Sup bros,
Working the graveyard shift tonight. Getting Massive overtime. $$$.
Just found a homeless guy sleeping in one of our vacant offices. Gave him a blanket. Then shared some coffee and food. It is 29 degrees outside. Damn, the world is a cold and an unforgiving place sometimes.
Anyway…
The surplus caffeine in my system has spurred some inspiration. I’m just going write down some ideas from my stream of consciousness.
I think that there are 2 ways to take the red pill. Both are valid delivery methods with their own sets of pros and cons. The inner-matrix red-pill and outer matrix red pills.
The Inner-Matrix Red-Pill
I believe that this kind of red pill is a realization from first-hand experience. This is sometimes a large, dense, and heavy pill to swallow. Many people refer to it as a reality pill.
It mostly occurs to blue pilled and purple pilled men, but not always. It is an actualization from a life changing event.
Inner-matrix redpills stay in the system longer and have a larger impact on the mind because they are tied to personal memories and emotions. They are more likely to keep a man from making the same mistake again. However, this can be traumatizing because they are indeed tied to memories and emotions.
Here are 2 examples that I was exposed to recently.
Example 1: I thought that my mother was a unicorn. She is a seemingly innocent old lady. I caught her blatantly lying to my brother over the holidays. I called her out on it. She had no remorse and wouldn’t admit her wrong doing. I then realized she wasn’t an outlier. Women are deceitful by nature. Some are better at hiding it than others. My mother just happened to master the craft.
Example 2: Two girls tried to pick me up on New Year’s Eve. They were both reasonably attractive to look at. A 6 and a 7. One, named Jen, tried to get me to have sex with her. The 2nd girl made a point to tell me that Jen’s tubes were tied. They were both unemployed single mothers with drug histories and numerous tattoos. I talked to Jen in private outside of a Pub. She pulled down her pants and showed me a faded tattoo on her buttocks that said “Your name.” Then told me that I could have my way with her.
I instantly swallowed a redpill. I thought of the dozens, maybe even hundreds of other men who had seen that tattoo and hooked up with her. She is probably a cesspool of STI’s and STD’s. She may be trying to get pregnant. Has poor decision making skills, hence the drug use and fatherless child and mindless sex. Hooking up with her would be a very bad decision.
I didn’t come to this conclusion by solely watching MGTOW youtube videos, reading philosophical texts, or browsing outr forums. It was an organic, personal understanding.
The Outer-Matrix Red Pill
These are red pills that are ingested through the 3rd person perspective. If you see your blue pill guy friend get bossed around by his wife or hear your nephew complain about his job at a feminist non-profit agency. You consciously acknowledge that they are trapped in the matrix and you are not. Some side effects may be confusion, amusement, anger, sadness, or pity. You are gaining knowledge and experience through other men’s trials instead of your own.
The greatest benefit of this type of red pill is that you don’t have to make a mistake to learn from an experience. You can identify the error that another man made and say “Glad I’m not that guy.”
The pitfall here is that the imprint on your psyche won’t be as strong as a first-hand experience. It is one thing to watch someone get kicked in the nuts and another thing to feel the throbbing yourself. This increases the likelihood of you making the same mistake as your male comrade. On the other hand, you will likely be cautious in a similar scenario and have a greater chance of escaping unscathed.
How these Pills have affected me.
I started my MGTOW journey in October of 2015. I was a 21 year old virgin and was raised by a single mother. I had somewhat of an understanding of female manipulation. I was taught that shaming and verbal abuse were “okay” so I didn’t see them for what they were. I didn’t date many girls in school, so I lacked understanding in that field too.
I randomly stumbled upon MGTOW in the comments section of a YouTube video. I read some of the forum posts and was so intrigued that I made a profile.
I was vaguely exposed to outer-matrix red pills by reading stories posted by our members. This allowed me to look at the world differently.
I was still curious about sexual relationships. So the outer-matrix red pills could not suppress that curiosity.
I attempted sexual relationships in 2016 and discovered the unadulterated truth. They are a trapped. I got burned too. That is when I took multiple inner-matrix redpills and really became mgtow
It has been one hell of a ride. The road to freedom wasn’t free either.
Pursuing Happiness and Freedom.
Akanbi 3 years, 1 month ago.
