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Anonymous43The hardest thing I remember adjusting to after being removed from my dumb fat happy suburban married life was living for myself. I had a wife, 2 kids, a dog, a pool and three cars…and all the responsibilities that went with all that. Suddenly, I was on my own for the first time in forever. I had to do things for myself, no one else.
As a stay at home dad, having all of that responsibility removed was so strange. My whole day revolved around servicing everyone else, and now. just me. At first, I was saddened, shocked and bewildered. What am I supposed to do now? I’m not packing someone’s breakfast and lunch at 5am, I’m not making breakfast for the kids, I don’t have 2 baskets of laundry to do every day. Don’t have to feed the dog. All the house things don’t need doing because they aren’t there any more. I don’t have to go to some idiot inlaws house to hang a picture. No yard to mow, no crabgrass to spray, no chlorine to mix.
I kept busy going to the gym, going to school, going to court, I found other things that I wanted to do. I could do things just for me. I felt selfish. I didn’t have to share me with anyone. I couldn’t have a woman in my life in that first year, I was living in a car. That first year…getting used to quiet, listening to my own self think through things. I had to retrain my brain to be my own best council. I didn’t have to compromise or negotiate with anyone. No one was there to second guess my choices. I found sovereignty for the first time ever.
If you are newly separated or divorced, maybe you are on your own for the first time in a long time. It’s ok, the lost identity feeling is normal. It will be replaced with the I am my own man feeling in no time. Once you get that feeling of complete freedom back, you will never want to give that up.
I have made decisions that as a married man, I could never do, Go to school, take a job in another state, change phones, buy the car I wanted, choose furnishings (or not to have furniture), do the things I want without feeling selfish.
I hope you get to the point where you embrace your own sovereignty. There is nothing like it.
I know you feel better now.
You have a bright future ahead of you.
Your old life would have made you sick and die with regrets about not having lived at all.
We will all cheer you when May 7, 2020 is here!
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I felt selfish.
They – the c~~~s – filled me up with that as a child. I had to work THEIR household work and whenever I did something else, it was considered selfish.
One day I blew a fuse and dropped whatever women said to me. With endless conflict and fighting only doing the opposite inside of me. (I already posted the story of my mother inciting the entire village hive against me)
I began to realize that they are dissatisfied with whatever you do and however you do it. It is futile to try and please a c~~~.
At around age 12, ca. 1979, I started doing what I wanted to do and I knew that this would mean never having a dick holster in my life.
But freedom always prevailed inside of me. Until today.
Once a man is free, there is no turning back.
Giving up just one hobby for a nagging c~~~ would be too much to ask from me.
Vagina has no value.
My rules or no rules at all.
In July of 2018, this honey pot forum was sold out to an unidentified NPC sock puppet and troll organization. Most independent thinkers and writers migrated to other MGTOW forums as a result of the never-ending infighting and deliberate trouble starting caused by members who were given "carte blanche" by the admin to do whatever they want. Before my departure, I only left a few thousand cat pics here to comfort and ridicule the feminist owners who now run this place. Their background agenda is to make MGTOW look like a club of losers the public eye. And during the course of 2019, they actually managed to destroy almost all other MGTOW venues as well. Here is the truth about "theindependentman.org" aka "TIM" which was created as an extended workbench to further divide the community. When you register, they install a spyware Zombie cookie on your browser that does all kinds of things the user does not know of: http://www.filedropper.com/essay-on-the-removal-of-malware-cookies-used-by-tim
Anonymous43living the old life? I’d be dead by now. The c~~~ would probably have killed me in my sleep, or deliberately crashed the car if I was a passenger. She still would have cheated, and my kids would become distance seeking teenagers. Maybe I’d be dead from stress and anxiety.
I was thrown off that road, and went my own way.
Don’t throw parties for me yet, on May 7, 2020 I am appealing my child support order, hopefully get that lifted so I can breath again. It is not an automatic thing.
899 days! Woot! 77,673,600 seconds
My second unc~~~ing and unplugging phase came in 1990.
