Dear Diary

[Greg HondaParticipant 6406]

Everyone here is different in some way, but bound by some event that caused us to question the accepted reality we are conditioned to hold true.

My event, happened 3 years ago, and in the aftermath my world was in tatters. After I handled the things that needed to be handled, in a daze of unreality to the extent I felt I was watching myself go through the motions of life. I was left with a vacum where once there was a life with hopes and dreams. I stood alone and couldn’t gather my thoughts to work out a new path for survival.

One way I found to keep my sanity was to write down my thoughts and plans every night in a notebook that became my diary. I could read and re-read to analyse my mental state and hone my plans. A coversation with myself.

I occaisionaly re-read those old pages to compare how I felt then, to how I feel now. A 3 year journey of death and re-birth. My initial plan has been put on indefinite hold, as by the time the lenghthy preperations had been made, I had had time to rethink the sanity of going through with it.

Then came the task of re-engaging with the world in some way. I focussed on finance and becoming independent from the Rat Race as much as I could. Who wants to work untill they drop? You can’t take it with you and consummer highs are short lived.

I tried the Online Dating thing to see if I could find a woman to give me meaning as I always had done in the past. I lived for them. I had some success but all seemed damaged goods looking for a man to exploit.

Watched YouTube videos on how “POF Sucks” and in the sidebar were MGTOW suggested videos. I clicked.
Ended up here.

My diaries plot the couse of my journey from suicidal despair, to attempts at remaking my life in the same image it was before, to realising that that option was no longer available, to finding MGTOW.

A new world opened up, and gradually I came to know and respect members on this site through shared beleifs, experiences, and mutual support. My first star was from M52. I laid my life out here for all to read and criticise if they saw fit.

Eventually I wanted to take it to the next level. From the Virtual to the Actual reality of meeting fellow men with wisdom and heart. So began my MGTOW World Tour of the South last May. I met real people, with real stories and genuine offers of brotherhood and help.

After two weeks I was back in England, Jet Lagged and trying to remember what had happened so I could update my diary.

Thing is, since that trip, (soon to be repeated), I have stopped writing in my diary. My life is no longer something I committ to paper.

It’s something I live.

With your help, and support, and wisdom, and humour.

I live again.

Peace and strength to all.

The New Brothers are Lost and need your help.

MGTOW.

It's Time to get Wise

[Jan SobieskiParticipant 28791]

Buddy, you keep that couch. I’ll get there someday.

Love is just alimony waiting to happen. Visit mgtow.com.

[MACHOParticipant]

Greg Honda wrote:

My life is no longer something I committ to paper.
It’s something I live.
With your help, and support, and wisdom, and humour.
I live again.
Peace and strength to all.
The New Brothers are Lost and need your help.
MGTOW

So happy for you brother Greg Honda 👍 Once we find internal Freedom we start truly Enjoying life by ourselves!

Then Life becomes Awesome and Really Worth LIVING!

You must own a better Crystal ball than I

[MarketWatcherParticipant]

Good topic Sir.

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