I'm slipping…. Revenge gone horribly wrong

[MTGMGTOWParticipant 235]

For a while I was feeling content with myself after ending my five-year relations~~~. Even when I thought about her, I didn’t experience much emotion. But last week Tuesday, she tried manipulating her way back into my life again.

My email doesn’t allow me to completely block anyone, just filter contacts to the spam folder. I checked my spam folder because I was expecting an important email, so I wanted to make sure it wasn’t filtered there.

There it was. The bait. “Are you okay”? All of my rage resurfaced because I was instantly reminded of all the ways the c~~~ ruined my life. This was followed by an exchange of messages with me reminding her what a whore she is, how she has no business being in my life and that I was feeling great until she came crawling back. All she could respond with was s~~~ such as “that’s very mean”. Really? What a hypocrite.

I felt the need to destroy her emotionally. I never got the reaction I wanted out of her from slut shaming her. That’s because sluts (women) HAVE no shame. So I decided to attack from a different angle. She’s had two miscarriages. That has always been the subject she’s been most uncomfortable with. For example, she had a drinking problem and stopped when she was pregnant the second time (The first time was before we met. This time was months ago when we stayed friends… I know that was retarded).

Back then I brought up how I made a lot of sacrifices for her and she didn’t sacrifice anything for me. She said she stopped drinking. I reminded her that she did it for that bastard child and never did anything for me. That set her off. She started acting like it was MY fault that she’s stupid enough to ride chad c~~~ and get knocked up while doing everything she can to f~~~ over the only person who ever cared about her.

Anyway… back to the main point. I saw Mothers Day as an opportunity to get back at her. So I decided the last message I’d ever send her would be as painful as possible. It began with a sarcastic “Happy Mothers Day!” then followed with something along the lines of “Miscarriage is a much better fate for any child than to have YOU as a mother. Thankfully for your bastard children your womb is a killing field.”

She was very p~~~ed, but didn’t respond to me directly. She texted my dad (yeah, she had my parents’ numbers… she wanted me to give them to her after I threatened suicide years ago). She repeated the message and told him that was evil and that’s the kind of man he raised.

WOW. You can TASTE the hypocrisy. She spent YEARS doing everything she can to f~~~ me over, from emotionally abusing me to cheating on me multiple times to keeping a lot of male friends around as backup plans and not even hiding it. Also, she bragged about her chad rebound when we were friends and talked about him like HE was the one who treated her much better than she deserved for five years.

My problem is this… she also said she was with someone now. Not surprising; she goes through relationships and hookups like tissues. But I had this nagging curosity to find out which backup plan she was using. I KNEW I wouldn’t like what I saw, but for some reason I HAD to know.

When we broke up I deactivated my facebook account. I only made it when we were together to keep track of what she was posting online and to have the relationship status on display. Since I had this extreme curiosity, I logged back in to determine who it was. I KNEW in my mind it was going to end miserably no matter what. But I couldn’t look away. It was like gazing at a horrible car accident.

It was her deaf “friend”. Before we broke up she met him and they went out to dinner (this was a long distance relationship, so I couldn’t keep track of her very well). Then she started LEARNING SIGN LANGUAGE to communicate with him better. That was it. I was done. It wasn’t my exact thought at the time but I realized recently she was going to f~~~ him no matter if I left or not. She already proved herself to be a useless slut, and I got out of there before I could get hurt again.

The issue is that now all of the depression and rage is back and just as severe. I don’t miss her. I don’t want her back. But the pain comes from realizing she was f~~~ing me over in more ways than I was already aware of, when I put my everything into the relations~~~.

Also, AWALT is a very hard pill to swallow. This relations~~~ confirmed it for me. I experienced firsthand what deceiving, guiltless, merciless monsters women are. She cheated and kept backup plans before me and with me. That will never change.

I KNOW consciously that AWALT is true and that you can’t trust women. I guess the worst problem at the moment is dealing with the loneliness I have ahead of me the rest of my life. Also, knowing that the feeling I had when I was with her is just an illusion that leads humans to procreation, and that it will never be possible to have such an amazing feeling again.

Solitude can sometimes feel like misery, but it is clearly the less s~~~ty of two situations. Never again will I sacrifice any part of myself, my time or my money for any ungrateful c~~~ that will just destroy me anyway. Also, I realize that this personal expeience is why MGTOW resonates with me so much. It was a valuable learning experience.

Another thought that gives me solace is knowing that she’s going to die alone on her cat farm when she’s old and regret what she did to me. She’ll realize what a great life she refused that she could have enjoyed if she had a shred of humanity in her. She’s nothing but a talking fleshlight. I’ve only had so much pain throughout recent years because I was projecting the image of a functional, empathetic human being on her.