Those were the actual red pill
ragesadness times I had.Psychology books had opened my eyes.
One of my first real unplugging phases – getting the matrix out of my head
In July of 2018, this honey pot forum was sold out to an unidentified NPC sock puppet and troll organization. Most independent thinkers and writers migrated to other MGTOW forums as a result of the never-ending infighting and deliberate trouble starting caused by members who were given "carte blanche" by the admin to do whatever they want. Before my departure, I only left a few thousand cat pics here to comfort and ridicule the feminist owners who now run this place. Their background agenda is to make MGTOW look like a club of losers the public eye. And during the course of 2019, they actually managed to destroy almost all other MGTOW venues as well. Here is the truth about "theindependentman.org" aka "TIM" which was created as an extended workbench to further divide the community. When you register, they install a spyware Zombie cookie on your browser that does all kinds of things the user does not know of: http://www.filedropper.com/essay-on-the-removal-of-malware-cookies-used-by-tim
At around age 12
I was ” forced” to talk to a pillow and made to pretend it was my dead mother .
It was a prelude for what else was to come . As that pillow became others .
Woman can be evil manipulators . That woman will never leave my mind . Dr evil the c~~~ . Burning in hell now where she belongs
But in a strange way i am thankful .
Nice and depressing
THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .
Anonymous43The sadness, yes, the grief of losing one’s identity and place within a family/s~~~ vortex was horrible. I felt worthless and unwanted, unable to do for myself. That is what put me in the backyard with the mower gas and a BBQ lighter. The one person I trusted in the entire planet betrayed me and threw me away. It is very hard to recover from that. Grief, denial, anger, shock, bargaining all of that all at once. The acceptance is the hardest to achieve.
The other thing I had a hard time with, and maybe some of you guys had this too, the shame of being divorced. No one in my family was divorced. ever. I felt so ashamed, and guilty, just horrible. But the more I talked to people the more I found that they were divorced, getting divorced soon, or children of divorce, and the stigma of being cast out by loved ones dissipated.
I couldn’t dwell on that aspect, I think I was in shock and numb to everything for a week. My family helped me get through that first week. I joined a gym and had a personal trainer just to have someone to be accountable to until school started. I met the trainer at 8am every morning, I’m up and moving, then keep moving through the day. No time to sit and mope.
I was thrown off that road, and went my own way.
We are glad you landed here. And whatever happens, you can be sure of our support.
Your story is a role model for others in such a desperate situation.
You made it out alive and survived and a lurker reading this can do the same. I am sure your posts have already helped countless men.
May, you are not alone. I have met so many men who were under the thumb of a vile c~~~. Well earning customers with good manners what had to ask their ugly witch if they are “allowed” to buy a “noble” TV set from me…
And I was eloquent in dealing with these c~~~s. A payoff from my childhood: I knew how to touch them… A job monopoly. Colleagues sometimes asked me: “How did you do that, we had to kick her out”
Serving C~~~ customers demands “Shark-Riding”. I guess the inventors of that expression came up with it while dealing with “empowered” female customers.
Unimaginable to have someTHING like this in my life.
Almost every night, I drove home and felt so glad and happy to come home to an empty apartment.
No psycho-s~~~, no blaming, yelling, bossing and no damage to my stuff… C~~~s are not worth having in your life.
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I don’t know any other life than living for myself.
I’m not “selfish” .. there is no ish .. only just “self.”I felt worthless and unwanted, unable to do for myself.
They made me feel like that from day one after my birth…
But you are not worthless. They just indoctrinated this into your mind.
And you did it for yourself!
Respect!
The blue pill world indoctrinates this into your brain to keep you in line with slavery. “Stay here because if you leave you will be too stupid and incapable to make it on your own.”
That’s how they keep you on the plantation.
the shame of being divorced.
The shame of being born with 2 DIN A4 pages full of faults.
My sister once made a 2 page list on why I am worthless and a retarded mis-birth. And showed this list around, laughing and ridiculing me.
I was 8 at the time and started to spread fear around me.Since 1975, it was not a good idea to have me as an enemy.
