I feel sorry for you, Rockmaninoff, I truly do. You use the label, you go through the motions, you repeat the thinking, but you don’t actually understand it at all, do you?
You’re like those Pacific Islanders in their cargo cults worshiping John Frum. They watched US troops coming ashore and employing what seemed to be magic as the troops built roads, piers, and airstrips seemingly overnight. Even more importantly, those troops cast off or gave away amazing amounts of previously unattainable goods and food. Then, as the offensives against Japan advanced, all those troops and all their magic went away.
What were the natives to do? Why play act like all those soldiers, sailors, and airmen who left in the hopes that they’d return.
Accordingly, they still paint rank insignia on their arms, march around carrying poles like rifles, build grass huts which look like quonsets, hack out of the jungle clearings they think are airstrips, and construct bamboo boxes they think look enough like radios so they call John Frum to come back.
All of it’s playacting with no real substance and no real understanding of the things they’re pretending to do.
And you are, Rockmaninoff, busily engaged in your own Cargo Cult version of MGTOW.
You feel as if a “piece of you brain is missing” because you seemingly can’t “close” with woman. That’s something a PUA con artist would claim he could “fix”. That’s something which is little more than a feminist insult. That’s not something a man going his own way should waste his time worrying about.
You also seem to believe that all social behavior is inborn rather than learned. That you should somehow “automatically” know how to “score” with a woman in the today’s incredibly rapid shifting of social practices and mores. Again, the pussy begging con artists of the PUA community claim they can help you there, but a man going his own way doesn’t need that kind of help because he doesn’t view it as a problem.
You think something is missing in you and that something is wrong with you because you still believe the gynocentric bulls~~~ which has been crammed into your brain since birth.
You act is if you’ve had you’re red pill awakening and you like to think you’re a man going our own way, but you’re really just going through the motions like those Pacific Islanders praying into bamboo radios.
You’re still worried about getting laid. You’re still worried about fitting in. You’re still worried about what society thinks. You’re a Cargo Cult MGTOW, all surface appearances and no actual understanding.
Engage in some actual introspection. Take a long walk to mull things over. Decide whether you’re ready to be a man going his own way. There’s no shame in deciding you’re not ready yet.
Good luck.
Do not date. Do not impregnate. Do not co-habitate. Above all, do not marry. Reclaim and never again surrender your personal sovereignty.
