Lie after Lie after lie ECT ECT ECT

[Anonymous 5]

After i found out that my now ex had been having online affairs , I locked her out of our computer and installed a key logger , one she had no knowledge about and did the install then three days after the revelation I allowed her back onto our computer.
You must understand a few truths about this Biatch, First the name in this record is not her real name , she is not in her twenties, at this time she was a 49 y/o fat land whale. That I had been married to for over 7 years.

RE: With heartfelt remorse…..Date: Wed, 6 Feb 2008 02:43:16 =

In view of past few days, I am amazed at two things; one the love of God to forgive me, and the unveilings of hidden things revealed. If I had not messed up and left my e-mail up, I would still be in my lie and deceit. The lie basically was my name, it is Marlena Eviana and yes, I am the girl pictured on the ID. I simply changed my birthday date and name slightly . I subtracted the 5 years 20
        off of my age and got 22. At first I wanted to fill all the lonely alone hours I had due to my husband having critical neck surgery and all kinds of physical problems. He has been in and out of hospitals for the past 3 years of the 5 years we have been married. As I started on grab, it was not my intention to deceive, it was just easier to be Eva she was unattached, with all my same features, my gifts, talents, and goals. I made friends easily and I started to come alive as any woman needs to be. Then Dec 17th I sent you the first e-mail, and knew you had given me something that I needed in my life, it was love, I had not had in so very long, love, just simply given.I did not have to be deserving and I could not earn your love, yet you gave it. Misguided and blundering, my love was given out by always in the back of my mind, and
        in my whole heart in was my husband, and first love that I was wanting that moved me and changed me from the beginning and even to this day, it remains. No matter of weeks could feel the void of darkness and emptiness I felt and I still felt a love for my husband. I thought all was lost, for two years his medicine took him away, and he quit touching, loving, caressing, and showing me his love. I could not understand put any understanding to the failing relationship we now had. The years that we have together five years It is not a lifetime, but it is a venture of being   together; so many days spent in knowing and caring and trusting and I
        threw it away because we stopped talking, we stopped be together and loving all the things we fell in love about. I still remember all the talks we had and promises made that because of his illness he threw all them away. Our music, our poetry, our walks, and our travels. All ceased and desisted when his physical body became to much to bare. The terrible highly addicted medicines took him away, and kept us both from being        together and our love making went into a dormant stage. I felt
like a death had occurred and life was no more, at least not a life
that we could live, love and laugh together.How we got to this awful point of no communication and no explanation of what was going on and what needed to change. I slipped away, and hide in someone else, now realizing was not right for anyone. I was still in there, somewhere still wanting love from the love I fell in love with. Wanting romance, and passion, and all the desires we once had burning so deeply for each other. Then the unrealized happened. I had met the Dave from Utah. Just a nice
guy that worked nights and he talked and talked about commitment and relationships and he started to care. But I had already been so caught up in you, and with the time zone the times we had together where so limited. So I talked to Utah Dave on grab I made the mistake, of giving him my e-mail, and the third night we talked I left my e-mail page up, he was going to send some music and some poetry. Now usually my husband was uninvolved in when I was on my computer and where I visited.
        He usually checked his e-mail in the front bedroom, and he had not been sleeping with me sexually, because he cannot lay down flat, only I sleep in our bed, he slept in the recliner in the living room. So the many hours and days I had to make friends and been with everyone, in between work was my time. I never saw how wrong it was until I realized how deeply I was loving you Davey. I could not eat, sleep, and be myself. When relatives or friends came over, you were all I thought about. It just so happened that Utah Dave was going to send me some
music, and I was at my moms that night so when I arrived back home I was extremely tired. But I pulled up the e-mail and left it on the taskbar, and fell asleep on the bed. my husband came in and was going to shut
off the bedroom lights, did so, but sat in my desk chair, and unbeknown to me, pulled up the yahoo mail page and saw Utah on-line asking Eva why do you not answer.
        Well, my husband did, he informed him, that I was not her, and he went on to tell him that I was his wife. Now I had a friendship with him, nothing more, I shared music, and a few e-mails mostly writing about the thing I knew least about; relationships. I only knew I wanted to know
love in a real way, like I had known, a thirsting, hungered love =
and passion, was like wild flowers blooming in the meadows of our lives, but instead was the reality of bitter cold and uncaring everyday lonely without holds, hugs, wet kisses and all that things that make one alive. You once said I must get out and be with people, go and do , if anything, you brought about that in my life. I am started at school, I am taking graphic designs computer programming and web page designs as well as I will be taking some business courses. I am going to do something more with my life. Since that night my husband found out what terrible thing I did, he was very angry, very hurt and ready to call it quits. He felt betrayed, I have never done anything like this, I always was a good honest girl. What happened to me? What cause a
