Sky-O Blue Pill Era: Range Of Emotions

[Sky-OParticipant 18936]

At the peak of my blue pill era, I have to admit, immersed within the entire situation for years: I experienced the widest range of emotions ever and it was a non-stop emotional roller coaster.

Not necessarily a bad thing but it was also not sustainable or even consistent with what my life needed over the long term.

01 (Illusion of) romantic love. A high that I am not sure that any man made psycho-pharmacutical drug could duplicate. Instilling energy and a passion for life as long as I was naive enough to think the woman I was with was capable of feeling the same way.

02 Anger – If or when a woman I was with indicated that she might be cheating or I became suspicious. Never angry at her due to still being blinded by ‘love’ but an almost adrenaline surged homicidal rage towards the other guy or guys even in the absence of knowing who another guy was

03 Sexual based euphoria that probably triggered oxytocin and endorphins in my brain. Once again, it is possible that no existing available drug could duplicate any of that

04 Frustration – at the fact that not a single woman that I was with was ever on the same team or reciprocated within the relationship in any real way. I attributed that to a theory I had that hotter women have the option of being parasitical and I was just getting what I signed up for

05 Bonding – a facade that I believed where I finally met my soul mate and she was actually going to love me despite everyone in my life prior actually not caring about me. I felt safe and secure. Which I came to realize was a non-alpha state of being and as a result, I regulated myself to beta mode without knowing it.

06 Confusion – nothing that I did, despite the effort was ever good enough and the rules kept shifting and changing. I was trying to keep up with the empty promises from pumpkins. Almost chasing those empty promises like running on a treadmill then wondering why I was in the same place hours later.

07 Despair and depression at the inevitable collapse each and every time reality crashed straight into my illusion again and through no fault of my own it was over.

08 Hope – as I regrouped, healed, recovered and started all over again only with a new pumpkin. Expecting things to be different and existing in a constant state of attempting to make the same situation have a different outcome

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That was and is NO WAY for a man to live and conduct his life, given the limitted amount of finite time we have on this Earth

Never again

[DanceMyOwnWayParticipant 2097]

The biological programming and romantic conditioning of men is strong indeed. The only sane solution these days is to live free and for yourself, but we do lose those highs. I guess it’s to be experienced in other areas of adventure, like skydiving and not the female of the species.

If you fall down 7 times, get up 8

[iMickey503Participant 12465]

The worst part of my transition to MGTOW was understanding that it drove me mad to think about just how much stock I put into a worthless item.

Seeing all over the world how men young and old are treated by women and society? I am no longer under the spell of thinking that I have lost anything of value.

When you are young, you have this Pretty picture in your mind. You are thinking of Van Halen, and large weddings and a wonderful life you share with another person.

I’m done sharing. I’m done working for other people. And I’m done pushing other men into the fireplace to become ashes.

Each day they tell you to fight for something that is of no value to you. It’s all a Mirage. Smoke and Mirrors. Bait and switch.

I will never forget how my ex’s grandmother put it as “Why pay for the cow when you can get the milk for free?

That’s a really good question! And it tells you all you need to know about women.

What MILK are we talking about here? Cuz last time I heard, Spoiled milk is worthless.

You are all alone. If you have been falsely accused of RAPE, DV, PLEASE let all men know about the people who did this. http://register-her.net/web/guest/home

[TwistParticipant]

Sky-O wrote:

she was actually going to love me despite everyone in my life prior actually not caring about me.

Sky-O wrote:

…with a new pumpkin. Expecting things to be different and existing in a constant state of attempting to make the same situation have a different outcome

Hope is a noble trait, but damn can it cripple you.

Sort of how that Hope & Change thing worked out.

Another excellent post Sky – I was nodding to it point by point.

And all that was/is needed was some simple guidance, imparted in a way that it could be noted and hopefully absorbed. Even less chance of that happening today with the extinction of Fathers, hopefully sites like this one can stand in.

[XSDBSParticipant 3598]

iMickey503 wrote:

I will never forget how my ex’s grandmother put it as “Why pay for the cow when you can get the milk for free?

I’ve heard this same quote many times, but I think the following is more accurate…

Why pay for the cow when someone else can get the milk for free?

[AwakenedParticipant 35202]

Sky-O wrote:

I experienced the widest range of emotions ever and it was a non-stop emotional roller coaster.

That’s what the damn Blue Pill SPECIALIZES IN.

Sky-O wrote:

Not necessarily a bad thing

Personally, I think that it SUCKS….Hard to have much tranquility in your life when your head is full of unicorns, fairy tales, and ongoing emotional BULLSH)T.

Sky-O wrote:

That was and is NO WAY for a man to live and conduct his life, given the limitted amount of finite time we have on this Earth Never again

ABSOLUTELY!!!!

In a World of Justin Beibers Be a Johnny Cash

[DanceMyOwnWayParticipant 2097]

Sex and companionship can feel really great, especially in the honeymoon stage. I’ve had women treat me like a king. It never, ever, ever, ever, ever lasts. I still struggle with blue pill and beta thinking. Logic however is strong. There is no defeating female nature in our current, sexist gynocentric society and all the cucks and simps and chads have screwed it for the rest of any of us left with a backbone who say NO to the modern woman. Now even low smv old women get simp attention or fatties and the average women think they are hot and the others think they are godesses. It’s depressing. I still can enjoy women, their sex, company and friendship but the red pill is too strong in me to hold on to hope, romantic love of the illusions that burned us repeatedly. I never married or cohabite or impregnated so at least got that right.

If you fall down 7 times, get up 8

[DanceMyOwnWayParticipant 2097]

And great post by the way. This would have been under Top Gun under the previous regime!

If you fall down 7 times, get up 8

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