Emotional and physical fulfillment and libido

[Anonymous 0]

A primary reason for breaking up with my ex-girlfriend recently is because she made me feel fulfilled emotionally and physically…until she didn’t. The breakdown wasn’t the sex; the sex was great. I could get sex with another quality woman without too much effort if I wanted. It was the emotional fulfillment that was bringing me back to her as much as the sex. But in the end, the emotional fulfillment broke down too. She knew I bought into at least some MGTOW philosophy, and she hated it. While I became more and more open to having her closer in my life over time, she became more and more controlling, and every now and then her true, selfish vindictive c~~~ would surface, and I would withdraw, which would extenuate her vindictive c~~~iness even more. I’ve given women many chances to disprove MGTOW observations about women’s childish nature, but they actually seem hell bent on proving it. When they are sweet, it all just comes across like an act now. And like a pathological liar, it’s like they believe their own bulls~~~ sweet acting.

At the end of our relationship, when she finally wrecked the emotional fulfillment for me, I think she may have been the final straw that psychologically neutered my libido. In my teens, 20s and 30s, emotional connection didn’t have to be very high because my typical male libido was more than willing to be satisfied. But now I’ve had so many horrible experiences with woman’s authentic nature, that this final experience may be short circuiting my libido. During sex, I can’t help but be aware that the person I’m having sex with doesn’t truly care about me. She is incapable of really being my friend. She isn’t any more emotionally mature than a teenager. And that is a fatal boner killer for me. It’s like I have moments when I can be into it, but in the heat of the moment, conditioning brings memories to fore, and my level of trust and feeling cared for just bottoms out, and I go soft…and often no amount of foreplay is going to bring a rise again soon.

Bottom line: I may be getting closer to permanent monk if not for any reason except that my libido is short circuited because my logical and emotional conditioning that this woman I’m having sex with, could on a whim show no care or mercy towards me, and she would destroy my life if possible if not for any reason except that I want my own independence.

I do not believe this libido issue is a physiological issue because my testosterone levels are at the highest, normal levels, and I take an ED Rx before sex as well. In the past the ED Rx would help me last for a long time, and I can make a woman cum again and again. But it’s not the same. I get aroused early on, and then it fizzles out.

Anyone else experience this conditioning in regards to libido and sex?

[Ranger OneParticipant 16836]

Anonymous wrote:

Anyone else experience this conditioning in regards to libido and sex?

In the summer of 2016, I became fully immersed in the red pill knowledge. I also began pursuing training myself to have no emotions.

By end of December 2016, I was mostly through reading the bulk of the red pill stuff I’ve read, but I was still internalizing what I had read and listened to. It did spur me into getting a vasectomy in January 2017. I went on first dates with two women, which then surprisingly both evolved into relationships. I was pounding both of them several times a week.

By end of March 2017, I realized I needed to choose one to avoid drama and conflict, so I created a spreadsheet with 34 criteria to compare them, then broke up with one of them the first week of April.

By June or July I think it was, I realized my libido had plummeted to almost nothing. I think I had fully internalized the red pill knowledge I had done a crash course on the year before.

So yes, realizing that women don’t have real love for men, has turned sex with any of them into an experience comparable to having sex with a sex doll.

All my life I've had doubts about who I am, where I belonged. Now I'm like the arrow that springs from the bow. No hesitation, no doubts. The path is clear. And what are you? Alive. Everything else is negotiable. Women have rights; men have responsibilities; MGTOW have freedom. Marriage is for chumps. If someone stands in the way of true justice, you simply walk up behind them and stab them in the heart-R'as al Ghul.

[Anonymous 43]

yes, all of that. You are fine, healthy, nothing wrong with you. You aren’t going to give man goo to a woman you are not wanting on a deep psychological level. Your rational brain wont let you give your greatest gift to a woman you are not attached to. Lizard brain is screaming gogogogogogogoggo, but the rational brain is c~~~ blocking you. Awesome! You want to keep you out of trouble.

My c~~~ wanted more children, I cut her off after 2…both her sisters third pregnancy was twins. I didn’t want kids in the first place but ended up with 2.

