similar this year. I also want to get in shape, although i don’t have much weight to lose, then retrain in the medical field. I’ll be 31 this year and i’ve spent the last 12/13 years in a depressive haze. It may be too late for me but i have nothing left to lose. That can be liberating in a sense. If only i had the red pill knowledge sooner.

"The secret to happiness is freedom... And the secret to freedom is courage." - Thucydides

[FullMetalExoParticipant 2383]

Mutineer wrote:

FullMetalExo wrote:

In short:
I joined mgtow.com at March 04, 2015 at the age 26
I started my diet since September 2014 till August 2015.

From 189 pounds to 163 pounds. (86kg >> 74kg)

Congrats man. You’re an inspiration. I’m planning on doing something similar this year. I also want to get in shape, although i don’t have much weight to lose, then retrain in the medical field. I’ll be 31 this year and i’ve spent the last 12/13 years in a depressive haze. It may be too late for me but i have nothing left to lose. That can be liberating in a sense. If only i had the red pill knowledge sooner.

It is liberating, Im worried less about stuff in life and I just do what I need to do and start from the blank page at any age if you need it. I forgive myself and move on.

Nothing to lose and everything to gain, and I wish you the best of luck!

Have a mantra that you repeat at the morning to yourself if you must, a line that will inspire you, in a mirror or not. Program yourself for better.

Good night !

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[,Participant 1301]

FullMetalExo wrote:

In short:
I joined mgtow.com at March 04, 2015 at the age 26
I started my diet since September 2014 till August 2015.

From 189 pounds to 163 pounds. (86kg >> 74kg)

I wished to drastically enhance my physique and get myself in shape for the medical college, I wanted to feel good and concentrate on my new life ahead of me.

PS. My new goal is starting to exercise physically again to get a bit more muscle strength, 2 month’s prior that I go to work as Paramedic, beginning this Summer. There is no goal to lose weight for me anymore, as its good for me (mass/height ratio).
I have the best time of my life this last 3 years.

I have 30years on you but I arrived at the same fork in the road as you. Almost identical numbers, rah!
-60 lbs over three years, now in the toning and fitness phase and the last three years: I have the best time of my life this last 3 years.

Positive outlook, always a success every day. Slay the world with happiness.

with joy/without hate

[Anonymous 11]

Russky2 wrote:

I wold NEVER EVER EVER do this for pussy.

I’m anti-suicide though I am very happy you’d never do it over pussy. Some c~~~s would get off on it. My friend’s c~~~ felt guilty. I had to tell her the truth. He always had that bend plus his doctor had him on the school shooter SSRI drugs. Celexa in this case. Suicidal/Homicidal thoughts are potential side effects of the SSRI drugs in some people.

I’d flat refuse to take SSRIs. I don’t give a f~~~ what an MD thinks about it either.

Don’t get me started on the CIA.

[channel-zParticipant 228]

Three acquaintances of mine have taken their lives– two of them in the past year.

Personally, I think the biggest “f&ck you” to the world, to the people who wish you harm, is to live as long as possible.

[surferdudeParticipant 159]

What makes me furious, is the fact how difficult it is for the human species to be content and happy.

I´m quite ashamed to admit that not a week goes by where I don´t think about suicide. Looking at my life, i should be perfectley happy. I am young , healthy, not broke ( even if I was, it wouldn´t matter , because I live in one of the richest countries on earth , where we have a generous social system ) and if I wanted to I could probably persue most careers as university is free in my country.

Being self conscious has allowed our species to achieve great things , but it also a curse. Somethimes i wish I could be a dog or kid again.

Stick around brother . As MGTOW Men we have been given the most valuable knowledge in history, that wasn´t available to billions of men before us. The choice to live for us ! and thanks to Keymaster a support system of people who truely care for our well-being .

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