        beautiful girl to feel so ugly, so undesired, and alone? It caused my husband to ask himself whether or not he had a part in all of this. Yes, I made the choice to change my name a bit and take 5 years off my age and be single but he choose to kill my advances of hugs, kisses and touches and love making. How I wronged us all, I am so ashamed!!!! The guy from Utah was a 911
   operator and he is furious, and I can not say that I blame him.
It has been three days since my husband came into the knowledge of all this.
        The first night, He yelled, screamed, threaten and wanted a
divorce, all at which I had no defense, and I agreed I was totally at wrong here, I deserved everything I was getting. The second day he stopped
talking, would not look at me and did not want to be in any part of the house with me. He had told me that I was the scum of the earth on that horrible night and that is the line that went over and over in my heart and mind. But the strangest thing happened the very next afternoon, my husband heard me crying, I thought he was gone from the house, I cried for remorse at what I had done, and he listened evidently , for quite some time at my brokenness. He came back to our room, picking me up off the bathroom floor and he said ( the following I did not say) Marlena, we all do things that take the wrong path, my inability to love you and the rejection I gave you caused you to run into the open arms of the man you come to find.
But i did tell her this “we all make mistakes and being a Christian man I have to try and forgive you, it will not be easy but i will try”.
He knew within moments talking to Dave from Utah, he was a listening ear, but he knew that Dave from Holland, had become so much more in my life. He was Davey, brilliant, loving, and all the things that I saw in him, was I so in love that our lives would be broken forever? Then I had to ask myself, was the love I feel like that? Oh, how I want to be caught up in you Davey, and swept away and never look back. But then I looked at
your heart, I had hurt it too. Wounded the very people I should have chose to love. What I saw was I have a history with my husband, a man I gave my heart to first, through the good, the bad, and the indifference, we were married. I gave him my heart, I gave him my hand, and I chose to be a his side. I had left him, just the same. Not matter how miserable I was, or longing, and lonely I had no right to not be me. I hurt friendships, and I hurt Davey because I did not have a free heart to give. Yesterday, my husband forgave me, he gave back my computer in which he locked me out, he did destroyed my account at yahoo, but who
        can blame him there. He told me he will never bring it up again. He said he sent an e-mail to all the contacts I had in e-mail from grab. He sent greg, jjames, daywine, and you Davey a last e-mail from my account. He said he tried to put it as understanding as he could, and then he terminated the account. I can not walk away from a love my heart knows exist, even after all I did for six weeks in my life, my husband sees forgiveness and I see it too. I asked God to forgive me, Davey I was so undeserving for my behavior!!!! I do not know if you will ever be able to forgive me though. I truly was wrong to ask for your love, and not be as real as you were will me. Some thing so crazy as lust, and         desire and heart came into play and I thought someday I could be
yours.
   But you deserve so much more. Davey, I should have left things
as they were weeks ago, but I was so caught up in you and you were the one thing I saw anywhere in my life. I could have spared you hurt and pain, for this I am so heartfelt sorry and so heartfelt wishing I had let you go
        and wished you well, but my heart of hearts were selfish. I only thought of my loss of you, not your loss of me. For this I am sorry also. I do not know if you can ever forgive me, but I do ask you to try. I have chose to open my heart back up to my husband. He promises that we will go forth from here. He and I promise to never give each other, rejection again. He as well as I promised to put closure of this. He sent an e-mail and I do now with you, asking you to forgive me. Can you Davey? Davey for what it is worth, if I had truly
been myself represented with a free heart, and truth, I would have
gave you
        the world with my life. But I was a leir, and deceitful and
denying my life as it existed, I hurt myself, my husband, my friends on grab and you.
Holland has a wonderful guy named Davey that deserves so =
much more in life then this. I will never forget you Davey, and will
always see your kindness, your humor, and your friendship. I will miss talking to you. Most of all for the six weeks I knew you, you showed me life in your view, it was magical, all of it. It is just too bad, it was not with someone that could be your everything, and your all I have always known that a God existed, and that forgiveness was a principle that he conceived, but I have never been a recipient of a love that forgave and says all is forgotten, and for that I must be eternally grateful, and in doing so, truly find in your heart to forgive me, I seek to have a frogiveness and I am so very, very, sorry I did what I did.<BR>Davey, I know it will be hard to forgive me, it is understandable. Please just jot me a short couple of lines and let me know something even if it is something awful. Utah Dave had his say, it was not put in a nice manner, he pushed in my Eva life when he knew I did not express love for him. But even he got hurt. I am so ashamed!!! I will go into
        grab and release your comments in guest, as well as friendship at your discretion, I have hurt you enough. Help me to mend your heart in any way I can. I went to school and work with swollen eyes the past two days. What I have done with scar my life as well as others for some time to come, if no forgiveness comes and no closure. Please dear Davey help me put closure somewhere here. Sorry in my hurry I did not give the e-mail address right. So I send you this and you may reply a note here.
        I will change my grab account to a more silent person someday. But for right now I have no right to come there except to mend this hurt I caused.