Time and red pills have healed my wounds before. I know I’m probably going to get my ass kicked for this, because I did a lot of this to myself. But I can take it.

I've had to learn lessons the hard way more times than I should. I've been very fortunate to find MGTOW when I did. Swallowing the Red Pill saved my future.

[AutoliteParticipant]

MTGMGTOW wrote:

Solitude can sometimes feel like misery, but it is clearly the less s~~~ty of two situations.

Get a dog. I’m f~~~ing serious…

[AwakenedParticipant 35202]

YOU Need to COMPLETELY Walk Away.

This Means ZERO Contact, Regardless of ANYTHING.

YOU will Not become a FREE Man as long as YOU VOLUNTARILY Keep Pulling HER Back INTO Your Life.

In a World of Justin Beibers Be a Johnny Cash

[NeroParticipant 1466]

Who cares what she does? You are still consumed by her and are giving her power over you. Let her go. I know from experience about this. I’m not going to sit here and give you some anecdotal, just work on you and some NAWALT will find you. No, that’s not true. Another AWALT will find you and wreck your s~~~ as well. Therefore, you need to find a way to feel satisfied and complete on your own. Too many men DEPEND on a woman for happiness. Find ways to be happy on your own. Pursue your personal interests. Get better at your craft. You will forget about her that much sooner.

[Anonymous 43]

the email thing, have a random person create a random password for you.

lock that s~~~ out forever. Eliminate the f~~~book. It is the portal to hell.

omg too much drama.

Dude, everytime you think about this chick, slam your hand or a more precious body part in a kitchen cabinet. Associate thinking about this chick with the slam. Ohhhh that is not good pain there amigo.
All women are like this. All of them. There are 23,000 members of this website. We know or have dealings with 100 women each. Each one we know are like this. That is a couple million women that we collectively know. We are scattered all over the country. Someone on this website might even have a connection to your special snowflake. friend of a friend, second cousin, something, 3rd grade classmate, I don’t know.

There are 350,000,000 people in the US…women are half…175,000,000. We have contact 3 percent of all the women in America. just 23,000 men know 3% of the women.

What do you think the other 174,977,000 men that we haven’t reached are going to say about the 100 women they know?

forget this c~~~. If you keep looking back you will walk into a tree, err I mean she will file stalking bulls~~~ against you, 2 you will become neurotic and possessive, and C this is the big one…you know what it is…you will get back together with her somehow.

she will stroke your 9 inch ego and tell you how wonderful you are and what a big mistake she made leaving you, and ridin gthe c~~~ carousel wasn’t as wonderful as you.

Leave her ass behind, move on and make your life awesome. Thank god you didn’t marry her or pollute her cavity with a fetus. right…the baby making bag is empty, RIGHT?

[VirgilParticipant 970]

I have been through a similar thing. My family and ex are still in contact occasionally cause I don’t respond to her.

When she gets brought up all I say is “why do I care? She isn’t my problem anymore.”

First few times I got looks of not directly shock but surprise that I didn’t care. After the 5th time I stopped hearing about her.

Just don’t deal with anything about that relationship or het. Walk away and take a shot of NFG.

May not be what you want to hear but she got a rise out of you which is an indication she still has some connection. Best to be indifferent but too late for that.

Hope that someday I may lead others the path I have learned. As Virgil led Dante through Hell.

[Jan SobieskiParticipant 28791]

Never interact with her again. All you do is hurt yourself.

Love is just alimony waiting to happen. Visit mgtow.com.

[Anonymous 42]

MTGMGTOW wrote:

There it was. The bait. “Are you okay”?

[FrostByteParticipant 19005]

You saw it for the subtle trap it was. That means you are a lot farther along then you were. You should be pleased with yourself for using your MGTOW knowledge. How many men would have walked right into it and restart the whole cycle over. But, then you set your own trap and caught yourself in it. Let go of her.

If you rescue a damsel in distress, all you will get is a distressed damsel.

[JuehueParticipant 1316]

Create a folder called the litter box and filter her email there

[surfdude12Participant 4103]

MTGMGTOW wrote:

Solitude can sometimes feel like misery, but it is clearly the less s~~~ty of two situations.

I hear you, dude. I think its up to us to make it fun…go to gym, read books, call up our guy friends and go get beer and pizza, go to meditation class, go get a back rub…

[PistolPeteParticipant 27143]

Revenge is always a mistake. I’m not being vain but I suggest you go back and read my thread on discussing the destructive power of hate. I think it and the really good comments would help you.

