In the world we live today, there is no shape or form to foresee us living alone and not being loved like we deserve.
White knight is the only way to submit to women and worship them as we weak men should.
My first girlfriend had a porn star body she was a bomb in bed but sadly after that there was nothing.
When i was a teenager the only thing i wanted was a girlfriend, i could not wait to fall in love and tough that life without a women would be awful.
I have been weight lifting since i was 13y old at 16 i joined my first gym, i was competing in kyokushin karate then made the switch to tae kwon do WTF, i was very actif and super fit we had a dead metal band and played music went to shows, we love metal hahaha action movies martial art movie video game arcade where so big back then. But i did not have a women in my life.
I turned 18 and we all went out to a club and met with some friends, this is where i would meet and bang my first girlfriend.
Everything was magic for a month, then the pain came in when she said your friend with the long hair i hate him, then i started dumping my buddies one by one because no knowing what she was doing was isolating me into her world. Shortly after i could not go to the gym anymore, i quit martial arts, because she was freaking out every time i was being active.
Another friend of mine was dating her girl friend, so one day we went shopping, she told me i give you permission to do play at the arcade. Street fighter 2 was my game at the time, then i remember walking back to them and for the first time i hated my life, i was bored, i was miserable, i looked at my friend Dany and asked him is that what having a girlfriend is……he said well yeah guess the fun is over if we don’t want to spend the rest of our lives alone…..
One day she p~~~ed me off so much that i dumped her…. went to see my friends and we had so much fun…. i was having fun without having a stupid girl friend, a few hours later she showed up crying apologizing said she would change and bang the hell out of me for a few hours, i said WOW ok its on now if things can stay that way…. well needless to say after a week or so things came back the same.
I endured 6 months of that crap and dumped her for good, the pressure it removed from my shoulders was amazing, i felt great, i was out of prison i had my life back…… but i had this feeling in the back of my head that this could not be it, i was hook on having a girlfriend so i met a girl 2 3 weeks later and hit it on with her she smoked that was disgusting she did not like sex and she was dumb so i learned i dumped her, she wanted to have kids at 19, dumped her good then she had a kid soon after and kept complaining……
Fast forward to 23 when i met a stripper and then fun started, go into indy pro wrestling, met a firefighter went out and we banged so many women never getting attached. Life was good and easy i was young super fit.
When i reach 30 i stop pro wrestling, we went to a party and i met this chubby fat chick 4 feet 11 and 165 pounds she had the hots for me i turned her down but social programming and all the people there got to me, i went out with her for 3y, i was miserable but said at my age i can’t stay single…… fast forward to the last year we bough a house, she lost some weight and more, a month after we bought the house she went to Walmart and bough so much crap BBQ pop corn, candy like 14 bags of s~~~, she came next to the sofa and told me listen now we have a house, i ain’t dieting anymore you are going to accept me as i am, and in less then a year i want to be pregnant.
Fast forward today she is 42 got 4 kids and she is up to 220 pounds, her life is not her own she manipulated a old guy we used to go to school in marrying her and taking up her 2 kids she already had from a past relationship, he post stuff on facebook about loving my wife, my wife is my life, there is even a picture of my ex texting from her phone looking like a fat turtle pig and people are commenting you are super hot………….
I am 44 single and kiss the floor of my condo each day that i avoided this s~~~ all my life….. all that drama all that useless s~~~ and i can’t believe that men who go true this s~~~ still believe the ONE is out there and they still have not met her getting older and still searching for love.
I guess being emotionally dependent, or not being able to be alone is a disease……..
Anonymous 3 years, 2 months ago.
