Rough Night Over Here At Sky HQ

[Sky-OParticipant 18965]

Just want to thank you guys for keeping the wisdom, insight and all powerful philosophy going strong in the forum.

It’ almost 1am right now. I’ve been watching the Jagermeister in the bottle get lower by the hour.

And I’ve actually been a walking train wreck for the last three days.

It has always hit in waves. And gradually got to a point where months would go by without thinking about her. Then it would hit again. Crashing down on me like a wave and knocking out any feigned invincibility and fragile bravado that I had shielded myself with to get through another day.

There were many before her, but she was the only one that had the ability to break me down. Systematically and methodically until I was fractured to the point where I was a shell of the man I was prior.

It was as if Satan had hand sculpted her in what became my ideal image of beauty. The dynamic curves, dark eyes and a touch that imprisoned me from day one.

As I type this in the aftermath of what has been a series of texts from her in the last week attempting to psychologically
infiltrate the Sky-O perimeter:

She lays asleep a few hours from here. Asleep next to her unsuspecting Beta. And she will wake up next to him in the morning.

And amidst the well crafted charade she initiated with him prior to what would be considered her pre-wall phase, he has met any and all Beta requirements and qualifications.

She was the one that led me here. I found this sanctuary that has proven to have saved my life when I had found the strength to finally get away from her.

I had left and condemned myself to walking this Earth alone and in what I believed at the time to be, half a life without her.

There was a darkness and a pain within her that I could not define. It was all consuming and suffocating. Her eyes were the first warning. Then came the pathological lying, lack of empathy and sociopathic aura.

In the end, I had to escape and salvage what was left of my soul. Forge forward, never look back and carve out a new meaning in this world.

But on nights like tonight, some kind of cosmic energy draws me back to the memories and the unrestrained passion that defined the shallow existence we shared together.

She was my dark angel. And my heart was crucified.

[ghostParticipant]

Hang in there buddy. I can sympathize with you. I also have nights like that. We are happy that you are here.

[bladeParticipant]

Is this the same chick you mentioned in old bills thread that smashed ya face in a 69 and you ate both her holes .

I bet beta boy wont be eating s~~~ if ya want to look at it from that angle .

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[Anonymous 1]

Sky-O wrote:

It has always hit in waves. And gradually got to a point where months would go by without thinking about her. Then it would hit again. Crashing down on me like a wave and knocking out any feigned invincibility and fragile bravado that I had shielded myself with to get through another day.

How long has it been? Should have gone some way to breaking the emotional attachment by now.

I was infatuated with a borderline disordered female a while back and the crushing lows and lonely whiskey soaked evenings were the order of the day for the first few months, but I eventually broke the back of it.

I saw her the other at a beer festival – she came running up to me and kissed me on the cheek and I felt, well, nothing and let me tell you, nothing felt GOOD!.

You’re not doing yourself and favours still speaking to her (if you’re responding). I’d recommend ceasing all contact and blocking her – that’s part of your problem. Speaking to her must be like getting dumped all over again. Right back where you started.

[Anonymous 13]

Sky-O wrote:

As I type this in the aftermath of what has been a series of texts from her in the last week attempting to psychologically
infiltrate the Sky-O perimeter:

I’m sorry to hear you’re still going through it at times.

Just a thought here.

DELETE HER.

If she’s still able to text you then that in itself can be half the problem.

We need to cut these people from our lives 100%,

NOT 97.8%.

The texts ALONE are keeping a connection with her.

Delete all pics you still have of her.
Delete all texts.
Block her.
Change number if you have to.

ANYTHING of hers in your life must be DELETED.

The act of this deletion process actually really does help to break any spiritual or ethereal ties to her in your mind and helps you heal.

It really does.

Like a purging process.

If she’s STILL texting you, even if you don’t answer, you’re still allowing part of her to influence you, even if the texts just make you think of her, briefly.

You have got to DELETE HER.

PERMANENTLY.

[Anonymous 12]

She was the one that led me here. I found this sanctuary that has proven to have saved my life when I had found the strength to finally get away from her.

Now stay away from her.
Your wounds are still open. The flesh is still Raw.

Do not dip the wounds in acid again.
Not even after the wounds are healed.

Erase her from facebook, phone, change numbers, block her.
You heard the drill on here many times.
Execute.

