I feel like I have experienced 40 years of life in 1 year. (RANT)

[GLOXXParticipant 64]

You never know.
You never really know how much or how little you can handle before you feel like life is great or life is bad because mentally only you can believe what you feel.
I have always held myself to the high standard, never let s~~~ get it me, be a leader and progress through anything in front of me.
It was 2016 till now that I feel like so much has changed in my life, around me and with me.
2016 was the start of a good / bad year mainly because I have nothing, I was stressed over a relationship I was trying so hard to keep together, I had a good job which is the best part and I got to be with my son every day.
I had debt to pay and a lease that went up $130 but didn’t have the motivation to leave.
I was walking on needles then and walking on needles now but 2016 I didn’t let it bother me.
4 months in I was doing good but then my ex got f~~~ed by the law so I spent money fixing that for her and that put me behind again when I was starting to think my 2016 goals would start happening.
It was a week before my Birthday that my ex broke up with me and I spent my Birthday alone, I don’t think I was happy nor sad but alone.
I noticed in 2016 that I started becoming socially awkward which wasn’t normal for me as all through high school even up till 2014 I was always the life of the party.
Now I can’t even stand having a talk with someone I don’t know or having only seen a few time because I feel trapped and feel like I need to leave before I say something stupid and ruin the relationship i’m building. ( this doesn’t happen all the time but does happen a lot )
I don’t think I have a problem but I almost feel like it’s “anxiety”, I don’t know how to explain it because my ex said she had it bad sense I have known her but I never believed in anxiety because I believe you can only have a mental struggle if you believe it hard enough.
Something lately (1-2 months) just makes me wake up and feel worried every day as if something isn’t right. Something bad will happen.
I remember in high school smoking weed every day to keep dumb things off my mind but I almost feel like now I wish I had something to let me relax and stop worrying so much about whatever it is i’m worried about.

In July my Ex became a stripper, a heartless cold fake c~~~ whore.
She never really f~~~ed me over but became someone I truly didn’t like, someone I didn’t even know anymore but was forced to be stuck with.
My life sense then has been 100% the same thing every day 24/7 till today meaning I wake up early, work 10 hours a day, drive straight home, do some things before bed, sleep, repeat.
My life has become the perfect repetitive schedule but I feel like I don’t have time for anymore.
This year well this month I can finally get away from my ex (kind of) but I have to file for divorce and work out a schedule for my son.
I’m going from seeing him 7 days a week – idk yet, maybe 2 days a week. maybe 4 days a week. maybe ever other weekend. IDK but I do know I don’t like it, I am not ready for it, I like being with him 7 days a week. I can’t get fully custody and will be lucky as f~~~ if I do get 4 days a week.
Thing that sucks is all of this has been going on for a month and will be going on for another 1-3 months I think and this will only keep me stressed out for that long. If I don’t get what i’m asking for it will only make me feel even more stressed out till I come to terms with it.

I also found out that my ex’s lizard, the lizard I basically took care of all the time past away a few days ago because he wasn’t being feed and was to cold to live normally.
Just kind of bummed about it because he was a young lizard only 6 months old and had many years to live happy.

I found out last night my ex is going to marry a guy she just met 2 months ago who bought her a brand new 2016 Lexus ( I made a thread on this ) so she can become a legal US citizen.
I don’t really care about her being with him or getting married I just stress over the fact hat some guy who can buy off my ex is going to now be in my son’s life which I wish i could stay f~~~ no to.

I’m 24 years old and feel like 2016 to 2017 was a lot to take in and that it took 40 years off my life. I mite even die young from health issues if I don’t find a way to get myself out of this s~~~ and can relax for once.

Just thought i’d rant here, idk where I should post this but to all the young and old men out there I give you much respect for dealing with what you deal with every day because some of us really do have the weight of the world on our back sometimes and we still carry that s~~~ up the hill proving that it’s cake when it’s not.

i’ll be okay i’m just stressed out and have that worried feeling today and have had it all day.
I can’t find a way to shake it off but I won’t let it take over me.

