Just Trying To Find My Way

[constraints_theoryParticipant 43]

Where to begin? Hmm… My definite red pill moment was when i realized if i had gotten married it was going to be a mistake, she was an emotional vampire and so overly insecure it got to the point where (no joke) if had to go take a p~~~ she would instantly ask “where are you going” (as if i was going to bolt out the nearest window or something maybe i should have lol) but you know its like “umm… im going to go take a p~~~, are your hands clean? wanna hold it for me?” anyway… long story short i came to the realization that i was over all just miserable and unhappy and i couldnt take it anymore. when i realized that there was nothing holding me back from just picking up and leaving i did and let me tell you it wasnt easy… in fact i had to call her dad to let him know that i broke up with his daughter and to keep her away from me(she lived with her parents at the time). Anyway, i was so weak and pathetic at that time… so easily manipulated the first two times i tried to end things with her… it was really the only way i could do it. After i severed the ties it was like a heavy weight was lifted off my shoulders, i could breath again, i gained my freedom and love it!

More about me specifically I am 26 years old, a full college student fixing to graduate this May getting my Bachelors of Science in Mathematics You know to be honest I wasn’t aware of this group, this MGTOW community in a way i thought i was alone feeling the way that i do. It wasn’t until maybe a few months ago that i found out about MGTOW and what it is all about. For the longest time people like family, friends and fellow classmates thought it was weird or would criticize me for not wanting to get married, or my older brother’s classic line “what are you gay? Why dont you have a girl friend?” it would p~~~ me off and i would tell them. “No, im not gay i am just not interested in getting a girl friend, nor do i intend on getting married” (was real close once thank god i realized it was a huge mistake!). its like when you tell people these things they cant possibly comprehend why and they question your “manhood” as if to be considered a man you have to be working, married, supporting your family. First of all F~~~ you and second they are just jealous because i have the freedom to do whatever the hell i feel like doing. Im not tied down if i felt like getting in my car and just driving just for the hell of it there isnt a damn thing that can stop me and i have come to the realization that its that independence, that freedom that drives them up the wall and i feel they want me to be stuck and suffering along side them!

I like to have fun hangout with my friends, play video games, plunking away on my bass guitar, doing homework… currently im not working and for the time being i am living with my parents. my dad doesnt want me to work he wants me to finish my schooling and since my father has been re-diagnose with meyloid luekimea back in early December it has been rough especially with him constantly going back and forth with doing good, doing bad, getting worse, getting better… i feel that if he did indeed pass away at least he will be there to see me get my degree the only one in my family to receive a degree. However, after i get my degree i am going to try and join the military i just feel i need to help my mom and dad because i know neither of my two older brothers are going to lift a damn finger to help them and i honestly feel the military will provide me with the best option to help them… anyway, im going off into a whole other tangent maybe ill speak of this in another post.

so in conclusion you can say that i am glad that i have found a place, a community of liked minded individuals that in a way understand where i am coming from because like i said i thought i was alone in all of this and many times i would second guess myself thinking “maybe i should find a girl, get married and have a family” but conforming to the demands that society, and fellow peers say i should do just went against everything that i felt and believed in so finally i just said to hell with it im going to live my life for me and no one else and then i found y’all…  Anyway, it’s a pleasure to meet y’all and look forward to getting to know y’all better take care.

I've killed worse than you on my way to real problems.

[KeymasterKeymaster]

constraints_theory wrote:

so overly insecure it got to the point where (no joke) if had to go take a p~~~ she would instantly ask “where are you going”

Yeah I know the type. I think we dated the same chick.

constraints_theory wrote:

so easily manipulated the first two times i tried to end things with her… it was really the only way i could do it. After i severed the ties it was like a heavy weight was lifted off my shoulders, i could breath again, i gained my freedom and love it!

Yeah I know the feeling. We DEFINITELY dated the same chick.

constraints_theory wrote:

I wasn’t aware of this group, this MGTOW community in a way i thought i was alone feeling the way that i do

It would shock you how nearly every second MGHOW who arrives says the same – almost exactly verbatim.
Very revealing as to REALLY what’s going on out there.

constraints_theory wrote:

family, friends and fellow classmates thought it was weird or would criticize me for not wanting to get married, or my older brother’s classic line “what are you gay?

