Deep down, I always knew something was wrong, but I didn’t understand. I couldn’t put my finger on it. The women that raised me – my mom the slut, my drug addicted aunt, my sadistic evil bitch of a grandmother. They drilled into me how I was to treat a lady, how to be a good man, how to be a nice guy. how to be a good husband. Do this, do that. “You’re going to have a wife and kids someday!” On and on. I didn’t have a positive male influence. Several stepdads and her countless boyfriends, none of them stuck around very long. The sounds of some dude banging my mom, another brother or sister arrived and the men were gone.
I didn’t have much luck with the ladies in school, I married really young right out of high school to the first women who showed interest. Biggest mistake of my life. She told me she couldn’t get pregnant due to medical reasons. My super sperm cured her and nine months later my first child was born. She had us move back to her home state and shortly after I was kicked to the curb. False allegations were made, the police were called and I was removed. I lived in my car for a while in the harsh northern winter, eating scraps of food people left on their trays at fast food restaurants, I even dug food out of dumpsters. She didn’t care, all she was concerned with was her child support payments. I was barely hanging on when she sabotaged my vehicle. I had nowhere to go, no family, she got me fired from my job, no car. I seriously considered suicide but couldn’t. I got some help from the Salvation Army and made it back home.
Got a job, got a car, met a woman, took some classes, got an even better job. We got married and bought a house together. Things were pretty good. She was about as close to a unicorn as I have ever found. The whole time my ex made my life hell with increased child support demands, phone calls, etc. She wouldn’t allow me to see my child. To this date I’ve only seen her a few times. My new wife gave me a second child. Things were going great, my child support payments were about to end – then we were victims in a DUI accident. She died. I was in my mid thirties and had to raise a kid on my own.
It took six years to start “dating” again. My only real option was online dating. What a disaster. Liars, cheats, alcoholics, nut jobs and sluts. I was lied to by all, used as an atm by a few. Cheated on by the one I thought was a keeper. The last one convinced me to let her move in with me and my kid. I’m such a f~~~ing idiot. It took a year for me to finally snap and say ENOUGH. Shortly before I decided she had to go I found MGTOW. It opened my eyes to an alternate reality. For a few weeks I read posts and watched videos. Big John was the one who really got to me. I started looking back at my life and realized IT’S NOT ME!!! Things started making sense pieces started falling in place.
You guys have helped me more than you’ll ever know. Thanks for helping me find the testiculer fortitude to throw the bitch out. Life is good. It couldn’t possibly be better at this point. The house and vehicles are paid for, I have my Harley, we have a garden and chickens. We come and go as we please, No hassles, No drama. Just peace and quiet.
Thanks
Jack Harper 1 year, 7 months ago.
