I want to live.

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Anonymous wrote:

Do not flush your life away Sparky. You matter to me.
Find something to replace the bad with something good.

My only solution is the one I found last year. There is an angel who traded his wings for big ears named “Oscar”. If I can keep my focus, I can live at least as long as my Dachshund does. I had to reach last year and I found a little friend who stood on his back legs and asked: “But what about me and my Love for you?” Jesus, it tore me apart. Can a man laugh and cry at the same time?

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Anonymous wrote:

Sparky, i took off-duty time from Dec15 to Jan2.
I hate those two weeks beyond any other time of the year, like you.
I was taught that it is the time for family, debriefing the year and looking forward to another one with adjusted goals and gained wisdom.
Well, it f~~~ing is not.
To me it is a fake time often filled with fake affection, theatre, pretending everything is well, s~~~ like that.
So i stay away from people…
I plan on doing work around the house – cosmetic as well as electric works, and giving the bathroom an in-depth cleanup with hot steam pressure and a f~~~ton of chemicals.
Also shearing the dog and trying to bake a decent loaf of Bread.
i would propose that you take a good close look at these 3 dark days now.
Remember them. think about them. dig into that s~~~ now. dig deep till you are bored with remembering the pain.
and when the 3 days come, You, just like me, will want to make a small step ahead, make your life just a little bit better.
Together.
Those days are dark, i know that.
You will see me a LOT on the forum during that time – not leave people like yourself alone.
Past the 21st of December, the daylight gets longer again.
You made it once. abandoned.
You will make it again.
Not abandoned.

You said something I needed to hear. I will need support in the Three Days in Hell and know where to go. I will also be on Zoom to talk to my brothers. I might be f–ked up but will show up. You beautiful bastards and Oscar are my key to survival.

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Zarathustra wrote:

I read your post on Friday about Oscar. The next day I had to go to a medical appointment and the Nurse had a Dachshund tattoo! It made me think of Oscar. So his spirit is definitely traveling through the cosmos bringing joy and happiness this year.
Take care this season.

Oscar is more than a dog to me. He is an angel that traded his wings for big ears. He saved my life last year and may do it again. When my wife boasted about her affair last Christmas and her family abandoned me, Oscar was all I had in my insanity. That was before I discovered MGTOW. You guys are so precious and have no idea.

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Anonymous wrote:

Your thoughts create an enotional reation. To your own thoughts.
And around and around you go.
Keep busy.
Keep Oscar busy.

You old fart, with all due respect. I am trying. I wish I could work but face a four week layoff starting on the 15th. I would rather work and not face this. I will give what I have to Oscar as he is all I have. I also have MGTOW and zoom to help me. How about you joining us?

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53ClicksUp wrote:

Count yourself as luck Sparky. My narcissistic ex took my dachshund when she moved out. Not to keep for herself…. 5 Days later she put up for adoption with those assholes at the Dachshund Rescue of North America.
I found him on their website with his real name posted under his photograph. The poor beast looked timid and scared in the photo. I email and call DRNA and asked for my dog to be returned to me. No response, they simply deleted his photo and bio from the adoption page. They never did return any of my emails and calls. To this day I don’t know what ever happened to him..
What kind of f~~~ed up bitch would do something like that to a poor dumb animal, just to strike back and attempt to punish a man?

Jesus, you had one fuc-ed up bitch. I did not leave my wife any conditions on the day after Christmas but to go. I already told you about the cops responding and they were more afraid of me than I was of them when four cops showed up. I could have shot two in the head in my bed before they responded, my Glock was in my hand. I was nucking futs and didn’t care. My life already ended when she boasted about her affair last Christmas, I had nothing to live for the day after. It was the ultimate NFG as I didn’t give two s~~~s if I died. What stopped me was knowing the cops were only doing their job and had something to live for. I still don’t know if I made the right choice.

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Two Time Winner wrote:

This Christmas thing is just temporary, it will be over in three weeks.

Make that four weeks but you have a point. We can go out and I hope we will as you are the MGTOW that helps me the most because you have become my friend. We have heard each others sh-t and know it on a personal basis, face to face. A bitch destroyed Christmas for me and left me with the three days in hell after. I am doing what I can to focus on Oscar as he was what is left and saved me before. You have met my little buddy and understand his Love to a small point. I want to live at least as long as he does but if not, he has another place to live in Florida. On the three days after Christmas, I can make no promise. The sh-t is going to hit me hard and I cannot pretend it does not exist. It will challenge my sanity and life. I wish I could go to sleep and wake up in 2018. I wish I was stronger but I am not…

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If you off yourself I’ll make an entire video game to make fun of you.

