Hello to all of you. Thank you for this place to find and learn from like minded men. It is much needed knowledge that I certainly could have used many years ago. That being said, I was well along the path to many of these insights about females long before I joined. It is nice, and also sad, to know that my experiences and the lessons learned have been had by others.
I thought there was something wrong with me.
In reality I am just another guy trying to navigate his way through the often confusing maze of relations with modern females. I have been married twice. I know, “yikes”. You would be correct to say that in response to that statement. My first was at a young age and it ended for the usual reasons, but for me it was a good ending, I didn’t have much to take, she was unfaithful, repeatedly, and readily agreed to the divorce. It didn’t destroy me. Maybe if it had I would not have had to go through the hell that was my second divorce to get where I am now. I lost much in this divorce, financially and emotionally.
In fact I almost died as a result of it, and I live with a crushing depression still 5 years down the road. This was the female of all my misguided dreams and to have lost her to the same bunch of crap was devastating. She was not American and I brought her here. Big mistake. Once she had a set of female American friends, as you can guess, she was and remains totally ruined. I live a rural life in a small village and the lengths she went to to humiliate me by screwing my friends is just appalling.
Those she didn’t screw were told a pack of lies I still have to deal with. For me, she was the first girlfriend I ever had who had not slept with everyone I know. Ridiculous behavior but as you all should know, that is what they are like. So I had four good years before she just totally changed, it seems overnight to me still, but I know she had been plotting this for some time. I won’t bore you all with the details, anyone who wants to know can just ask me, but how about a couple of end of marriage zingers? The knife in the back…..”I can have any guy I want here, why should I stay with you?” delivered to a depressed man.
As if this was not bad enough, a couple weeks later she comes in and twists the knife a good bit with ” I thought my husband would be the first to f~~~ me in the ass” . Seriously, this was said to me. I almost offed myself several months later. Now, years down the line there have been several women who have been visitors or residents at my house, none of them could get close to me and I think that is the only way to be. The last girlfriend, this past summer tried the pregnancy thing. She was the third in my life to try it.
The look on their face when they learn I have a vasectomy is priceless. Knowing that you know they are lying sacks of excrement just makes them angry. I offered a paternity test but that would never do. She knew the truth. As did I. There is good news….I still own my two houses and all my antique musical gear. Guess wifey number two didn’t want them and my lawyer never let her get near the house.
The lies spun in court were eye opening though.
The road to recovery is long and hard and I may very well be on it the rest of my life, but at the very least, the blinders are off now. It is not that I do not trust women, I do. I trust them to be exactly what we all know them to be. I still like women and want their company, I just don’t like what they are, and am angry because I know they do not have to behave so poorly. Oh well. Not much a man can do to change that crap. So now, at 55, I cook, I clean, I play music and learn about physics and astronomy.
I work my gardens. I try and drink as little as possible and stay away from drugs. Even the pernicious drugs that the therapy industry tries to push. None of them worked for me and it has been several years since I would agree to take them. I try to feel good every day for what it is. While going my own way is difficult at best, I still want female companionship, just not the bulls~~~ that comes with it. Being alone is a hard trade off, there is always something missing, but it is not my own integrity. I fear for the future of this society, a man was not made to live without a woman, and this is what we are looking at. A sad state of affairs when the evil of living solitary is better then the evil that femininity has become.
Any questions or discussion will be greatly appreciated.
Be strong and well my brothers.
FuckMe 4 years ago.
