Its been over 2 months now since my probation officer saw my paperwork and the evidence that I was not guilty. Yet there are bird chirps these days.
I tired of not being able to sleep anymore. I am tired of living this kind of life. I’d sleep so much better knowing that I was guilty. Knowing I did something wrong or deserved what happened to me and my children.
But why is this in the political section? Simple. Its who they are. These people all do favors and know nothing is going to come of it. Minus MGTOW. They Portland Police and the local government are well aware what I have been doing. And who has been watching. I don’t think they ever expected me to fight back like I have. To not give up. And to turn into this evil person I am now.
Everyday my brothers, I try to sleep, but I can’t. Just one day, just 8 hours. I get that only if I tire myself to exhaustion. Even then. I almost hear voices telling me not to sleep. There is a job that still needs to be done.
I am not crazy. I know I have been here before. And I wonder if my mistake in the last lifetime was to forgive. I can’t let this go. They won’t even let me seek justice. Each and every time I tried, they just call me a DV and he is dangerous.
Well NOW.. I AM. Its funny those same cops seem to have stop bothering me. I guess they did not like it when they knew that I was serious about what I said. They are not going to walk away scott free this time.
My body my hands my soul is no longer clean. It use to be. I tired so hard to be good. But I can no longer manage that. I want to give them their pain and suffering 10 fold. I want them to look over their shoulders. And Wonder who is watching them. Well, for the most part that has already been happening. But knowing has its own perils.
To think that the state that I live in has so many that would do “FAVORS” just for kicks. Its makes me wonder.
See so many men are cowards. They take their own lives instead of taking those who took theirs. And when the LIST. Oh my famous list. IT GROWS EACH DAY.
These people do it to more men and their children each and every day.
And you know? You could turn a whole city on its Government. You can make them chase them down, but they won’t. They are cowards. They would rather sit idle and watch the show.
You know, the best I ever slept was when I was in Jail. I knew I could do nothing when I was there. And that I was finally given clear reason that they are in fact doing this together. \
I know so many men even May57 talked about the whole system working together against him. But at times, even i thought that was far out. I can tell you without a shadow of doubt this is Intentional. I can’t tell you how much I saw while I was in jail here in Portland Oregon. How they went out of their way to put MEN who were falsely accused of Domestic Violence to be treated like they do.
THey do in on purpose. THEY DO IT WITH INTENT since they are TOLD TO DO SO. THey STRIP YOU DOWN. THey make you stay naked. And they punish you for asking about your rights. OR to be given simple things like clothing. Blankets. Or toilet paper. EVEN SOAP.
And they have their Rent a cop freinds do whatever they are told to do. And when they can’t get you to TALK to their Mental HEALTH BITCH they further go against the judges orders, and do what they want. And send you wherever they wish.
I don’t know what I am going to do. But its going to be MASSIVE. I WANT it to be WORLD NEWS that for once. THEY F~~~ED with the wrong guy.
When they ask me why? I’m just going to keep silent. Just like they were when they abused my kids. When they Treated me like less than human. Even animals get treated better.
THey made me. Now I Hope they like what they made.
These people robbed me of 30 years of my life. And the once chance I had to walk away, the brought me RIGHT BACK HERE.
This year I want to give them the Gift they gave me.
There will be a day that my name will never be forgotten. It will remind men and women everywhere that you can push to far and there will be consequences for GENERATIONS to come.
Now I am going to try to get my hours worth of sleep again before I go to work. But I want you all to know. I’m no longer the man I once was. I am no longer a man at all. I am what they made me. And this animal is no longer going to suffer this pain alone.
Its funny how you can laugh while being so angry and so miserable. But that’s what they want. What they never expected is that all of them would now have to answer to this. The inconet. The guilty the unknowing.
The conversation with the punk kid today cemented why it needs to be done. They will forever use whatever means at their disposal to subdue us. And nothing is going to change.
I do hope this is just a phase. Maybe it will go away. But Its been almost 3 years. And they continue to punish me. I’m tired. I really am tired.
I would much rather sleep knowing that I did something to stop the very evil that made me.
God forbid they make anymore of me.
You are all alone. If you have been falsely accused of RAPE, DV, PLEASE let all men know about the people who did this. http://register-her.net/web/guest/home
Shine 1 year, 4 months ago.