A MGTOW is a man who is not a woman's bitch!

[AstroParticipant 2045]

Anonymous wrote:

Stories like these prove how important this site is. We may not always agree but the support is pretty unconditional when it’s really needed.

Thank you as the support will be needed in desperation. We are brothers even if most live far away and have never met. I wish we could all afford to meet in a bar that could handle 30,000 customers and share a few beers. It sounds far better than the loneliness some will face this month. I never thought this thread would go this long. I posted it here to make it short. Jesus, how I hate late December but know I am supported by brothers. That helps me more than you know.

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Astro wrote:

mgtow_taoist wrote:

Stories like these prove how important this site is. We may not always agree but the support is pretty unconditional when it’s really needed.

Thank you as the support will be needed in desperation. We are brothers even if most live far away and have never met. I wish we could all afford to meet in a bar that could handle 30,000 customers and share a few beers. It sounds far better than the loneliness some will face this month. I never thought this thread would go this long. I posted it here to make it short. Jesus, how I hate late December but know I am supported by brothers. That helps me more than you know.

That’s a lot of beers. Tell them to put it on Carnage’s tab. He can afford it, he’s a DR and won’t care anyway.

Like a bird on the wire, like a drunk midnight choir, I have tried in my way to be free.

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Anonymous wrote:

Sparky, these short days can have that effect. Hang in there, man. Soon, the days will be lengthening.

Not for me as I just put a bid to drive later from 7:00 PM till 3:00 AM but it will give me more hours. I need to get out of debt and that is a start. I can handle the nights but the depression of the three days after Christmas is far more difficult. What I will need is zoom and support from MGTOW’s like you. You are my link.

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WhackerGuy2030 wrote:

3. Go help feed the poor at a kitchen. Not the lazy, but the actual poor.

Well we have plenty of homeless people here, perhaps you have an idea. As a Navy Chef who specialized in dietary cooking, perhaps I can help. Some are MGTOW but do not know what we know, they need our support. Others are bums but perhaps I can spread the gospel of MGTOW even to them. One can find plenty of broken heart stories here. Some were once successful and seen it all go away. The homeless have stories that will break your heart and most of them are men. Society will give a woman a check and more with kids and not give a s~~~ about the man she left for whatever reason. If you are a man, you are on your own when you are down and out. If you are not one of them, see yourself as a lucky man.

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You are right Nerd. I want to feed those who need help, they are mostly men. I am used to cooking for hundreds as I was a cook in the US Navy. I don’t expect rewards but I can spread MGTOW and help men who are down and out. Some of us know what it feels like to lose it all. Homeless men have stories that will break your heart.

[AstroParticipant 2045]

Anonymous wrote:

Together.
Those days are dark, i know that.
You will see me a LOT on the forum during that time – not leave people like yourself alone.
Past the 21st of December, the daylight gets longer again.
You made it once. abandoned.
You will make it again.
Not abandoned.

You f–ing ass, you made me cry after reading it twice. You know this s~~~ is not easy but I have MGTOW’s like you to support me. I work in the darkness on third shift. Perhaps that is part of my problem but I was born at 2:56 AM. I am cursed like a vampire to roam at night and that is when I rule. I drive drunk college kids wherever they want to go but that is better than drunk college kids driving themselves.

[alchemistParticipant 484]

ALL THINGS MUST PASS. And with self-knowledge and red pills you know how to come out on the other side smiling. I need to keep reminding myself aswell, there are still good things in this world to live for, music, the beauty of nature, one’s treasured collections (read: MY collections 🙂 )

Astro wrote:

The red pill is not easy to swallow and it has side affects that last a long time and is a bitter pill.

I want to reply to this with the headline from my profile;

You’re here because you know something. What you know you can’t explain, but you feel it. You’ve felt it your entire life, that there’s something wrong with the world. You don’t know what it is, but it’s there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad. It is this feeling that has brought you to MGTOW. It is this feeling that can set you free. If you escape with us, what you find on the outside may be a hard pill to swallow. It was hard for me to face the truth and it took me time to Go My Own Way, but now… I eat Red Pills for breakfast.

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