You may fly in the danger zone, Airboy, but that does not mean you have wings of steel.
You are still human when you jump, and when her Acid melts your wings, you will fall to your death.

Stop the self destructive behavior.
Forgive yourself if you feel you need to.
Learn your lesson.

Let her fade into the past, let her become the nothing she deserves to be.
Let her be a distant memory, a forgotten pebble on a beach, a Cloud that changes shape and dissolves.

Welcome home, awoken once more.
I’d say, like the great M52 “beer is in the fridge”… but that may not be so appropriate today.

[Anonymous 5]

I met my nemesis after finishing 17 years of marriage.
She had that perfect form you’re talking about but it was way more than that, it was her instinctual ability to make you feel like a Greek god.

I walked after realizing I was just an option to her. I kept walking despite every fiber of my existence wanting to still be with her.
I was sick for her for years. I was really sick for her for about 4 or 5 years but she was still in the background of my thoughts for another 4 or 5.

The days were easy. I’d logically go through a long list of reasons why she was toxic and I was far better off without her. But the nights were a different matter because a whole different type of logic seems to take over.
She tried many times to monkey branch me for about 12 years after.
The last time she tried to monkey branch she just seemed like another desperate hamster to me, and I politely cut her off because I wanted to watch some documentary. I tried to let her down as gently as possible.
She found out her powers of torture had waned to indifference. She shouldn’t have made that last call because from then onward, she knew she was irrelevant.
In a very real way I felt sorry for her, but not enough to keep talking with her or call her back.

If her love poisons are still circulating in your bloodstream, the best thing to do is get rid of anything that reminds you of her, including and especially pictures and souvenirs. Anything with her smell, or pheromones too.
Believe it or not, it’s a chemical thing, evolutionary biology. It bonds a disposable male with a breeder and her offspring.
Beautiful women love to abuse this power. They wreck as many man as they can. But just as nature biologically ruined you for her, it ruins her biologically with the wall.

[CarnageParticipant 22113]

That’s not a woman is a poisonous snake, just remember that.

To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.

[TicParticipant 4329]

The one that breaks your heart the most, will be the one that jolts your soul for eternity. In a way, you should be thankful that such an emotional price had to be paid.

Without it, you would still be in the matrix.

Now you’re free.

God bless peace and freedom.

[TicParticipant 4329]

Anonymous wrote:

Beautiful women love to abuse this power. They wreck as many man as they can. But just as nature biologically ruined you for her, it ruins her biologically with the wall.

absolutely. They know what they’re doing. These are the same women, though, who when they reach old age, are the most depressed. It’s a hell of a thing, losing that much power.

God bless peace and freedom.

[Anonymous 6]

I am thankful for every moment my mind is free from being dominated by instinct.

Love really is a very powerful drug it drives a truly insidious biological system that is utterly addictive.

Anonymous wrote:

You have got to DELETE HER.

Like Matrix said.

[Ranger OneParticipant 16836]

If you want to get scientific, think of your brain being the neural net that it is. The neural pathways need to go stale with no reinforcement. That is how neural patterns are stored, with reinforcement.

You need to avoid ANYTHING, including visual, that would cause those neurons to fire along those pathways in your brain that are associated with her.

All my life I've had doubts about who I am, where I belonged. Now I'm like the arrow that springs from the bow. No hesitation, no doubts. The path is clear. And what are you? Alive. Everything else is negotiable. Women have rights; men have responsibilities; MGTOW have freedom. Marriage is for chumps. If someone stands in the way of true justice, you simply walk up behind them and stab them in the heart-R'as al Ghul.

[joetechParticipant]

You are only proving that you are human. I think what you really miss is your youth as it slips away into the past. Dwell not on your past conquests, look to the future. Remember, the only thing that truly awaits you with this married woman of ill repute is the s~~~ vortex. Try to think of it in terms of sky diving. She is the parachute that WON’T open when you pull the rip cord. And if you jump into the sea of life with her, she’ll have your reserve chute and you’ll be left with a roman candle.

"Don't follow in my footsteps...I stepped in something."

[Anonymous 8]

This one’s for you Sky-O.

“She is all, And everything else is small” We are biologically programmed to feel this way, and that perception can override reality, that is why we must take Red Pills daily. Otherwise it’s like moths to a flame, some are gonna bet burnt.

