I wish I had an exciting story to tell of how I found MGTOW and the red pill but its rather bland. Its really been watching my friends and their experiences that have shaped my view on relationships and women. Oh, 33 soon to be 34 yrs old for what its worth.
For me personally, Ive never been married, no kids, or even had a really serious long term relationship. I consider my interactions with women in terms of trying to date killed my self esteem in a “death by a thousand cuts” thing. Ive been shamed, made fun of, catfished and had rumors spread about me simply for politely rejecting a girls interest by various women between high school and college, all while being told how I was such a great, kind and funny guy. I spent much of my high school and college years fighting depression and trying to find myself and figuring out what I wanted to do with my life.
I’ll spare you guys the life story, but it was mainly watching my friends in serious relationships get s~~~ on that made me wary. In particular my one friend who was dating a girl during the end of highschool and going into college. They were together for at least 4 years. He was a great guy, super generous, kind, the type of guy you could call at 3am for anything and he would help you out. Then one day, when he was getting ready to propose to her, he found her cheating on him with her ex bf. She told him it had been going behind his back for months. It completely devastated him. He became extremely depressed, a shell of his former self with suicidal thoughts and then after a year or so starting turning himself into this wanna be all about me PUA. He abandoned most of his close friends, saying they only wanted to use him, started hanging around douchey frat bro types and just in general became a huge asshole. It sucked hanging out with him because when it was just me and him, he was like his old self but a little jaded, but around others he was this douche bag he created. I tried helping him, but, I didnt know what to do or what advice to give him. I lost one of my best friends because of a cheating whore. I have other stories, but that was the one that hit the hardest for me.
I had heard about mgtow since around 2008’ish but I didnt consider myself one or really pay much attention to it. As the years passed I learned more red pill things through life and not the internet and during work one day I noticed myself watching more mgtow content but i still hadnt fully embraced it. The last straw was when I tried dating a woman I met online who I had zero physical attraction too. I felt so desperate for a serious relationship I thought, maybe I could make it work, we did have some stuff in common and she was easy to talk too, but I found out she was a full blown ex-commie bernie loving feminist. She actually told me about how one of her ex boyfriends tried to “man-splain” something to her. I felt like I was dating a meme. After 2 dates she said it didnt feel natural and we parted ways.
I looked to MGTOW for answers but I needed more then just heres why women are bad type stuff. Thankfully I found the more philosophical side of content from Spetsnaz, Messenger Rising and so on. Ive heard some of the most interesting ideas on society and such a different way of looking at things from MGTOW content makers and thankfully it all really helped me. It helped me realize how much more there is to life then a relationship or marriage and how big the world and what I can do in it really is. I have a long term game plan for the first time in a long time and I hope to share my progress with other guys and hopefully help others as much as I have been helped.
Look not to the shames of the past, but to the glory of the future.
No Country 2 years, 3 months ago.
