Dear god its what made me wanna gorge my brains out but then fortunately I got hold of the red pill.
1. Dated this girl from work, she was a temp, 22. (Work relations big mistake). Best looking girl in the office.
2. Hooked up with her just before she left the company. Almost everyone at work knew.
Anyway –
3. The eye opener for me was now i see how the whole “dominant” male thing works. I was at a high socially within the workplace, i had a high status there around the time this girl had just started working there. You know how it is, I was talked about by other girls working there that spoke very highly of me etc blah blah bullcrap.
4. I get involved with this girl but, in the back of my mind I always knew and had said to my friend “John, you know what, if i wasn’t even popular there she wouldn’t even like me” So I had this resentment towards her in my gut from the start.
5. I felt myself falling for her hard, so one day, after we had been f~~~ing I decided to not text or speak to her everyday so often.
6. It lasted her 2 days before she reached out to me by text, trying to start a conversation. When i replied she responded with “get up to much yesterday??” I simply said “no not really”
7. Then the phony attitude and distant behavior from her starts, at this point we’re just pulling away from each other further as the weeks go by. Once a week visits become Once in 2 weeks.
8. Had sex again on another date, but…she was on her way to going aboard to see her lil sis for 2 weeks. Day before she flys out we were suppose to meet up. She hits me with “I cant go because im on my period” Knowing this was bulls~~~ i called her up on it so she admitted “Im fine..sigh..its just I haven’t packed” I said cool whatever.
9. I found out she comes back after 2 weeks but she hasn’t contacted me – snapchatting from her becomes more frequent and she seems to be in a club. Me being a total noob spazzes out and takes her off all my social media and i say “look if you just wanna go and move on just go, all the best”. She responded with “erm.. why did you unfollow me?”
10. Some dumb heartfelt conversation goes on over whatsapp with her saying stuff like “its not like we talk everyday” “I didn’t think you were that bothered when I didn’t wanna see you”. I end up saying we might need space. She replies “yeah think me might” – S~~~ test failed!
11. I act like a little bitch, added her back, and the very next day in the afternoon i apologize and say sorry (yuck – im such a idiot) – basically now she wants to be queen bitch, Beyonce / Mrs Independent / my clit is bigger than your thing down there / I didn’t even notice some guy i was f~~~ing unfollowed me / miserable c~~~.
12. A phone conversation I initiated a month later so we could ‘talk’. Goes a little something like me saying “I always cared about you, i didn’t wanna rush it” blah blah bulls~~~. She says “i don’t want any drama, we can be friends” I replied “No, i don’t wanna be your friend” She starts victimizing, says she was surprised I didn’t msg her on holiday after that s~~~ excuse of bleeding out her vag. She says “I wasn’t sure what your intentions were”. The last thing i say to her is “look keep my number, who knows maybe we’ll bump into each other couple years from now – have a nice life”
13. Months go by we don’t talk and I get a new job, and i posted a group pic with old work mates that she knew whilst working there. She likes the posts and some other posts on insta. So thought “i don’t want this bitches face popping up on my phone anymore, she knows we’re not talking, wtf??” So I block her on everything.
14. I imagine to her It looked like i had done a vanishing trick by getting a new job and removing all traces of social media with her. She reached out to her ex manager (who is a friend of mine – older woman) around the time I blocked her. Her ex manager (lets call her Helen). Helen tells me “oh she just reached out to out of the blue, i hadn’t heard from her in a while” (Im thinking this wasn’t out of the blue at all)
“She said she is going to Croatia, and you know what a holiday in Croatia means right?”. Now according to Helen & from what I’ve heard Croatia is like a f~~~ing session on an Island for young dummys in their early 20s.
15. So (in my assumption) she went out to Croatia to go and whore herself out to get me f~~~ing her out of her head – maybe. This was back in July.
16. Then recently about a month ago Helen tells me she has removed her Facebook profile. Hmmmm. I check the link, yep definitely gone. In a f~~~ed up way, im hoping that she made some sort of dumb mistake with some guy in Croatia, resulting in her removing her social network. Maybe she got involved with a creep, maybe they have a sex tape of her who the f~~~ knows. Karma would be sweet.
If you have somehow read through all of this, sorry im venting still after all this time. But in a weird way im glad i went through all this with this Young, Naive & Introvert Narcissist girl – so I can now really know what to look out for in the future. This experience in my opinion is text book girl s~~~. And all the things you shouldn’t do on my end. I listen to Black Phillip Show now and that has helped me a lot.
Thanks guys.
RIP_Patrice 3 years, 2 months ago.
