I Admit It, I Sometimes Think About How Life Should Be/ Could Be

[RennieParticipant]

Strangely for me some of the best times of my life have been when I was alone, doing what I wanted and having a good time.

If I go to a place where there is alot of random people around, then I get the feeling of being alone. I especially noticed it when I attended the sendoff event for Captain John’s in Toronto – which turned out to be way bigger than I imagined it would be.

[MitzrealParticipant 76]

I battle these issues all the time. And it compounds because I’ll kick myself that I don’t want a woman in my life beyond casual date/sex situation. I want more friends but I’m socially disconnected and have been for so long I’m not sure how to reconnect. I have decided I’m just going to join a gym and get in shape. I know some guys I can go biking with once I’m in good enough shape not to die riding with them LOL.

[DurdenParticipant 1051]

We all feel loneliness but that is what friends are for.

It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything

[SteveParticipant 462]

Keep strong DMOT40 – listen to the guys here and take strength from them.

You’re not silly to be thinking like that, men are capable of compassion and love, women are unfortunately are not.

I wanted that “family life” of times past and took the risk and luckily got a healthy son. It’s a battle every single day with his mother (and now her family) and at some point that will negatively effect his upbringing I’m sure. I’m making my preparations to leave her and face the biggest battle of my life – getting sole custody. She can keep whatever money she finds, all I want out of it is my son.

Don’t beat yourself up for having those thoughts. Remember that it’s modern feminist society causing all of this.

Men love women, men love children, women love shoes. (I’ve stolen that one).

 

 

[experiencedParticipant]

For Progenitor:  “It’s a battle every single day with his mother (and now her family).”   These things don’t happen overnight with inlaws. A word said, or omitted, at the precise time, in your absence, can have a great deal of impact. IOW they may’ve been battling against you long ago.   Please consider investing in the services of a ‘friend recommended’ private investigator. The information they discover for you is unbelievable(was to me).   Your attorney and private investigator(esp atty) tend to compete with/against each other. Had I dropped the PI early on, at the atty’s druthers, I would not have gotten hold of damning info against my ex.   I had to reiterate the order of priority to my atty: #1)God, #2)my son, #3)money.

Douglas Macarthur said, ”it was a lesson I never forgot, total preparation is the key to success and victory.”

please do keep us informed so the guys here can help you.

"It seems like there's times a body gets struck down so low, there ain't a power on earth that can ever bring him up again. Seems like something inside dies so he don't even want to get up again. But he does."

[KranitzParticipant 22]

I think about alot of things while I try to fall asleep, since my brain seems to refuse to ever shut up. it’s been this way for a good twenty years. My relationship with my parents is one of..well someone with stockholm syndrome I guess. I’m their manual labor…thing? However, once they are gone, I will most likely end up homeless, and shortly after, dead.

I spend way too much time thinking about what could have been, how my life should have been. How I should have met this wonderful girl when I was young, and we would have grown up together, experienced so many firsts together, and then gotten married young, had kids, etc. We would have weathered lifes many storms, with her to push me when I needed it (which is often) and comfort me. Someone I could open up to without fear of having it used against me later, someone who was different but my equal, my partner in crime, a best friend. Someone to live for, and work for, the partner i seem to be so inherently wired to function with.

She never existed, and she never will. I might as well be marooned on a desert island or an alien planet. I often feel like the astronaut, Taylor, played by Charlton Heston, from Planet of the Apes (( Which was playing on the tv in the hospital room on the day I was born, or so I’m told. )) I’ve lived all my life acting and with expectations, of a world and society which no longer exists, and possibly never did. I keep trying to figure out what went wrong, what happened, but even if I could, it is beyond my ability and scope to fix it.

MGTOW was like the end of the movie, where Taylor goes off to search for the truth, and Dr. Zaius tells him “Be careful Taylor, you might not like what you find…” ((At least that’s the way I remember it going anyhow.)) and he finds the cave full of relics from the 20th century. The society and world I grew up believing existed and was trained and conditioned for, does not exist, just this bleak, lonely wasteland, where I am mostly ignored, or god forbid, receive attention because someone (( usually female)) has a problem with me, and wants to strut her power.

I’ve done lots of things to cope, like getting a cat, writing stories, designing a whole array of things and whatsists. However, I find the more time I spend along, the crazier and stranger I seem to get, because, remember, . So yeah. it gets weirder than that, but that comes later.

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