My best friend died this morning

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

First time ive cried like a little girl in a long time.

Uncontrollable tears and utter disbelief. Only last night we were planning a future of movie making together. 10 years ive known this bubbly full of life man. Hours spent talking about life, women, he was like the brother i never had. I’ll never meet anyone like Edd again, ever.

He had just gotten back from Spain and i was annoyed i hadn’t heard from him in a while and he said he was ill from a chest infection. Only last night we bid each other a goodnight and he died in the early hours of this morning in his sleep. My guess is a heart attack as hes a big boy but his family have been in too much shock to give the reason why. Maybe they dont know either.

Why the f~~~ do all the good people die young and the SCUM live long prosperous lives?

God bless you Edd, I love you man.

[MarketWatcherParticipant]

Condolences Sir.

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

Why the f~~~ do all the good people die young and the SCUM live long prosperous lives?

I ask myself this question everyday.

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

He was 36. F~~~ing 36.

[Anonymous 43]

let it out brother. It’s ok.

Then make the film you two wanted, and dedicate it to him.
That’s how to honor your friend.

Yes, It sucks that the worthwhile people die, and we are left with the s~~~. That is an undeniable truth. Your job, when you are ready, is to go forward despite the s~~~. Push past it and create something great.

YOu know where to find us…

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

MarketWatcher wrote:

Condolences Sir.

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

Why the f~~~ do all the good people die young and the SCUM live long prosperous lives?

I ask myself this question everyday.

Thanks man. Its like its a wind up and hes gunna message me saying got you punk! I actually logged into my old facebook account to confirm the disbelief and his wall is flooded with messages about his passing.

F~~~ing heartbroken i am. Ive never had a friend die before and not one of Edds calibre. He was the nicest guy you could ever wish to meet.

[MarketWatcherParticipant]

F~~~ DYD you have had a hard week.

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

First time ive cried like a little girl in a long time

It is OK. Let it out because holding it in is doing nothing for anyone. I have more dead friends than living and I am only 40! 36? Damn..

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

It was embarrassing man, I was crying like a little bitch infront of my grandmother and couldn’t even muster a word of reply to her as to why i was upset.

Not sure how im going to process this as its so f~~~ing unbelievable.

[FrostByteParticipant 19005]

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

First time ive cried like a little girl in a long time.

Don’t let societies shaming gender labels define your actions. You grieved like a man over the loss of friend. This is an honorable and manly thing to do.
Blessing to you and to his family.

If you rescue a damsel in distress, all you will get is a distressed damsel.

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

Anonymous wrote:

let it out brother. It’s ok.

Then make the film you two wanted, and dedicate it to him.
That’s how to honor your friend.

Yes, It sucks that the worthwhile people die, and we are left with the s~~~. That is an undeniable truth. Your job, when you are ready, is to go forward despite the s~~~. Push past it and create something great.

YOu know where to find us…

Thanks man appreciate it. I will definitely dedicate my first movie in memory of Edd.

I’m so f~~~ing angry at god/life taking him away. I’m atheist but i think Edd was agnostic. Edd had his whole life ahead of him life so many others who are taken before their time. Cant even imagine what it was like for his brother finding him passed away in his bed in the morning.

God bless all here who have lost someone close to them.

[MarketWatcherParticipant]

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

It was embarrassing man

You are a human. Do not be embarrassed or shamed for any reason in this situation.

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

its so f~~~ing unbelievable.

It is. I lost a friend and neighbor 6 months ago. I can still see the coroner and the police dragging him out of his condo on a stretcher and in a body bag. This will not be easy for you and will change your life forever. Just remember Edd the way you know he would want you to.

Anonymous wrote:

Then make the film you two wanted, and dedicate it to him.

Yes.

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

MarketWatcher wrote:

F~~~ DYD you have had a hard week.

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:
First time ive cried like a little girl in a long time
It is OK. Let it out because holding it in is doing nothing for anyone. I have more dead friends than living and I am only 40! 36? Damn..

He was really special. Unique. One of a kind. Like all our closest buddies. Don’t come across guys like Edd very often if at all.

[Anonymous 42]

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

First time ive cried like a little girl in a long time.

My best friend’s name was Raymond, best friends also, he died young, everybody liked Raymond!

Yet the evil assholes refuse to go under my tires! Go figure!

Deeply sorry for your multiple losses, DYD. I know how it feels when the torpedoes keep on coming!

