Married with a field of land mines.

[Anonymous 0]

They say that the best place to start is with the dead hookers. There were hookers but never dead ones, so why don’t I just start with a brief on my childhood up to my current situation.

Son to a rich family in a third world country, my parent’s marriage was hell because they were always at each other’s throats. Most of the evenings were spent hearing them scream at each other and throwing s~~~ against the walls. My mother hated my father because when we were kids she once overhead my father talking to one of my brothers about “a stick” and thought it was innuendo about dicks; her crazy switch turned on and she went crazy overprotective and started behaving like one of those crazy single mothers that don’t need no man, although she had everything.

My father couldn’t stand all the nagging from my mother so he stayed away from the house as much as possible, so I basically grew up without a real father figure. My mother was always poisoning my mind with ideas against my father and trying to feminize me (I grew up very confused with my sexuality until I was about 16), I didn’t act gay but I didn’t know how to make friends or how to act like a man. Basically my mother was trying to turn me into a clingy whiny bitch that not even herself could stand.

It affected my mind in horrible ways. I became a chronic masturbator as soon as I could get an erection (raiding my brothers stash of VHS porn movies). Not being able to stand up for myself in fights in college (afraid of hitting others) turned my infancy into a nightmare. I had thoughts of suicide since I was 10, once one of my brothers dared me to jump unto a knife he was holding against my gut.

I’ve had three major stress induced hallucinations in my life.
1st.- When I was 12 I saw a stuffed peac~~~ in my house move and make angry gestures at me.
2nd.- I was lying face down in my bed when I started hearing a horrible screaming/screeching sound and suddenly felt a hand against the back of head holding me down as I lay immobile for some minutes until the screaming faded away
3rd.- When I was already married I was lying down in bed wide awake with my wife asleep by my side, when I was slapped across the face by a shadow.

As I started to get some friends in high school I began to hang out with them, but to this day I am not certain if they are/were actual friends and not just people that thought I would be a good investment because of the wealth of my family.

I was the awkward guy that bitches would ignore, that is until they found out how much money I had. Then they would attempt to entice me by wagging their tail, but by then I what would become aware of their change of attitude and just ignore them. (An amusing memory I have about this, is I remember a bitch walking up to me asking how my big house was, as a greeting after she found out where I lived. Basically she was greeting my house instead of me)

Ended up marrying the only decent looking woman that seemed honest and hard working. All of this was before I learned of the red pill/MGTOW/hypergamy of course. And now I have a couple of kids and live wondering if my wife will suddenly flip out and divorce rape me, or if I will be one of the lucky ones that will survive their married life (it’s a coin flip after all).

I offer my sincere gratitude if you bothered to read all the way. Thank you for hearing my story.

[Anonymous 42]

Welcome to the club! We’re all survivors of some kind of horror in our lives.

Sorry to hear you’re on the manipulative leash of marriage, it’s not worth all the money in the world to me, my freedom is worth more! Way more! Priceless!

Welcome to the brotherhood!

[GregB0Participant]

Anonymous wrote:

I offer my sincere gratitude if you bothered to read all the way. Thank you for hearing my story.

This is why MGTOW.com exists. Men attempting to help other men by offering advice, opinions, personal testimonies. While it is about you walking your own way, MGTOW is also about helping Men in need.

Enjoy the forum and post your questions, thoughts or comments. There is a wealth of experience and maturity among members available to you upon your request.

Welcome to the community.

​"​My father didn't tell me how to live; he lived, and let me watch him do it.​" - Clarence Buddinton Kelland

[MaddladParticipant 765]

Good luck mate. Hopefully you dont end up like the rest of us. I wouldnt get too paranoid or you will end up with a self fulfilling prophecy, but I’d keep an eye open for suspect things if i was you. Take care. 🙂

[Anonymous 18]

Welcome brother.

I am sorry for the stress-induced hallucinations, it sounds bit scary. But you seem to be level-headed man.

Hopefully your wife will hold on to some remnants of shaming language pertaining to women as was common in many developing countries before feminism hijacked them.

Hopefully you will remain married, if not – then you got an army of brothers when you need us.

[SandalsParticipant 4253]

Welcome brother. Thank you for sharing.

Now tell us, what’s the second half of the story. The half that brought you here. What’s going on in your marriage. We’re all strangers at the bar anyway.

[AstroParticipant 2045]

Welcome brother. We have all seen hell and this is your asylum from it. We can be a rough bunch but deep down, we understand. We are your friend when friends are hard to find. I know the pain a woman can bring you. My wife boasted of her affair to her family last Christmas and destroyed that day for me forever. I had three days of insanity and begged for death. You can survive as I survived. I promise it won’t be easy but you are a man and you will go on. So have a beer and be at home. We are the survivors.

I survivedd, we are with you.

[AttonParticipant]

Welcome to the site its good to have you here. Don’t be afraid to ask for help on this forum either via pm or by thread.