I understand where you are and where you are coming from—the lust for revenge can be VERY seductive—but it never stops; soon you’ll be making lists of people you want to make pay, and then you’ll cross the line one day.

[SamsquanchParticipant 4226]

I’ve been there too brother.

Think about this, have you ever said anything like that to a guy friend? A family member?

Personally, I haven’t said awful things to my friends and family.

But I have said some damn awful things to my gf’s/ex’s.

I’m not an asshole, or mad, or naturally mean, but I’ve gone off of girls who f~~~ed with me.

Your ex is the cause of your anger, depression and loneliness.

You said you were fine before she contacted you, you will be fine after this bout of anger passes.

[The man in the mountainParticipant 4102]

“Another thought that gives me solace is knowing that she’s going to die alone on her cat farm when she’s old and regret what she did to me.”

Buddy, hypocrisy is in their blood, they will betray their family, children, friends, bf’s, bff, etc…..

My uncle once said that he learned something from raising pigs in D.R., you can tell how women will be before they turn 15…..Those words stock with me for a loooooong time. You are just catching up to reality…Good luck i rather live knowing, feeling and loving the truth than living a lie or inside a glass house.

[Back in BlackParticipant 1732]

Do NOT EVER engage with her on any level. EVER!!!

"Women are directly adapted to act as the nurses and educators of our early childhood, for the simple reason that they themselves are childish, foolish, and short-sighted—in a word, are big children all their lives, something intermediate between the child and the man, who is a man in the strict sense of the word. Consider how a young girl will toy day after day with a child, dance with it and sing to it; and then consider what a man, with the very best intentions in the world, could do in her place.” Quote from Arthur Shopenhauer, 17th century philosopher

[Anonymous 12]

I did a lot of this to myself.

Good.
You learned.
Now is the opportunity to practice what you know.

“burn the bridge”

walk forward and never ever ever look back to see what miserable beasts you left behind.
they will lock their eyes with yours and slow you down, will get into your mind and mess with it.

Forwards. Adelante. Vorwärts. En Avant!
till you die.
and beyond.

[OldBillParticipant]

Good God, you’re so c~~~ struck you can’t even think straight anymore. You poor poor bastard.

You want revenge? The best revenge is not giving a f~~~.

You want to teach her something? Too bad, women can’t be taught anything.

You want a certain reaction out of her? Congratulations, she’s getting a reaction out of you.

You want her to feel the way you feel? Score a laugh point. Women are congenital solipsists, on a fundamental level they can’t even comprehend that others truly exist let alone those others may have feelings.

All of this is your fault. She has done nothing to you which you did not allow. It seems I have to post this weekly:

“If you are distressed by anything external, the pain is not due to the thing itself, but to your estimate of it; and this you have the power to revoke at any moment.”

You’re angry because her thoughts and opinions still matter to you. You need to become indifferent before you can be free.

Because her hooks are so deep into your very soul, you need to do whatever you must to cut her out of your life. Your email doesn’t block senders? Then get a new f~~~ing email account. No more excuses, brother, do whatever must be done.

You can either learn to be a man or you can continue being the dancing monkey who provides the drama she craves whenever she rings a bell.

Choose wisely.

Do not date. Do not impregnate. Do not co-habitate. Above all, do not marry. Reclaim and never again surrender your personal sovereignty.

[MTGMGTOWParticipant 235]

Thank you all for your responses. I want to make it clear that I am NEVER returning to the plantation. I’ve had some red pill thoughts for years, but I only came
across MGTOW two months ago.

Reprogramming your brain is a long, difficult process, especially when you’ve been indoctrinated. The truths that MGTOW reveals are not easy to digest. But it’s ALWAYS better to know than to be ignorant and suffer because of it.

I’m grateful that I found MGTOW at age 22. I’ve never suffered any permanent consequences in terms of my money or freedom because of a c~~~, and that is not a gift I take lightly. MGTOW saved me from a life of servitude.

I've had to learn lessons the hard way more times than I should. I've been very fortunate to find MGTOW when I did. Swallowing the Red Pill saved my future.

[LosPukeParticipant 514]

DAMN! It sure is good to have OldBill back spitting some truth! I know he’s been back a while, but I haven’t read anything like that for months! MTGMGTOW, OldBill can be harsh, but his words of wisdom are gold!

[Anonymous 1]

Virgil wrote:

When she gets brought up all I say is “why do I care? She isn’t my problem anymore.”

this is the correct response.

I started using it day #1. I think my family is getting the message.

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