My introduction

[GragasParticipant 9]

Sup guys…

I’ve never been great at intoductions or the whole social thing, even what passes for it online. But I’ve spent the last
couple months lurking here reading your stories, and wisdom, and could see that this was a place full of
similar souls. So here I am.

I’m 36 and I’ve been GMOW for a few years now. My gestalt moment, like many of your was a emotionally
wrenching moment — the end of what was supposed to be that “perfect” relationship. It was 2008 and I was
engaged. It was the height of the job shedding ecomony and I lost my engineering job like so many others
lost their jobs at the time. We had a very expensive lease for where we were living, and it was only about
halfway through the lease term when I lost my job. She was going to law school, and of course could not
possibly work because her studies were too important. This had not bothered me at the time because my
salary had been than ample for covering everything plus having some to put away in investment/saving.
Long story short, I ended up having to take a “much less prestigious” job in the interim to try to make
ends meet and instead of trying to chip in, she broke off the engagement and bolted.

I spent the next six months scraping and barely sleeping making sure I didn’t get thrown out on the street,
barely eating, or anything else. Not too many months later she was engaged to some other guy that was
“just a friend.” And that was the sealing moment for me.

I was bitter for a couple years. I’ve suffered depression a good portion of my life, and those couple
years were really rough on my soul and psyche. I am ashamed to say I almost took my own life at one point.
But now at least I am able to see that this event was a blessing. I got off easy compared to some of you.
If this had happened just a year later, it would have been so much worse.

Now I’m indifferent toward females. When I am out in public, they don’t even register to me. I am trying
to spend my time and attention on getting my life and career back together after so many years of neglect
and I don’t have time for that garbage now. AKA putting my energy into something that will benefit me
and not destroy everything I work for.

Again, thanks to everyone here for your stories and wisdom. They help even those who already know
what time it is to keep centered and feel at home.

[revistaParticipant 232]

Welcome gragas glad you find yourself in a better place.im sure you are financially and emotionaly.i also suffered with depression in similar circumstances.it was tough road back but you find it.it can be a lonely road but its worth it.you seem clued up good luck my friend.

[Anonymous 42]

You got monkey branched dude, I was talking to my MGHOW friend today how his X has no use for him and that’s why they can’t be friends! No more Mr. Mechanic, home repairman, or clam slammer! AWALT! We’re nothing more than ammo cartridges in their war on poverty.
I’m tickled f~~~ing PINK I stopped catering to these narcissistic primate branch grabbers! I’m a f~~~ing GREASE POLE! After any attempt on me, they “walk” away dazed by the fall, and covered in grease!
Crush those diamonds men, melt that gold! We need diamond faced tooling and printed circuit boards!

[RoyDalParticipant]

Welcome! I’m glad you made it. You went through hell, came out the other side stronger and wiser. Good for you, and keep up the good work!

Society asks MGTOWs: Why are you not making more tax-slaves?

[GragasParticipant 9]

Thanks guys.

@MG-ɹǝʍo┴: hahaha man that grease pole comment gave me a good laugh. Just picturing that, oh boy.. haha

@STEALTHY MGTOW I’ve tried a few different meds over the years… they all made me feel like a walking zombie. One of them contributed to getting me fired in 2006 because I couldn’t mentally do the mathematics required for my job while taking them. But at that point, a walking zombie was preferable to suicidal thoughts. I’ll have to ask my doc about that one.

I think my biggest problem with depression is I’ve lost any joy in even what I used to have some in. Engineering work always made me feel like I was accomplishing something and contributing something useful. I haven’t been able to recapture that joy in that work or anything else, so I continue searching. Meanwhile I get by on a meager existence, But I don’t need much without a soul sucking leech attached to me.

[megatoad69Participant 449]

To put a positive spin on it, (like you have)
If she is that shallow, she did you a favour by leaving you.

Stand By Your Man (so long as he serves his master and provides comfort through his sweat)
Leave your man (when he could use your help)

You can't reason with unreasonable, there; women, figured out, there is nothing to reason.

[HitmanParticipant]

welcome brother ! you got lucky , if you made a kid with that crazy c~~~ you would be payin thru the nose for 21 years….14 1/2 to go for me dude ..mgtow saved me when i realized i had PLENTY of company ..you are NOT alone anymore !

[MyselfParticipant 353]

Gragas wrote:

Long story short, I ended up having to take a “much less prestigious” job in the interim to try to make
ends meet and instead of trying to chip in, she broke off the engagement and bolted.

I spent the next six months scraping and barely sleeping making sure I didn’t get thrown out on the street,
barely eating, or anything else. Not too many months later she was engaged to some other guy that was
“just a friend.” And that was the sealing moment for me.

Experienced something similar, twice, and have seen it happen to others I don’t know how many times. A so-called “serious relationship” ends, yet in what seems like the blink of an eye, she has found someone else. A breakup can even be amicable, and the best thing for everyone, but it’s just how quickly you’re replaced that is jaw dropping. It really just goes to show that “deep” relationships are in fact incredibly shallow.

Great to meet your acquaintance @gragas and Welcome!

[WallyParticipant]

Welcome to MGTOW, love how you turned what was a negative at the time into a positive. Like you said if you hadn’t lost your job you probably would have married that woman, only to see her true colors later. The red pill can be difficult and bitter to swallow at first but quickly turns sweet.

"what a waste of a life, to marry, give up your freedom, just for the hope of not dying alone. Don't get married Son."

[mackiavelicParticipant 226]

welcome dude. just passed bye to say hi to another fellow League of legends player. Enjoy the stay

[Tex41Participant 45]

Woa, your story blew me away. I got chills when reading your sealing moment. Very inspiration read, I thank you for that.

I am new to the forums as well, and in that, Welcome!! You are in the company of friends. We are glad you are with us and chose not to bite the bullet. You have the rest of your life to do amazing things.

I congratulate you on your enlightenment and your indifference towards women. This is truly a blessing and makes life so much simpler.

I’m an engineering student at the moment, so I have a soft spot for engineers. I think it’s because engineers built the f~~~ing world!

Welcome to MGTOW, brother.

[GragasParticipant 9]

Again, thanks for all your messages, guys.

@megatoad69 @wally: I do my best to put a positive spin on things but the depression makes it hard. But as far as learning experiences go, the more negative experiences are in life, the more you learn from them I’ve found. I just hope I don’t need too many more of those hugely negative experiences to achieve wisdom…. hah.

@hitman: Yeah man. I have actual nightmares still some nights about that very scenario. Being tied to an evil succubus like she revealed herself to be.

@myself: It’s really hard to fathom for me still. It just goes to show that everything we are told from a very young age is a lie. Men are not emotional creatures.. blahblahblah. Women form the REAL emotional bonds in relationships. It’s all bulls~~~.

@mackiavelic: Hey man! If you’re in NA send me a message if the forums have them. We can form our own GTOW team. (Stealthily named of course).

@tex41: Hey Tex. I responded to your post even though I am new as well because your story hit close to home like I said. That you are studying engineering for a career is great. I agree with your statement. We HAVE designed the world and made it possible. Along with other MEN.

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