So sex for me was horrible, just being a human dildo getting her off 2 or three times and I got sweaty. She became bitchy and violent over time, made me want her less and less. I became an employee, taking care of kids, maintaining the house, doing all the house chores and errands.

sometimes sex was anger sex…trying to poke out her eyes from the inside.

I hope she treated her Chad as badly as she treated me. lol I don’t think they are together anymore. I don’t blame him. Divorce cost her over $400,000 and me $300,000 this guy wasn’t worth it? lol really?

Ready for the bad part? That red pill you took, with all that bitter nutritive goodness packed inside? It is putting your rational mind on steroids, allowing it to crush the lizard brain response to sex. GOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGo turns into NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONo.

and this is ok too. Someone smarter than me said you can love women or you can understand them. You can’t do both.

Going monk is ok. Worked for me for 8 years, no fap is fine too I guess? Get a vasectomy and pump and dump is fine too, be careful of disease. You will figure out what is best for you. That is the go your own way part of all of this. I think most of us here live as woman free as possible.

Have a great day amigo.

[Secret Agent MGTOWParticipant 22514]

I would be intested in the list of criteria you developed.

Women want everything, but want responsibility and accountability for nothing.

[It’sallbsParticipant]

Anonymous wrote:

When they are sweet, it all just comes across like an act now

That’s exactly what it is.

http://www.leavemeansleave.eu

[SH3LLZParticipant 5569]

Anonymous wrote:

Someone smarter than me said you can love women or you can understand them. You can’t do both.

BOOM! BOOM! BOOM! Knowledge bombs DROPPING!

Brilliant!

#ICETHEMOUT
#MANOUT!

#ICETHEMOUT!!! #MANOUT!!! #HIDEYOURWEALTH #VAGINAISWORTHLESS

[CarnageParticipant 22113]

If she breathes, she a thot.

To those following me, be careful, I just farted. Men those beans are killers.

[joetechParticipant]

I’ve seen it many times. All women are actresses. Some are better at it than others, but they all think they deserve an academy award. Just say no.

"Don't follow in my footsteps...I stepped in something."

[ChristopherParticipant 2478]

Good thread imho.

Anonymous wrote:

During sex, I can’t help but be aware that the person I’m having sex with doesn’t truly care about me. She is incapable of really being my friend. She isn’t any more emotionally mature than a teenager

My ex kept saying she loved me (love bombing narc) but I finally realised she wasnt truly capable of caring about anyone but herself. It took me a while to see that Sex between us was just another way for her to get the f~~~ing and intimacy that ‘she’ needed. That realisation meant I lost complete interest in her sexually. As ranger one said might as well be having having sex with a sex doll or a prostitute.. as my ex didnt really ‘care’ for me she was using me. Why would I keep f~~~ing her ? to be her ‘sexbot AND intimacy bot’ ? I broke up with her and im on monk mode again which for me is the best path.

Anonymous wrote:

I didn’t want kids in the first place but ended up with 2.
So sex for me was horrible, just being a human dildo getting her off 2 or three times and I got sweaty.

I get what you mean. Thats how it was for me at the end with my ex.

Peace. The MGTOW path is best.

Feminism was funded by bankers/politicians to create more taxpayers. MGTOW IS FREEDOM https://archive.org/details/mgtowisfreedomblurayready

[Greg HondaParticipant 6406]

I mention this often on Zoom chats.
Reason being that it still surprises me how little sex means to me now.
I used to think it was everything, but as the OP states, knowing that you are just a utility and she doesn’t love you kills it for me.
Sure I can bang away and give her a good time but I’m emotionally empty.
She still can’t work out why I’m not hooked on her pussy. She thought I was so started s~~~ testing me.
I just walked away NFG and literally laughing at her attempts to manipulate me with sex.
It’s the only weapon she’s got and it has no effect on me at all. I’ll get bored of the rest of the deal soon and peace will return

It's Time to get Wise

[joetechParticipant]

Greg Honda wrote:

She still can’t work out why I’m not hooked on her pussy. She thought I was so started s~~~ testing me.

They all miss the power they had in their twenties. Now, they want it more than we do.

"Don't follow in my footsteps...I stepped in something."

[Greg HondaParticipant 6406]

Ain’t that the truth Joe!

It's Time to get Wise

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