My introduction

[AuctoratusParticipant 52]

Effin’ New Guy here!

The introduction pages are something I usually forget when entering a Forum, but I will give this a shot.

I am 52 years as I write this entry into the journal. I stumbled upon MGTOW about 30 days ago, so the learning curve has been steep & rapid. Good!

I was in the military for 14 years, constantly on over-seas deployments, and I left in the year 2000. After which I found a job “in security”as a civilian. My specialty in the military became PSD, Personal Security Detail, and it was in this line of work I continued after I entered civilian life. So I carry guns for a living. During my last 5 years while in the military I married, a woman I met at a c~~~tail party in London. We seemed to fit in, we had fun, and became more and more involved.

I retrospect I believe I married not so much out of free will, but out of trying to be the Nice Guy, the guy who does the Right Thing. My girlfriend was a deeply Catholic African, and her parents told me it was simply not allowed to co-habit (in sin LOL). I ended up in a society wedding, with 650 guests, and I was the Star Attraction then and there in that African country which shall remain a secret! I was the only white person in that wedding, but that is another story!

After a couple of years first being deployed in uniform, then in civilian garb, away from my wife and our child, I realized there were so much more to see out there than just one wife, and started cheating on my wife. It was around the same time my wife was putting pressure on me to quit my job, that I loved. God knows why I needed to quit, as she was enjoying my fat salary and loved shopping French designer curtains, Danish designer furniture, and YSL handbags. In think I used sex to reduce the stress, and became quite adept at cheating…For a couple of years I was keeping it afloat: father & husband while at home, then rich & handsome bachelor, with several girlfriends, while gone. I loved every second of my job, so I was in a good place. When I was away…At home I was grumpy. I even tried to resign but the change was to great and I went back my old job after about 4 months. Perhaps I was not meant for marriage after all?

In 2010 I went to a new location, and despite the advice from my best friend & colleague (a Man!) I got involved with a Man Eater. Tall (5.8), curvy, with a set of really big t~~~ to Die for. And sure enough: that woman nearly became my death…

I declared to my wife I wanted a divorce, after seeing the new woman for about 60 days! All the warning signs were there, that this was not the person to make a future with, but I was in Lalaland. My wife for 16 years divorced me. We had an out of court settlement: I took, my clothes, my guns, my books and left the house, the car, and anything else behind. Our child was 16 at the time so the length of the alimony would not be a problem.

My new GF moved in with me and the problems started: she was increasingly showing me that she was dirty, unorganized, jealous, lazy, a narcissistic drama queen who had to go out to clubs and bars 3-5 times a week, to let men drool over her. Say what? As a self-reliant man I know how to cook; clean; make the bed, iron, you name it: I did it. I tried to patch up the relationship with my GF, because the sex was sooo good, and my GF was such a trophy wife material. And yes, you guys: I am playing this piano now!!! But in the back of my head a thought was forming that what person could live like this? Should I, as a man, give up my mental freedom or sanity, to have this woman by my side? I was cracking. Ever so slightly.

Money was never the issue, my GF never asked for money, but I gave her a couple of hundred USD a month to feel free, or less dependent of me. During the first two years I kicked out my GF twice. She pleaded her way back in, and the roller coaster continued.

My GF suggested birth control pills instead of suiting up in latex. And of course being highly unorganized she forgot to follow the instructions and became pregnant. OK, I thought. I love here, and she loves me, so we’re good. My second child was born in 2011, and I am unashamed to admit that my second child became my favorite, as for my first born I was never there to see her grow up. This was the new start I wanted.

The relationship was rocky, but I put it down for post-partum depression, or some other things, always making excuses for the mother (my GF), who complained I had OCD or just was a nitpicking idiot. We hired a nanny, we had cleaning and laundry done by a another woman. Despite this my GF was increasingly ungrateful, and resisting logic & reason. Now she started complaining that the pocket money she was given was not enough. I remember waking up in the middle of the night with my hear pounding hard in the chest, thinking how easy it would be just to put one of my duty guns to my head and pull the trigger. The stone face I put up at work for the guys not to see how I was dying inside.

Once I had to leave my job in a hurry, fly off to a neighboring country (where my GF had gone for a week on vacation), because I got a call saying my GF had tried to commit suicide because she was so angry with me. My GF had requested that I give her all my passwords. Not a chance I told her. WTF? Another warning sign right there, folks!

I know now that my GF always had monkey branched between men. She met the new guy while still in a relationship with another man. She loved how men would fight for her charm, presence, and sex. Perhaps there was a pause in the monkey branching for a while, but she confessed later that “she had to move on because I never loved her” (roll eyes hard!). Well, to me that is called cheating. I stopped cheating in 2010 BTW, when I met my ex-GF. I never cheated on the same woman who accused me of cheating. Funny! It’s called acting honorable and with self-respect.

Again, I kicked out my GF, she took off leaving me with our child. So now I am single parent. I retained the nanny, MON-FRI 06-17 HRS, and did the rest myself. In a normal place with a normal job, this would not have been such an achievement, but in the place I was in and the job I was doing? Unheard of…So now I had another form of stress, but I prevailed once more, as a man should. The way I was raised.

