This is just some progress and new thoughts I experienced.
I’ve been reading the threads here for the last week (and it’s been over 1.5 months since I started trying to figure things out) – I just eat, sleep, get s~~~ done for my university and read, and read, and read, and sometimes watch videos on different topics.
One of the things, that slightly surprises me, is that I don’t feel that much anger. Sure, there was some, but mostly I feel hurt and rather calm. I suppose, it’s easier to accept a lot of thoughts here, when you just assume that the whole foundation of them is true (f.e. what feminism and women really are). I just accept it. I think that helped me a lot when dealing with my emotions.
Another thing I am looking at completely differently now is friendship with my female-friends. I know some of them from my early childhood, some of them for a relatively long period of time. Having taken some dozens of the red pill, I decided to analyze my relationship with them. And you know what? These relationships seem completely pointless to me, because in most cases I don’t get anything other than their emotional garbage, problems, stories of their lives. They don’t really bring anything to the table other than their company. Since I assume, that most of women are mimics, I realize that all of my conversations, that weren’t about some stupid bulls~~~, didn’t give me anything except an opportunity to just express my thoughts. I was always told to keep relationships with people because you never know how things may end up and that one day those people might help you (just because or in hour of need), but hey, it may be way too much work sometimes. Anyway, for now I don’t see the point in just stopping relationships with them considering that at the moment they did me no harm, but I think I am gonna change the rules and be more careful with everything.
But the point is that females lost my credit of trust to them. They did lose much of my respect. I do want to do my own things now.
Another thing, that might inspire some of new people around here, who are trying to make out if this whole MGTOW-approach makes sense – it does. I just turned 21, and my life became relatively easier in terms of me getting along with the world around me and my inner self. I don’t feel lost, confused, depressed just because of some stupid s~~~ or presumptions. I am me. Sure, I am still wondering around, I have a lot of stuff I will need or have to do, but hey.
Another interesting thing I would want to slightly dig into is foundation and direction. To some extent, I use it as an excuse to learn about MGTOW and stuff, but still. The point I want to make is that maybe it’s much better to just sit, relax, take your time off and research. Because you want to get a solid foundation you are going to build one. You don’t have to do it constantly – you just need a solid basic foundation. Why? Because it will determine where you will go and what you will end up with. I mean, no one wants to make the same mistake they once did. The same here. You don’t want to make mistakes others did. The problem of “being one blowjob away from becoming a blue pillar again”, in my opinion, is a bad foundation. You see the point.
When you make your own rules, you are going to follow them. You want to. But MGTOW – these are the rules you are going to live by and which will determine who and what you will become. This is not just some s~~~ such as losing five kilos for the summer and then either keep in form or go back to your usual state. This is your f~~~ing life.
Another thing I realised is that I am alone. I finally came to terms with it. I stopped (or trying to) controlling people, trying to keep them in my life. I realised that I wanted them to be in my life as kind of an outlet, to have an impression that I am not alone. It’s like the difference between the verbs “hear” and “listen”. People can hear you, but that doesn’t mean that they listen to you. At first this feeling of being alone may be frustrating, but then you just realize that this is more or less a natural state.
I think, that’s all I wanted to say after this week. I will keep digging in.
You, guys, rock.
Thanks.
Sam Raven 4 years, 9 months ago.