This is my current mood in song form.

[SwimcatParticipant 3608]

Obviously you picked the wrong women, but you’re young enough to recover. Whatever you do don’t dwell on this bitch. Bear down on your work. Maximize success in your career. Keep your living expenses to a minimum. Money in the bank makes a man sleep well at night and cures a lot of ills.

[GLOXXParticipant 64]

Swimcat wrote:

Obviously you picked the wrong women, but you’re young enough to recover. Whatever you do don’t dwell on this bitch. Bear down on your work. Maximize success in your career. Keep your living expenses to a minimum. Money in the bank makes a man sleep well at night and cures a lot of ills.

Totally agree, it’s not even really her that’s bringing me down it’s more so all the events in my life bringing me down.
I have goals of getting out and getting focused but I can’t till the dust settles I just don’t know when it will and it’s bothersome.

Money in the bank, good career, and living good will totally fix all this and i’m focused all on that.

[FrostByteParticipant 19005]

Sorry about all the s~~~ you’re going through. Many of us have gone through similar experiences. Things will improve if you choose a path of self development. At the very least you can dwell on the work needed to improve yourself, be it homework or a trade. Having a distraction that levels up your life can help you in the long run. Distractions like games won’t harm you, but they won’t help you either. Distractions like booze and woman will harm you and can be leveraged against you by your ex so beware. Look to education, health and skill building.
Your young and at a crossroads. Make good choices now, that’s what crossroads are for; to give you a 2nd chance.
Welcome

If you rescue a damsel in distress, all you will get is a distressed damsel.

[AutoliteParticipant]

GLOXX wrote:

She never really f~~~ed me over

Guys getting f~~~ed over is the norm. Perhaps try focusing on the fact that you were spared. So many other guys are dealing with so much worse.

As bad as your situation may seem to be for you, thinking about how much worse it is for so many other guys might help you deal with it better…

[Anonymous 13]

I’m sorry to hear of all your troubles.

You didn’t pick the wrong woman,
you simply picked ‘a’ woman. AWALT.

A lot of this feeling is because you’re in limbo just now.

This too shall pass.

Good luck.

[Prefer Peace to PieceParticipant 10809]

Don’t let the tough times get you down. Life can be a bitch at times. But you will eventually win and accomplish all of your goals. Life sometimes has to be f**ked into submission.

[TaxGuyParticipant]

Your focus right now should be showing your son that you can survive anything. The best thing you can do for him right now is take care of yourself. He’s watching you. Are you going to teach him that if you are going through hell the best thing you can do is keep going? Or are you going to show him that it’s ok to drown yourself in self pity?

This is a very teachable moment here for your son. Show him that he can come through adversity and be a better man for it.

Order the good wine

[Back in BlackParticipant 1732]

Dude,
Totally feel for you. Talk with other men you can trust. Keep posting here. Get some exercise. The best thing you can do for your son is take great care of yourself. I’m glad you posted. Keep it up. Lots of men here care and have been through what you are going through.
BIB

"Women are directly adapted to act as the nurses and educators of our early childhood, for the simple reason that they themselves are childish, foolish, and short-sighted—in a word, are big children all their lives, something intermediate between the child and the man, who is a man in the strict sense of the word. Consider how a young girl will toy day after day with a child, dance with it and sing to it; and then consider what a man, with the very best intentions in the world, could do in her place.” Quote from Arthur Shopenhauer, 17th century philosopher

[GLOXXParticipant 64]

Thanks a lot guys!
I went for a run yesterday after work which was nice.
The the advice is great and i’ll get over this BS soon.
I think once court is out of the way i’ll be less stressed.

[Anonymous 5]

I don’t know how it feels to be a parent but I bet it’s hell to go through what your going through . I wish you this one thing I hope you come out of this a stronger more happy man .I wish you the best if you need to talk there’s plenty good men here.

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