My bomb drawings were so real that all c~~~s in school were deeply in terror about this kid.
Man was my sister c~~~ (and all other c~~~s in these villages here) f~~~ed up to find me doing a rocket career and running a my own company. 20 to 25 years later…
Gold diggers go home and shake your head when I squeak around you on the road.
In July of 2018, this honey pot forum was sold out to an unidentified NPC sock puppet and troll organization. Most independent thinkers and writers migrated to other MGTOW forums as a result of the never-ending infighting and deliberate trouble starting caused by members who were given "carte blanche" by the admin to do whatever they want. Before my departure, I only left a few thousand cat pics here to comfort and ridicule the feminist owners who now run this place. Their background agenda is to make MGTOW look like a club of losers the public eye. And during the course of 2019, they actually managed to destroy almost all other MGTOW venues as well. Here is the truth about "theindependentman.org" aka "TIM" which was created as an extended workbench to further divide the community. When you register, they install a spyware Zombie cookie on your browser that does all kinds of things the user does not know of: http://www.filedropper.com/essay-on-the-removal-of-malware-cookies-used-by-tim
Anonymous42Hey May, I found another sofa!
Anonymous7Rejoice May you have your own bed to sleep in, your own pot to s~~~ in. These two things are more than you had when I landed here.
The only direction for you is up. As you ascend your ex bitch will fade. In other words, you will get the last laugh. Karma is a cold hard bitch and it is coming for your ex-wife.
And just think, now kore and more places they wont let you aloje if you are in your car.
If you park in a walmart lot overnight, are you still safe from being told to move?
Women want everything, but want responsibility and accountability for nothing.
Karma is a cold hard bitch and it is coming for your ex-wife.
I keep hearing this, but I want to see it. In part, I am being impatient. But also skeptical of being strung along by yet another pacifying claim to the universe. Claims like these were the hook that dragged me through decades of self-anasement through religion, and then a soulless marriage that ended with a cry for my own death. Call it red pill rage if you will, but I still actively want to see it.
"Once you’ve taken care of the basics, there’s very little in this world for which your life is worth deferring." -David Hansson. "It’s not when women are mean or nasty that anything is out of the ordinary. It’s when they are NICE to you that you have to be on high alert..." -Jackinov.
Yup. The hardest part is adjusting your mindset to live for yourself. The plantation is so strong that you will sometimes romanticize the slave life as being better than now…LOL…
Its just a lie and when you really look back and see the s~~~ storm you received for all the good and sacrifices you made, you will realize it was not worth it.
It would have been better to live for yourself and spent the money on yourself instead of spending on someone who will destroy you emotionally, psychologically, and financially.
I stand with feet apart and let my balls hang free...Manginas dont have balls...See how they stand and sit at the whim of their masters...
Anonymous7Karma is a cold hard bitch and it is coming for your ex-wife.
I keep hearing this, but I want to see it. I am being impatient.
The wall comes for them all.
Their ONLY asset fades. F~~~ing cat food and box wine is in her future. Doubt not.Karma is a cold hard bitch and it is coming for your ex-wife.
I keep hearing this, but I want to see it. I am being impatient.
The wall comes for them all.
Their ONLY asset fades. F~~~ing cat food and box wine is in her future. Doubt not.The wall hardly compensates for decades of a man’s life stolen from him. We will all grow old, if we are lucky.
"Once you’ve taken care of the basics, there’s very little in this world for which your life is worth deferring." -David Hansson. "It’s not when women are mean or nasty that anything is out of the ordinary. It’s when they are NICE to you that you have to be on high alert..." -Jackinov.
Could tell you were happy the other day, glad your finding your peace brother
"what a waste of a life, to marry, give up your freedom, just for the hope of not dying alone. Don't get married Son."
Nice read, this thread, speaks to me, thanks guys.
Know when it is your duty to give them zero explanations for your actions.
Anonymous5I’m selfish to the core!
I don’t care about anyone else but myf~~~ingself.
Life is good!
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