A MGTOW is a man who is not a woman's bitch!

[Anonymous 0]

Sandals wrote:

Welcome brother. Thank you for sharing.

Now tell us, what’s the second half of the story. The half that brought you here. What’s going on in your marriage. We’re all strangers at the bar anyway.

Wow, thank you all for the kind words, I truly didn’t expect it, just started writing and bam all the words just came out.

The second part of the story,ermmm. Well, that would be present situation I imagine.

So I left my previous country and immigrated (legally) to Canada, where I bought a business and have been working hard to make it prosperous. Now the horrors in life are mainly having to deal with single mothers and apathetic teenagers as both clients and staff (it’s service/retail industry).

That and like I mentioned the fear that is always in the back of the mind of being divorce-raped and lose my kids. So far everything is holding in that regard,tou.

It was here in Canada that I found out about mgtow, I don’t remember a 100% how I found out about it but I could have sworn that I was doing a google search in something like “how to deal with horrible clients” or some such and stumbled upon a post on the red pill in reddit. From then-on I started reading and listening in youtube until I found the answers to a lot of questions about life that I had for 30+ years.

It saddens me to learn that this great country that I made my new home is suffering from all the single mothers and their crap.

And boy do I have some f~~~ing horror stories about dealing with entitled bitches in my business, if you like I will share some from time to time.

[CJParticipant 44]

It saddens me to learn that this great country that I made my new home is suffering from all the single mothers and their crap.

Me too 🙁

And boy do I have some f~~~ing horror stories about dealing with entitled bitches in my business, if you like I will share some from time to time.

I bet you do, I’d be down to hear a few of them.

That was a rough read, bro. I hope you’re stronger now because of where you’ve come from and that things are better for you in Canada. Do you have any reason to believe your wife is going to divorce you? Do you want to divorce?

[Anonymous 0]

No signs so far of divorce at this time. And I definitely don’t want to divorce-f~~~ myself,heh.

The situation with the wife is very peculiar, at the beginning she gave a lot of red lights that now that I am mgtow recognize. For example she once brought up the idea of a threesome with another woman, which I thought for 3 minutes and then summarily rejected because I told her that I didn’t want to mess up my kids by including some bitch in my family (and she never brought it up again). When I first arrived in Canada, I felt vulnerable as hell and her woman instincts kicked in and began to emotionally grief me from time to time, once she even went so far as getting physical with me. Women are like hyenas, if they see weakness they attack, so I recognized this and confronted her that I wasn’t going to accept her griefing and also physically controlling her (without hitting) if she tried to escalate that way. After a couple of times she got the message and cooled down, and also recognized that I didn’t have a confidant in her that I could show my weakness to when I was down, I always have to keep a modicum of strength infront of her so she doesn’t go in the attack.

After that, she has behaved well, I also installed and prepped the “find my iphone” app in her phone a couple years ago; so if I ever get suspicious if she goes out with a female friend for dinner or something, I always track her to make sure that she is not bulls~~~ting me. So far I haven’t caught her with anything. I am hoping that now that she has hit the wall, she will realize that I am the best that she will ever get and she can’t monkey branch and I will feel the security that she won’t betray me out of the blue.

So beyond those things, the relation is going great. Like a female friend I joke with, f~~~ and live with and cleans/cooks for me.

[CJParticipant 44]

and also recognized that I didn’t have a confidant in her that I could show my weakness to when I was down

Yeah, I recognize this. You try to open up to them, but really you’re just giving them ammo to tear you down in a fight. I’ve noticed that guys tend to just fight it out and then when its over, its over. Unless the losers a bitch and comes back for more. Women on the other hand are vindictive and will destroy your image and reputation just to be the victor. They give no f~~~s.

That doesn’t sound too terrible. I guess the bigger question then is, Are you happy?

[Anonymous 0]

CJ wrote:

I guess the bigger question then is, Are you happy?

That’s the million dollar question. To be honest, I don’t know. I am happi-er for certain. So I tend to say yes.

I had written a wall of feeling ridden text, but I think I am now f~~~ing falling on compassion-fishing. So f~~~ that. Yes, it’s all good, and thank you for understanding.

As I once read in a book: May your path be green and golden, brother.

[SandalsParticipant 4253]

Anonymous wrote:

Now the horrors in life are mainly having to deal with single mothers and apathetic teenagers as both clients and staff

I know exactly what you are talking about. I wasn’t careful what I wished for. I got my wish – female clients.

CJ wrote:

And boy do I have some f~~~ing horror stories about dealing with entitled bitches in my business,

I’m dealing with the same thing. Probably the same stories. Women are cheap as hell, and as clients they are totally illogical. When you’re good to them, they hate you and try to totally take advantage of you. You have to treat them like dogs or they are totally entitled. They are totally entitled anyway.

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