With a heartfelt remorse, Marlena

I did not have any angst against the man she was seducing, he had no Idea who or what she really was and is he was innocent of any wrong doing. Neither was the other guy mentioned in this e-mail.

She is and has been diagnosed as a pathological liar, and mentally f~~~ed up. Just thought I’d share this. Two years after I found her bullsit out she left and we divorced. At the last hearring she had the nerve to tell my lawyer that she had been having affairs since one year after marrying me. Yet she would boast and bragg to my family and friends that “He’s the best thing that ever happened to me”. Yes there were signs, but I didn’t think anything about them. The final day she was with me she insisted that I had been having an affair, and that I abused my children, and that I abused her to.

[Anonymous 43]

da faq?

[KeymasterKeymaster]

Anonymous wrote:

After i found out that my now ex had been having online affairs

That’s something you can practically BET on. Letting a woman have a smartphone and a Facebook account is like giving her a free pass to cheat on you.

I didn’t read that mess from her (above) because I don’t give a s~~~ how many paragraphs of nonsense a woman uses to try and describe, justify or explain herself…. and I sure as hell know better than to place any value in a woman who says “with heartfelt remorse”.

I once discovered emails from a woman who had “online affairs” and separated myself from her that very day.

No – she wasn’t exactly screwing any of them – just attention whoring herself out while I was at work, but I wasn’t surprised at all. My cousin also learned his wife was doing same after she announced she wanted a divorce and he discovered she had been chatting up 4 guys online. But so what?? She’s 51 and it’s not like she stands a chance in the game. She just THINKS she’s still in the game.

He even told me he didn’t even CARE!!

“Online affairs” is where women join these sites to let their imaginations run loose. They think a website is “online dating”, but it’s really just online EMAILING …. where they try to rope some sucker into “building a connection” she imagines purely in her head. I swear to god, a woman will imagine “chemistry” in an email before even meeting the guy ONCE.

This is not the point.

The point is –>> she’s not 100% there with YOU.
THAT’s why you call it off.

… because if you’re not her priority, you’re only an option.
It’s unacceptable. No relationship for her. She can remain single for that.

If you keep doing what you've always done... you're gonna keep getting what you always got.

[bladeParticipant]

Intresting story bro . Think how much more deciet went on that you don’t know about .

Broke up with my kids mother over 7 years ago and still hear of s~~~ she has done . There’s a woman in my area still after her for ripping of her elderly mother from 7 years ago . Was informed of that one around 4 months ago .

THE PLANTATION HAS NOW TURNED INTO THE KILLING FIELDS . WOMAN ARE NOW ROLLING CAMBODIAN STYLE .

[AttonParticipant]

What a wall of text

A MGTOW is a man who is not a woman's bitch!

[bigboy83Participant 11312]

Women lie on average between 20 to 30 times a day, then cry that men are not the honest ones in relationships.

Shit Tested, Cunt Approved.

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