It is the distrust from everyone that gets to me the most.

[Faust For ScienceParticipant 22521]

It is the distrust from everyone that gets to me the most.

All my life. All those around me made me suffer, emotion and physically, whenever I show any type of emotion. From yelling, threats, and even whipping (when I was a child).

I does not matter what type of emotion I showed. All because they did not trust me. And when I many, “all”. I Mean everyone. Men, women, children. Family, strangers. It did not matter. Everyone distrusted me. Not one of them has truly given me the benefit of the doubt.

Why I still do not know? I have a couple of suspensions. I believe it is a secret they have against me that bred this distrust of me.

Still, if I was happy they thought I did wrong. So I should be made to suffer.

If I was bored, they thought I was lazy and should be made to suffer.

If I was sad, they thought I was going to be angry, and they thought the best way to prevent me from being angry is to make me suffer.

When I was angry, they thought I should suffer even more, because they were scared I was lash out at their abuse.

For them, even a simple smile, or frown, by me, is enough to for them to find cause to make me suffer.

And if I was suffering to the point of tears, they thought I was weak and thus I deserved to suffer even more.

Even when I laugh, the falsely accuse me of having an “evil laugh” and I should be made to suffer.

And anything I say they consider wrong. It does not matter what I say. Or, how right I am. Even if I have clear, evident facts on my side.

They made sure I was denied a education, they poison any potential friendships, and sabotaged any possible opportunities. And they have even cost me much of my personal health. I am not a very physically healthy person.

And while everyone in my personal live, and I guess even God, considering of the situations were so convoluted it would require more than the act of man to create, all want to push me into being made into a monster.

My response to this insane sadism. I laugh.

I laugh. I laugh. I laugh. Because I would prefer to laugh than cry or get angry.

They have been trying to trap in a cycle of anger and abuse. I show emotion, they abuse me, into an attempt at making me angry, to they can justify their abuse, making me more angry, giving them more reason to make me suffer. In a cycle of abuse.

My response to this cycle of abuse is to laugh. And me laughing drives them crazy. They threaten me. I laugh some more. They insult me. I laugh even more. Whatever their negative response to me is. Even if it is physical pain. Is for me to laugh at them.

One can actually laugh while being in pain, with the pain making one laugh even harder.

And I am not worried about laughing. Because no one was imprisoned for laughing in an appropriate situation. And I cannot think of a more appropriate situation for laughing than to laugh at the situation of everyone around me, including God, trying to make me a monster. And instead, I prove them all wrong, and drive them up the wall, by just laughing.

I think I will laugh some right now. Because it makes me feel better.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

So, how do you deal with distrust from those around you in your personal life?

[Anonymous 42]

Faust For Science wrote:

So, how do you deal with distrust from those around you in your personal life?

I got the f~~~ away never to return. I no longer drink psychological poison, I throw it back in their face! Zero tolerance!

[mp357Participant 531]

Good post man. I think most of us have been there. I deal with it like bunker said,i ghost and avoid people for the most part. In my personal experience cool people are very rare and hard to find.Even men in general society these days are t~~~s. So laugh as much as i can do my own thing and say f~~~’em.

[Faust For ScienceParticipant 22521]

mp357 wrote:

In my personal experience cool people are very rare and hard to find. Even men in general society these days are t~~~s.

That is the problem. Everything I have seen when I travel, when I watch other people interact with each other leads me to believe that most people are emotionally immature.

Even if I had the means to leave this enviroment. Which I would like to do so. Where would I go?

I have so much experience with those that are assholes to me that I can read them. And I can manipulate the situation and them. But, I only do so to just avoid trouble. And they leave me alone for the most part.

So, my situation allows me free time that I would not otherwise have. Which I use for constructive hobbies.

And breaking in a new asshole is so annoying.

But, like some people here. I still crave at least some basic mature emotional contact with people. By that I mean, someone to talk to in person that is emotionally mature and polite. Whom can handle a conversation without having a meltdown over a misspoken word. And that is becoming a very rare individual.

The blue pillers are turning into outright zombies. They are glued to their smart phones. And they are addicted instant gratification of their egos that the combination of smart phones and social media allows them to have. And disturbing their bubbles leads to dealing with immediate asshole reactions.

This is why I do not have a smart phone.

And I have tried the social activities scene where I live. All of the activities are dominated by tradecon women that do not welcome men that are not married. Said women will not say that outright, but that is the truth.

I want to get out and socialize. But, I have no where to go and no one to go with. And by socialize, I would be okay going out with a few guys for a few drinks, some conversation, and a round or two of cards. That’s it. That is all I really want.

Is that too much to ask for? I really wonder that.

[RoyDalParticipant]

I took up Oriental martial arts and a brand of meditation they favor. Worked for me.

On the other hand, I never found anyone on the social scene who had my best interests at heart to the extent I do.

Society asks MGTOWs: Why are you not making more tax-slaves?

[Faust For ScienceParticipant 22521]

RoyDal wrote:

I took up Oriental martial arts and a brand of meditation they favor. Worked for me.

That is an expensive hobby and my physical health issues prevent me from getting the most out of it.

