all y’all out there.
Today, whether a hard day, or an easy one, is over. Here’s to hoping tomorrow is a better day.
I know some of you are suffering, and I’m right there with you brothers. We are men, we are made to withstand pain and pressure, and we are stronger than we realize or think we could be.
Hold fast. hold fast hold fast. tomorrow will bring solutions, and new challenges. I am confident that you will hold fast.
Most of you, you do important jobs, deal with real world troubles I can only barely understand. But you know that there is a community of people who will listen. This is a rare place in the internet.
I can not thank you brothers enough for being there for me. Some of you know, but this past April I was in a tough spot. There was a day after teaching my ass off and getting s~~~ upon that I was in that horrible what the f~~~ am I doing here and why am I even alive place. I was done. I was far away from family, no friends, depressed, and beat down by a dozen accusations of all kind of nasty untrue s~~~. my students had discovered a vulnerability, and were using their parents to crush me. I was lost, drifting day to day, getting beat down.
I cautiously reached out to a couple men here, and you guys helped me get through one day, then the next, and the next.
leaving where I was definitely was a blessing. I was dying there, and close to ending myself. I couldn’t see any good, only dark despair.
I wish I could thank the person who helped me the most. It was his humor, his strength of character and his ideas that redirected me to this new path I am on now. I wish I could meet him in person and shake his hand, and thanking him for saving me. I was new to the whole MGTOW thing, and my brother Stealthy or what ever he called himself that week took time out from his s~~~storm, and helped me through mine. The day he had to be erased was a painful day for me. But, he showed me the path, before he left. I have been waiting all spring and summer to take the first steps.
Part of my teaching day was a creative writing time. I assigned my kids to write about something fun in their lives. I wrote a suicide note, in French, so that if my students found it, they would not be able to read it. Right to the very end, I was going to shield those little s~~~s from the horrible outcome they were pushing me towards.
I found the notebook I wrote in when I was packing up to move, and I read the note. I fell down and wept for the man who wrote that plea for help. This would have been in early March, just before Spring break. My Brother Blade left me a message today, noticing my writing was happier. Going back a few months you see my pain and my despair, my feeling of helplessness and apathy. Back then a couple of you recognized it for what it was and pmed me. Thanks Blade for noticing. Love ya bro.
Please, if you find yourself in such despair, reach out to someone, anyone. I don’t think anyone rejects a man in the throes of personal internal agony. No one here is twisted and cruel like that. This site in particular seems to be populated with men who have been to the edge and somehow made it through. We are survivors.
There are two other people I want to publicly thank. I want to thank Greg Honda and Pistol Pete for letting me tag along. I wanted to meet Greg, I wanted to see what courage was, because I was sorely missing any kind of inspiration and courage in my own life. What would compel a man to visit people and travel thousands of miles in a strange country? I wanted to meet and maybe some of that would rub off on me. I wanted to meet Pete, who invites a total stranger from another country into his home sight unseen?
Meeting my brothers in real life was incredible, we were long lost brothers, having fun, talking about our problems and looking for solutions. I can’t thank you two enough for having me visit. I don’t think you two know just how profound our meeting was to me.
I vowed that I would share what courage I had with other brothers struggling with the whole red pill rage thing. I found my new friend Oldschool. Brother I hope I help you find what you need. Anytime, amigo.
I hope to meet up with a couple other brothers soon.
I wanted to take a moment to pause, and look back upon where I was, and turn to look forward to the future. I wanted to thank those of you who pm me, give me encouragement, give me s~~~ and give me hope.
Thank you thank you thank you so much.
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