I say this, that you should become a student of life. Learn what you can about people. Try to figure them out as much as possible before you die.

You can start with the Scott M. Peck books. He wrote a series of them starting with The Road Less Traveled. His books are laden with bad Christian theology but if you can get around that, then his books are excellent read. Don’t let his theology confuse you, it’s not Christian, but really just Hinduism. I suggest starting with those books.

In time, you’ll start to separate your internal world and external world because you’ll learn the true dynamics and the truth behind them. You’ll see how people really are, how they manipulate and blind themselves.

However, do be careful not to develop a victim complex. It’s easy to get one.

I feel like I’m falling behind in life

..there is no such thing as falling behind in life. I wish I were your age again. My first job was shoveling ‘fly ash’ from the bottom of a boiler at a coal fired power station. Eventually, I was promoted to painting pipes and after about three years got hired by the same company to work as a clerk in their office. I scrimped and saved my money and paid for my undergraduate college when I was in my mid to late twenties. Like I said above, I envy you as you have the whole world ahead of you. We never even had the internet until after college. Just the fact that you have an internet connection gives you so many advantages. Concentrate on the (can do’s) four or five little things you can do tomorrow to make your new life better … when you get up tomorrow, make a short list. One might be as simple as arranging your desk. One might be just to take a walk and get out of the house. Sometime, when you’re ready, see if their is a job you could start doing within walking distance or short bike commute from home. One of my best buddies started bagging groceries at a local food store when he was young. He is now produce manager for the entire grocery chain and is married to my former classmate. One of my neighbor’s kids went into two year course in HVAC ..now driving around in a shiny van servicing heating and air conditioning systems ..including mine. Don’t dwell on what you can’t do right now … list four little (can do’s) tomorrow morning and get started on your new adventure ..as far as giving up hope on women, I’m happy to say haven’t had a real date for about as long as I can remember 🙂 <<

That’s the best way I can describe the feeling. Like a heavy wet blanket over your head that constantly makes you feel like something is wrong with you. Something is wrong with your life. There is emptiness in your life.

Get rid of that wet blanket man. It ain’t gonna do you any good.

Ok, so you flunked out of college. Is college really the answer to all your prayer’s?

Find something you want to do with your life. And then do it. That’s it. It’s as simple as that.

Travel. Have hobbies. Get into a sport or athletic endeavor (even if its just working out in the gym). Get a career and make some money. Do women. Don’t get serious about any of them. Just do them. Get a dog. Have something to look forward to, such as saving up to buy a nice truck or something. And that’s it. That’s all the advice I have for you.

I just view life as a learning experience, a way of gaining knowledge.  You may feel down because you sense something seriously wrong with everything you’ve been socialized and conditioned to believe.

Society pressures us to conform, go to college and/or do some sort of job, get married, have 1.5 kids, get the house with the white picket fence, etc.  I think we all set these milestones in our life, expecting to be a certain point at a certain age, while feeling behind if we haven’t reached it.  There’s also pressure to keep up with the Joneses, where it’s not enough to just have enough – one has to have more than one’s neighbors in order to feel more “fulfilled.”  It’s really a terrible trap to fall into.  It’s part of the reason why, in a so-called “Land of Plenty,” there’s so much unhappiness.

I’m not sure what your living situation is or if going back to college is an option.  If you’re having difficulty finding paid employment, you might consider doing volunteer work.  Depending on what you choose, volunteer jobs can sometimes translate into paid employment.  Not everyone is necessarily cut out for college.  But if you pick a field and stick with it, even if you start out at the bottom, there’s a chance to learn, gain more expertise, and move up.

You opened up .. No2

Already you are moving in the right direction. Small steps but in the right way.

Go find the thread on suicide and read what the guys have said. Guys that have been so so close … but are still here ….. and not just living but thriving.

Inside you … right now … is a warrior. You don’t know that … but we do… because we are also warriors.

How do you find him? … simple. Start doing warrior things.

1. Shut out surrounding noise of idiots.

2. Focous on your path/plan

3. Train to stay fit and build the machine

4. Eat good food for your body & mind

5. Sleep to recharge the warrior

6. Educate yourself on the ‘system’

7. Be proud. Stand tall like rock

8. Ignore the fools as you walk amongst them. They are sheep

9. Have honour for yourself

10. Go Your Own Way

11. Chuck out TV and main stream media. READ.

Not very long ago I was sitting on a stair rail with a rope around my neck.

I am now a warrior ☺