RoyDal wrote:

On the other hand, I never found anyone on the social scene who had my best interests at heart to the extent I do.

I would just settle for a few people that treat me like a human being.

[God is DeadParticipant 63]

As Bunker has suggested, simply follow his “stealth” approach: if people cause you misery or suffering, don’t give them the time of day. Just like Internet trolls, the more attention you feed them the hungrier they get, so outright ignoring is your best course of action (keep conversation to a minimum among those you don’t enjoy interacting with).

Faust For Science wrote:

The blue pillers are turning into outright zombies. They are glued to their smart phones. And they are addicted instant gratification of their egos that the combination of smart phones and social media allows them to have. And disturbing their bubbles leads to dealing with immediate asshole reactions.

Yeah, I’ve noticed this growing trend and I’m pretty sure it has little to do with the smart phones themselves (this is ironically my first post using my iPhone). In the right hands, most smart phones are capable of some really high-tech stuff such as hacking. However, as you can see most simpletons would rather use it to stroke their own dicks/pussies egos via Facecrook.

As you already do, just laugh it off, it catches them off-guard because it’s the last reaction they would expect from someone in your position. I think this song describes your situation well:

[KeymasterKeymaster]

Your post was crushing at first and felt for your anguish. Then I was relieved that you’re approaching it correctly after all.

Faust For Science wrote:

My response to this cycle of abuse is to laugh. And me laughing drives them crazy. They threaten me. I laugh some more. They insult me. I laugh even more. Whatever their negative response to me is. Even if it is physical pain. Is for me to laugh at them.

I once watched Tom Cruise in an interview.
And then I rewound it and watched it again.
And then again.

I noticed something VERY interesting.

Whenever anyone says something he doesn’t like – which makes him uncomfortable – he laughs. If they push, he laughs more, claps his hands and acts like he’s really enjoying it. It’s his go-to response.

I don’t know if he does it instinctively, but it’s pure genius.

It buys you time to concoct a response and it drives them crazy because people can’t get to you with jabs and prodding.

@faust… you’re definitely on to something. Stick with it

Faust For Science wrote:

So, how do you deal with distrust from those around you in your personal life?

I do the Tom Cruise thing.

Tom Cruise angry:

Tom Cruise irritated:

Tom Cruise p~~~ed the f~~~ off:

If you keep doing what you've always done... you're gonna keep getting what you always got.

[Anonymous 12]

I was going to write a similar thread to this actually and reading yours it is something I could have written myself. Growing up and even now but to a lesser degree only because I isolate myself, I felt as though anything I ever felt was wrong, I was told as much in fact mostly by my mother. I was ripped apart emotionally by my family and also relied on for my mother and father to talk about their s~~~.

Any time I tried to talk about what I was feeling I was told I was wrong or being selfish, my own mother called me a bastard, my uncle told me there was no hope for me. It just went on and on.

I would sit there and try and do, say as little as possible and they would still attack me for being quiet, for not doing anything. As I got older I would spend more time in my room and was attacked for not being around them.

I used to try and laugh when they would do this, I was hoping my laughing would diffuse them, that by showing them that they weren’t getting to me that they would stop, I wouldn’t dare fight back. Laughing was the only response that cornered them, what can you really do when someone laughs at you after they have finished ripping you apart?

I became really good at masking my emotions, even now people have no clue as to what I am thinking or feeling because I have a poker face, I didn’t want to give them one ounce of pleasure by crying or frowning or anything.

I don’t know how old you are but when I moved out of home my mother was saddened, when I came back for Christmas dinner my uncle was trying to reach out to me, they all wanted my friendship or whatever it is family members want from people, family means nothing to me at all. I felt like I was surrounded by strangers and I remained silent again, my uncle trying to stir a response, my mother asking questions, I didn’t care.

I don’t know how you deal with, I deal with it by knowing that they denied their right to know me, that due to their own actions, their son/nephew/brother doesn’t want to know them.

F~~~ them.

[The Laughing ManParticipant 1020]

Faust For Science wrote:

I laugh. I laugh. I laugh. Because I would prefer to laugh than cry or get angry.

Me too bud, me too.

I thought what I'd do was I'd pretend I was one of those deaf-mutes...or should I?

[Colonel GaveAFuckParticipant 77]

Well, I stay quiet but use my body language to prove my “alphsculinity”. For all the times they never even let me think I just think what I want to say and then walk off as if I said it. If it’s a repeat offender, not a stranger, then I get mean as hell and cuss, return fire, bring up stupid s~~~ they said in the past, don’t let them get in a word… And yes I mean act like a bigger bitch then a woman and call them a bitch the whole time. Instead of returning to that ideal “true” emotional state which they always take advantage of, as soon as I start slipping I retake command of myself and tell them ” well it’s too damn bad it could of been like this, but you wanted to be a bitch(or f~~~~~) so f~~~ you. You’re so f~~~ing stupid there’s not a chance in hell your gonna find someone who can do what I could have done, and WAS doing for YOU, but YOU RUINED IT!” That gets me back to my “no matter how it could have been, this is better” state. Low blows to those who struck there first, I say.

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