Live your life fuller and to the upmost! By doing that you honor Ed’s memory!

To this day my brother and I look up and say; Ray, we hear you, and we change the f~~ot f~~~tard station!

You guys would have loved Ray! He’s a part of me and sometimes if you listen closely you can hear Ray speaking!

[Anonymous 0]

Sorry brother. Just hang in there. You still have a lot of friends here.

[Anonymous 6]

Sorry to hear this DYD, at 36 he was just getting started for f~~~ sake.

[LupusParticipant 214]

My condolences mate.

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

FrostByte wrote:

Don’t let societies shaming gender labels define your actions. You grieved like a man over the loss of friend. This is an honorable and manly thing to do.
Blessing to you and to his family.

Thanks man 🙂

MarketWatcher wrote:

It is. I lost a friend and neighbor 6 months ago. I can still see the coroner and the police dragging him out of his condo on a stretcher and in a body bag. This will not be easy for you and will change your life forever. Just remember Edd the way you know he would want you to.

So sorry for your loss. I will do my best by Edd. God bless.

Anonymous wrote:

My best friend’s name was Raymond, best friends also, he died young, everybody liked Raymond!

Yet the evil assholes refuse to go under my tires! Go figure!

Deeply sorry for your multiple losses, DYD. I know how it feels when the torpedoes keep on coming!

Live your fuller and to the upmost! By doing that you honor his memory!

To this day my brother and I look up and say Ray would not approve and we change the f~~ot f~~~tard station!

You guys would have loved Ray! He’s a part of me and sometimes if you listen closely you can hear Ray speaking!

God bless Raymond. Thanks man.

Anonymous wrote:

Sorry brother. Just hang in there. You still have a lot of friends here.

Thanks. I sure do, and im grateful to know each and every one of you,

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

Thanks everyone.

Thought id cried it all out before and felt back to my numb self, then i looked at another pic of Edd and crumbled.

I need to go out for a bit.

[GregB0Participant]

MarketWatcher wrote:

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:
Why the f~~~ do all the good people die young and the SCUM live long prosperous lives?
I ask myself this question everyday.

As with Market~~~cher I also ask why life is so fickle at times. You can only remember the past and start living for your future. We can affect our destinies, but do not control them. Remember Edd as he was and find a way to keep those memories alive. A toast to him on occasion or something like that might be appropriate.

Anonymous wrote:

Yes, It sucks that the worthwhile people die, and we are left with the s~~~. That is an undeniable truth. Your job, when you are ready, is to go forward despite the s~~~. Push past it and create something great.

Absolutely right, but only when you are ready. You will know when it is the right time to start moving again. Life is always about living the moment and not the destination.

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

It was embarrassing man, I was crying like a little bitch infront of my grandmother and couldn’t even muster a word of reply to her as to why i was upset.

Everyone has feelings DVD and in times of grief it is highly appropriate to let those feelings show. Can’t tell you how many times I’ve cried at funerals and memorials, even while in Military Uniform. I would offer that to not do so would be disrespectful to the friendship you had with him.

Know that everyone who reads this thread is with you. Reach out as needed during this time and don’t be hard on yourself. If human friendships were easy, no one would have a dog.

​"​My father didn't tell me how to live; he lived, and let me watch him do it.​" - Clarence Buddinton Kelland

[Dashing Young DissidentSpectator]

Dashing Young Dissident wrote:

Know that everyone who reads this thread is with you. Reach out as needed during this time and don’t be hard on yourself. If human friendships were easy, no one would have a dog.

Thanks dude 🙂

[FullMetalExoParticipant 2383]

All I can say DYD, my sincere condolences to you.
Nothing like having a good friend, Im very privileged to have one for 23 years now. I dread the day I will have a similar thread, or he will make in my name here. But, we have as much fun as mere mortals can, as much as humanly possible.

Let it all out now, and when you remember your time together, remember good moments you had, it will make you sad ….but also will make you smile and give you the warmth and energy the good memories can give.
Thank him for sharing his Time with you, in your thoughts.
Im sure your friend would only want you to live a happy life, in his memory and for yourself that’s exactly what you should do.

PS. Take a walk, cry if you must – now, as when my father died – I didn’t. But I did cry years after, as sadness was eating me from inside. So better to not ‘look strong’ and hold it for long, cry it out now. And remember your friend.

Regards.

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