First I would like to say thank you for the kind welcome.
Secondly I apologize (I know, apologies are not needed but still….) for putting this out there in bits and pieces but sharing with others is difficult for me.
For those that would like to read up…
First Installment.
A bit more about me….
I was born and reared in America’s Heartland. Think Amber waves of grain.
I am before anything else a Man and a Patriot.
I have been many things:
A dishwasher/busboy.
A cook.
A Sailor, USN Retired (medically retired, see below).
A janitor, professional toilet cleaner.
A shipping/receiving clerk in a machine shop.
A construction laborer.
A HVAC Tech
Finally and currently a Code Monkey.
I served my country in the Military until an internal infection damaged me to the point where I was unfit for Active Duty.
Because of this I was medically retired with a very small pension (30%). The infection happened at 18 years old. I was medically retired at 21.
Serving my Country and taking the Oath of Service is perhaps one of the things I am most proud of.
While I am physically damaged on the inside I have never, ever let this stop me from doing whatever the f~~~ I want.
For the curious parts of my respiratory and circulatory systems were damaged.
What this means is twofold:
1. Sometimes breathing is hard and sometimes earns me a trip to the ER.
2. Something like the Flu or Pneumonia on the wrong side will end me. No I don’t get Flu or Pneumonia shots b/c IDGAF and that s~~~ is nasty.
As you can tell from the jobs I have had, I give zero f~~~s. I do what I want.
NOTE: I am about to go on a rant about my mother. I acknowledge that compared to some what I went through is pretty tame.
I was not abused physically but I was used.
The first and only female to truly and for keeps f~~~ me over would be dear old mom.
When I and my twin were toddlers and my oldest brother was the ripe old age of 7 mom ran off with Chad and left dad with 3 young children.
Chad became step dad.
While it took me a while I have mad respect for step-dad.
He didn’t do this to us, she did.
Dad was awarded fully custody simply because mom didn’t want us. Think about that for a minute, in the early 70s the father was given full custody.
Back then as now there is plenty of help for single moms but almost none for single dads.
I have read the divorce papers and Gwads what a c~~~.
Fast forward a few years my step dad was in the Army. It was his second enlistment as he had served several combat tours in Vietnam.
Years later it came to me that the only reason he reenlisted was because mom is a $ grubbing c~~~ and he simply did not earn enough in the construction trades.
Anyway I digress.
Mid 70s my brothers and I were sent to *mom* for the summer at step-dads duty station.
When we got there, they had a place off base. For those of you that have served, you know exactly were this is going.
At summers end my brothers and I were told that dad gave permission for us to stay longer.
Shortly after we moved to on base housing.
For the lost, this is what went down.
*Mom* sent dad a letter via a round about route (remember mid 70s) and told him he would not see his children again.
Meanwhile, back at Hall of Justice, step-dad informs his Command that not only does he have a wife but now has 3 young children from a previous marriage.
Base housing is not first come, first served. Service members with children get priority.
That’s right Gents, dear old *mom* f~~~ing committed federal kidnapping over State lines just so she could get a “free house” and step-dad could get a little extra in his paycheck each month.
To this day I grind my teeth in anger at what that bitch did. To me it is NO different than a parent pimping their young children. For those of you that are fathers of young children can you imagine a world where you so totally and utterly use your small children for personal gain?
A year later after dad tracked us down the court ordered that we be returned to dad.
I don’t know for sure as I was very young at the time but I am pretty sure step-dad was given the boot by the Army.
And due to his prior Service and because of pussy pass (and perhaps dad didn’t have the energy) no charges were filed.
Needless to say I am pretty sure that being kidnapped at a young age and ripped away from dad had long lasting permanent effect on my brothers and I.
I know for a fact that none of us were the same coming out as we were going in.
Sorry I am now going to repeat myself. Skip along if you wish.
40 f~~~ing years later this still sends me into a WHITE HOT RAGE.
This f~~~ing $ grubbing C~~~ permanently f~~~ed up her 3 young children permanently (yes I used this word twice) for a little extra pay and a no rent place to live.
Anyway, I was young when this went down and it wasn’t until years later that I ‘figured’ it out.
I am not a Christian so I have no mandate from God to forgive..
[To be continued]
Anonymous 2 years, 7 months ago.