My GF went to USA for a while, twice I believe, came back, and we became a couple again. I still had the intention of making our relationship work for the sake of our child. The grip that woman had on my being was unreal. This time it lasted about a year. I had to do everything myself, she was absolutely useless around the house. She even told me that if I had been a better husband, she could have ironed my shirts for me. So making money, cooking, cleaning, ironing, raising a child, shopping food was apparently not something a good husband did? She accused me of trying to cheat on her with her friends, and became violent. I have never laid a hand on a woman in my life, but that was close. I should have bounced her between the concrete walls. She had already reported me falsely to the local police (for abuse or something), so she would have a case against me she said, should we ever go to court.

We went on family vacations together, and she continues the same way, constantly on the phone, or on social media, complaining to all her friends of men, and how her life is, dramas, bla bla bla. OK, this is not going to work I thought. I challenged her, as I had a torn meniscus at the time, and had trouble even getting in and out of a vehicle. She told me to my face: this is what you can expect from now on. Really? No thanks was my answer.

I paid the tickets and she left with our child. That was 19 months ago. Now I pay a monthly fee for the pleasures I had with this woman. She is contact with me almost daily, as she if she trying to reel me back in; she complains about men to me (that they f~~~ her and then dump her, duh!), saying “her life is sooo hard”, that she was diagnosed with bipolar and schizophrenia, bla bla bla. I told her that I am not her friend, not her ATM, she had it all but chose to be a lying, cheating, narcissistic bitch, so Karma is great!

After finding MGTOW video clips and MGTOW information here and there I started reassessing my life with women, and especially my last relationship, and the more I dissect it, the more I see I was duped, played, generally mistreated and disrespected for the reason of the Golden Vagina.

I never took s~~~ from anyone, but some women had me eating right out of their hand like a lapdog. What happened!? How did I become so stupid? This ends now…

Alright, that’s an intro to this forum I believe?

[MGTOW_MedicParticipant 184]

*MGTOW Medic is on scene*

Well, I will be the first to say….Welcome aboard.

I am very sorry that these thing have happened, I as well as many men here have our own (sometimes, not so unique) horror stories. The forum is your friend, real as much as you can, hop over to the Top Gun section.

When you can check out some wonderful videos by Sandman, Turd Flinging Monkey, and MGTOW 101

Best of luck to you here!

*MGTOW Medic is clear and in service*

MGtOW_Medic - EMT - P, Firefighter Lvl 2, Hazmat Ops

[AuctoratusParticipant 52]

Thank you for the Welcome!
: )

[SuggestiusParticipant 3312]

Auctoratus wrote:

she was increasingly showing me that she was dirty, unorganized, jealous, lazy,

Wow-wow-wow, that’s enough! lol Congratulations on your real freedom!

Happiness for all and let no one be forgotten ("Roadside picnic", Arkady and Boris Strugatsky)

[Freeman_KParticipant 3524]

Auctoratus wrote:

I never took s~~~ from anyone, but some women had me eating right out of their hand like a lapdog

Welcome.

Many stories here have same common message, some women are impending disaster and it is a skill to realize who is to be avoided at any cost.

The choices we make, not the chances we take, determine our destiny

[Anonymous 42]

Old dogs learn new tricks!

Welcome to the forums!

[bladeParticipant]

Welcome to the brother hood. Enjoy

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[JVBParticipant]

Welcome brother. You are amongst friends. Enjoyed reading your post and looking forward to many more. Cheers mate ??

Peace is > piece.

[Anonymous 0]

Welcome home,Auctoratus

[Solo MAN’S WisdomParticipant]

A big welcome, Auctoratus. You’ve been through a s~~~ show.

When women lead, destruction is the destination. -- Me.

[Truthseeker82Participant 6406]

Welcome! You’ve brought out much in your intro that many if not most of us can relate to. Such is the nature of nearly all women. You’ve got 18,000 plus set of ears and eyes offering respite, brotherhood and support. Glad you’ve found us.

[SolidusXParticipant 854]

Welcome brother, it saddens me to see more and more men hosed by c~~~s like you described… I personally think young boys should be taught “Women 101” early on so they are better prepared later on in life. I hope things go well for you in your future bud!

Knowledge is power..... Don't waste your brain on bullshit

[AttonParticipant]

Welcome to the site that was quite a read.

A MGTOW is a man who is not a woman's bitch!

[KeymasterKeymaster]

Thank you for this epic intro(!) and welcome.

Auctoratus wrote:

a narcissistic drama queen who had to go out to clubs and bars 3-5 times a week, to let men drool over her.

I knew the type. Several actually. Didn’t think it was harmless at first, but then I pieced together women started expecting certain men to fill certain roles.

• The boyfriend is for sex and “stability”.
• The gay best friend is for going shopping and bitching with.
• Stooges at bars are there to prop her ego up, and shower her in attention while she drinks for free.
• The admirer at work is there for “harmless flirting”.

….. until one day I decided “that’s fine, do what you want, but this relationship” is over. I got to see her in sweats, while she spent 90 minutes primping herself for perfect strangers.

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We salute you, soldier.

If you keep doing what you've always done... you're gonna keep getting what you always got.

[LexParticipant 117]

Thanks for sharing your story.
Welcome brother

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