Be honest with yourself… the best policy

[Anonymous 5]

Hello and a great morning to all of my Manhood Ball Recovering Brothers
“We all know the saying honesty is always the best policy” right? And that saying is usually impressed upon us as children to tell the truth no matter what, with one exception, our relationships within ourselves IE: we know beyond any shadow of any doubt that the massive land whale next to us face has been hit with the ugly axe just about one to many times, and all that caked on frosting called make up is not going to enhance anything on this beast except to draw attention to the mountainous mounds of flesh inbetween her ears called cheeks, and honestly you do not find anything about her attractive, but still we will tell ourselves that we dont want to hurt her feelings and in that moment we will undoubtably try to find something to say to her after we heave our guts out noticing that there is a french fry, thats probably a few weeks old, protruding out from the fleshy flabs of skin near her arm pit.
Again if you have a fetish for that kind of woman , more power to you, cause you gonna need all you can get to feed and fill the belly of that beast.
Both of the women I married were land whales, the first one not really when i met her , but by the time I left her she was 5’2″ bordering on 300 pounds, the second about four inches taller and 300+ pounds, there was always that 18 pounds that was constantly leaving then coming back, like she had a baby and didnt realize it everytime she stood on a scale. And in the minds of these “people” ( loosely used term), their weight gain was always my fault. I would constantly hear “why in the hell do you like candy so much, you know it only tempts me into EATING it”. So what do i do , I accommodated their fantasy and stopped bringing sweets
into the home. My 132 pound body could stand to loose a few pounds anyways right? So no more sweets, maybe that will help her dieting efforts, when the truth was if the bitch wouldve stopped downing gallons of ice cream before going to bed, or secretly in the middle of the night, she may have deflated down to a reasonable and attractive size, but instead I suffered, sacrificed, gave up for “her” cause. I wasnt being very honest or helpful with myself.
After my stint with being an EMT I decided I wanted to go and tryout 18 wheeler driving. Drove across the nation to Ohio and attended another school in which a person was schooled in the art of big rig driving. Within a month and you were on the road moving 80,000 pounds of freight back and forth across this nation one load at a time. I loved it, I traveled and saw most the states in the lower 48 including our nations capitol, “its this whole other country” . Something I had always wanted to go and take a peek at. I did that job for 6 months until my team driver decided he wanted to go solo, I was left without another driver and my kids were on the west coast and the company wanted to keep me on the east coast doing dedicated routes. I took their truck back to them and promptly returned home.
The bitch had been going to school to become an EKG technician, and i was fine with that , she would finally be able to help out with the expenses that up until that point had been left to me and her mother( thats another story for another time).
A month before i had left for Ohio I had gotten myself fixed, I had determined that I didnt want any more kids and was satisfied with my own decision and had it done despite the noisy protests from the bitching mouth.
Men make no mistake about this that is certain states a woman can destroy your unborn babies, get their tubes tied and cut with or without your permission, but you do not have those same rights, California laws require both partners to be in agreement before a man can decide to not have any more children if thats what he desires.
Back on topic sorry bout that. After I returned home I and the Bitch went to pick up our children from school, I decided to go down a certain raod that wouldve cut three miles off of the trip back home, but the Bitch literally asked me why i was going down the street I had chozen which was a route I had used many times previously before leaving to Ohio. I asked her why not take this street? Her reply was that that street went into a part of town she didnt want to be seen in since she was going to class now. But that just didnt make sense, so despite her I took the sensible route.
My trust in the bitch and my naivity prevented me from going into details as to the real reason why she didn’t want to be “seen with me”.
I would not understand that incident until after I left her.
Shortly after that incident the Bitch said she wanted to go and do studying with a fellow Male class mate, and when I protested she explained that he was gay and i had nothing to worry about, they were just going to study EKG s~~~. His name she said at the time was Arthur, no biggy until after we seperated she immediately had a new love interest whos name happened to be Art!!!!
My Manly Ball Recovering Friends throughout that relationship I had clues, there were tell tale signs, for instance, when she called me and asked me if I had had sex with anyone outside of her because her eye doctor was concerned for the clamidia he found in a viral test from her eyes. My immediate response was the truth, absolutely not, no way, why would I, I wouldn’t be unfaithful and havent been. But some how that STD got into her eye b~~~~, but my brain wouldn’t allow me to go where it naturally wanted to go, and accuse her. One of the many sayings thats true is hind sight is 20/20, but I think it is more 20/15, because things become more than just clear they become obviously, heinously, painfully clear.
I trusted her and in my denial tunnel vision, “my vagina” vision, I never considered that she would ever cheat on me, would never try to fond someone else to bed down with, based on this fallacy , that I would never cheat on her. Sometimes the truth is harder to bear then a fantasy, but in reality we must face it, draw away our own beliefs and consider this honest statement “anyone is capable of doing anything with everyone”, and here is the obvious things to observe, she tosses your hand off of her when you want sex, you go months without sex, she moves her mother in with you for moths on end, and continuously denys you sex based on the possiblity that her mother might hear you, or walk in on you. In your arguments she tells you exactly what and who she wants to have sex with, Big black man, another woman, your best friend, or she shoudve been born gay. These are indeed things she is using to hurt me , but they are truths about things she has already done or is planning on doing.
Even writing this stuff still hurts and draws emotions out of me that I have never shared before, not because of the truth of it all, or even her intent. What hurts me is the investment of my energy, time and finances the emotional abuses I put up with, the loss of my most treasured precious things on this planet, my relationship with my children, and sometimes facing that can be soo hard to do , but if i am to be honest with myself, the truth sits as it is, where it is and nothing anyone can do today will change any of those facts or undo the pain associated with those facts. So we either except those facts and move on or stay drenched in our woes.
But as I put clarity in the same basket with honesty, I understand this one thing, that although what was presented to me, was nothing but falsehood after falsehood one right after the other, was i supposed to have the gift of readiing the stupid bitches mind, was it my fault, this bitch and piece of trash could not be honest with me or with herself?
Was it my fault that she couldnt and didnt remain faithful…….. If I am to cling to “the best of policies” then the honest truth must win out every time.
Living with in a lie will only perpetuate that lie until you have deceived yourself into a state of such delusion that you cannot tell the difference between either.
I dont think that any man in this forum who has bitten at the bait of marriage ever goes into it thinking that within a few years Im going to divorce the nasty land whale bitch this person will eventually become.
The red pills efects force us into intraspection, to honestly look at how the things we missed sent us spiraling downward into the life sucking abyss called marriage, and male female relationships for us as men!
My young men MGTOW if i were you looking at all the destruction, dissatisfaction , and mental , emotional abuses that us older men have endured by the females of our species, I to would run away from this stinky pile of s~~~ and do just as you smart young men are doing. As raw and hard as this gets to express to you , it is not done for your entertainment, it is to do as the older men days long since passed would do with their youth, teach and instruct, so that you will become much stronger and better prepared for the life ahead of you, so our mistakes and trageties will not continue to be repeated, over and over and over again, these things, favors, nuggets of wisdom and knowledge we have aquired through our labors, trials, experiences and errors we share with you for the benefit of and to your sons for generations that follow you , if you and they make it that far !!!!

Sincerely : Steve

[Nick6923645Participant 253]

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