Don’t even entertain her attempts to reach out. Like Mr. Cash says “She’s a billion years away” put her out of your mind as far as possible.

Just remember as you row these murky waters, the guiding light of MGTOW will surely guide you to the shore.
Cold beers are on ice in the cooler when you get there brother. Keep your head up.

[Anonymous 1]

No contact should include – reading texts, emails, looking at photos or checking her social media etc.

Even if you don’t reply, the damage is done. It doesn’t matter if she knows or not.

That’s the only way NC works, that’s the only way it can work.

No contact saves lives and I believe it saved mine.

This goes for anyone lurking.

[TwistParticipant]

Sky,

Sounds like you are rationalizing doing just a little bit of cocaine. Just a little bit. Just for the fun part. Just a tiny little bit…

You already won the war, don’t open the gate.

[Anonymous 42]

Sky-O wrote:

It has always hit in waves. And gradually got to a point where months would go by without thinking about her. Then it would hit again. Crashing down on me like a wave and knocking out any feigned invincibility and fragile bravado that I had shielded myself with to get through another day.

Dude you got SURFERTIGO! You’re out of the ocean but still feel phantom waves, almost exactly like getting sea legs when you’re standing on solid land, or like doing a cigar roll from 18,000 AGL to 500ft and then trying to walk away SURFERTIGO! The memories loose their power to haunt and upset you as you travel further down MGTOW road. look at me, it’s been so long since I had SURFERTIGO I can ride a MGTOW unicycle on a beach ball over the waves! Avoiding the surf altogether!

Sky-O wrote:

She lays asleep a few hours from here. Asleep next to her unsuspecting Beta. And she will wake up next to him in the morning.

One woman, one chance, one lifetime, it’s ended, she’s another man’s garbage.

Sky-O wrote:

I had left and condemned myself to walking this Earth alone and in what I believed at the time to be, half a life without her.

Sky-O! Wake up! Wake up! What are you thinking? She’s not lifetime material, she’s sucking another man’s c~~~ don’t go back, you’ll only f~~~ yourself up even more! That relations~~~ is totally poisoned, keep it sealed no matter what! Don’t be CRAZY!

Sky-O wrote:

There was a darkness and a pain within her that I could not define. It was all consuming and suffocating. Her eyes were the first warning. Then came the pathological lying, lack of empathy and sociopathic aura.

NOW YOU’RE TALKING!

Sky-O wrote:

But on nights like tonight, some kind of cosmic energy draws me back to the memories and the unrestrained passion that defined the shallow existence we shared together.

SURFERTIGO.

Sky-O wrote:

She was my dark angel. And my heart was crucified.

She was a lunatic that likes to surf shallow coral reefs! Women like that will always grind you under! That poor chump she’s with now has no idea he’s in a riptide and about to be torn to pieces, let her contact some other old flame and whatever she can bate, then rip the new chump to pieces!

Stay out of the waves, stick to Sky-O high in the sky cloud leaping!

[AutoliteParticipant]

Carnage wrote:

That’s not a woman is a poisonous snake, just remember that.

Tic wrote:

The one that breaks your heart the most, will be the one that jolts your soul for eternity. In a way, you should be thankful that such an emotional price had to be paid.

Without it, you would still be in the matrix.

Now you’re free.

Sky-O wrote:

I had left and condemned myself to walking this Earth alone and in what I believed at the time to be, half a life without her.

When you were with her you were still alone. You just didn’t know it at the time.

As others have already said, erase everything about her. The memories will diminish but will never completely vanish. This is normal. We all still have memories. They just have less and less effect over time. Just wait it out and you’ll see for yourself…

[Anonymous 43]

lol skyo dipping a toe in the s~~~ vortex, mmmm warm greasy slippery, it tickles a bit

lol

[Puffin StuffParticipant 25018]

This is why I say “Thanks feminism”. Over 50 years ago you had to pay to play by getting married.

Sky baby, do you realize how lucky you live in these times where the only thing you have to worry about after a serious break up is your feelings?

I have a friend outside and he’s facing 30 years of marriage. He can never break up with her. He’s a slave for life.

You just walk away.

Take note brothers. Never get legally attached to any female.

#icethemout; Remember Thomas Ball. He died for your children.

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