Turned 25 y/o recently. Been Mgtow since last November. Bout to hit the year mark. I was a mangina most my life. Single parent household, abusive sister who rode the carousel and suffered all the effects of the lack of fatherhood. K-12 shattered my self esteem and self worth from the get go. Had condescending feminist teachers most of my elementary to high school time period. Best memories I ever had was with either male teachers or a room full of male colleagues we shared hobbies with. Women were always a pain from the start but I was too blinded by Disney, Hollywood and puberty to understand the Redpill. All the crushes I had were soul- crushing. Mustered up courage to ask girls out over the school years, they deny my advance, be depressed for the summer, repeat. That was clockwork.
Eventually picked up the game and studied PUA theory 24/7. Tried different methods, went out, approached for a couple years, tried taking on hobbies that would boost my “smv”. Cold reading, dancing, acting, etc. I’ve always been a creative minded individual so these were naturally crafts that would intrigue me. But I’d figure out that it wouldn’t matter what new hobby I picked up, what “alpha” mask I would put on, what mystery method “tactic” I’d use- it would never work to getting what I wanted; sex and validation. I thought something was wrong with me. Man in his 20s, a virgin, never dated never been in a relationship. Kissed a couple girls in the club and got head by a girl in my teens who became a lesbian shortly after. Lol. Went after tradcon Christian type girls, after that failed last year I realized AWALT. Stumbled upon Mgtow and saw the pendulum between feminists, anti feminists, NAWALTS, etc.
Saw all the shaming tactics and related it back to my experiences. Was a dance instructor and saw up close and personal all the different types of manipulation and climbing of the social ladder these chicks would do. It made me sick. I have a whole grid-work laid out over 2 years of observing female nature and seeing the patterns. When I stumbled upon Mgtow, I absorbed the Redpill and saw it go full-circle. Been on here ever since. Joined after the gas lighting incident over the summer at my previous job as a Ballroom Dancer. Realized it’s now too risky to be in such environments dancing with chicks who can become a victim at any moment and hold you accountable for being in such close proximity with them. Social-justice feminism is cancerous and destroys the business. Teaches women to be men and men to be women, therefore destroys the incentive to learn how to lead and follow. Shame, because it’s such a beautiful art form when it’s at its fullness in display. I now work retail and I’m Lazer-sharp focusing on my tasks, putting in the hours and saving for the next trade (potentially truck-driving). I’m also learning code (thanks stealthy), about to find ways to learn handy-man crafts etc. And expand my horizons. The sky is the limit.
Digesting the red pill hasn’t always been fun and easy, there have been many times of hopelessness and self-reliance issues I needed to now face as a result of letting myself free of this “master ” and finding a new inspiration and meaning in life. It’s a process, but this site and all its people are an amazing and relatable bunch. I love seeing all the paradigms and topics that this forum builds one-another on. Thanks Keymaster, Stealthy, Sidecar, Phoenix, Bill, Russky, Jan, much much more people. I look forward to picking all your brains at some point with different topics. On success, self-reliance, life in the real world, etc.
Until then, let Mgtow keep growing by the masses! Hoo-ah!
Smitty the Great One 3 years, 3 months ago.