Oh my God. We have exactly the same friends and family too.

constraints_theory wrote:

“No, im not gay i am just not interested in getting a girl friend, nor do i intend on getting married”

Next time, when it comes from a woman, tell her: “why don’t you get down on your knees, take out your boobs, open your mouth and you can tell my crotch how “gay” I am. I would really love that.”

It would shock you how often it works. Just make sure you tell her there is NO WAY you will get into any kind of a relationship with her. Most women are extremely arrogant and think they can “change” (or fix) you. This gives you the PERFECT out later after she she keeps coming back to give you head and expects to sleep over, or she wants to keep her toothbrush (or wants to get a key) to your place.

If the “what are you … GAY??” comment comes from a pathetic blue-pill guy, I revert to my stock response:
“Well I could certainly be gay long enough for YOU to blow me. But you have to buy me dinner first”.

Gets ’em every time.

constraints_theory wrote:

Anyway, it’s a pleasure to meet y’all and look forward to getting to know y’all better take care.

Right back to you. A big welcome to MGTOW and hope to read more from you. Join in whenever you’re inspired.

If you keep doing what you've always done... you're gonna keep getting what you always got.

[Anonymous 0]

Hi Dark Paladin,

I wasn’t aware of this group, this MGTOW community in a way i thought i was alone feeling the way that i do.

I swear to you, most of the MGTOW’s here or elswhere had or just have this feeling. Isn’t it remarkable that this society make a huge number of men feeling alone although sitting in the same boat. This wimpy sick society is weakening men according to the principle Divide et Impera.

…family, friends and fellow classmates thought it was weird or would criticize me for not wanting to get married,

No, im not gay i am just not interested in getting a girl friend, nor do i intend on getting married”

Same here pal, so welcome to MGTOW.

[Lazarus LongParticipant 365]

Welcome Dark Paladin. I don’t think there is too much that can be said that has not been already said but I can definitely say that you are right about this community. Everyone here can relate with what you went through and possibly have been through exactly the same. Also this is one place I have found where you can let all of it out and no one judges you for it.

Thank you for sharing your story, they are important.

Willfully turning aside from the truth is treason to one's self. -Terry Goodkind

[harpo-my-“SON”Participant 2410]

This place draws in more and more everyday that say the same things.  This begets true understanding for the experiences expressed by the next group. Welcome to the forum. Don’t be to surprised when one of your blue pill friends shows up and says hey you was right about this screwed up society. I see this growing beyond belief. I would like to be part of a close knit group but I realize It needs to become more than that. It should be undeniably mega big.  They cant ignore it now but in a short while it will be “in the face of society huge”

Dark Paladin what ever you choose be content in the fact it was your choice to make. Just create as many choices as possible for yourself before choosing. This will make regret  less likely to become a reality. Some paths come with no U-turn signs at least until the next exit presents itself.  Enjoy the forums.

I was bound to be misunderstood, and I laugh at those who misunderstand me. Kind mockery at the well intentioned, but unfettered cruelty towards those would be prison guards of my creative possibilities. This so as to learn as much from misunderstanding as from understanding. Taking pleasure in worthy opponents and making language fluid and flowing like a river yet pointed and precise as a dagger. Contradicts the socialistic purpose of language and makes for a wonderful linguistic dance, A verbal martial art with constant parries that hone the weapon that is the two edged sword of my mouth.

[KeymasterKeymaster]

Dark Palladin is MGHOW of the Day on our homepage today. Thanks for making such a fine intro.

If you keep doing what you've always done... you're gonna keep getting what you always got.

[constraints_theoryParticipant 43]

Thank you all Keymaster, Hollowmile, Lazarus Long and Harpomason for  replying to my intro much appreciated. In everyones post there was some very useful tips and advice that all of which was well recieved. as for Keymaster you’re a crazy guy but i like you lol 

Keymaster wrote:

Next time, when it comes from a woman, tell her: “why don’t you get down on your knees, take out your boobs, open your mouth and you can tell my crotch how “gay” I am. I would really love that.”

 so gonna do that next time and see what happens lol.

and i am MGHOW of the day?! that was unexpected but alright kick ass! thanks Keymaster

once again thanks you all and look forward to seeing y’all around.

I've killed worse than you on my way to real problems.

[Anonymous 42]

Hey Dark Paladin, great post, sorry about your father… You understand the freedom few people ever realize in a lifetime, you’ll be free to do whatever you want whiles they suffer and choke on their own words, some day they’ll say; “YOU WERE RIGHT!”, you’ll see.

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