Lucky how I got here. I was googling stuff like sovereignty, manhood, meninist, etc. and I really didn’t know what exactly I was looking for. Until I read this site, then I knew I had found the right place. Can’t say my life has been very bad or ruined by women. I only have a few relations~~~s in the past, nothing serious. I’ve had many disappointments though, and I try to describe some of them which brought me to where I am.

I’ve always preferred my own company since childhood and I rather have a few good friends than a load of them. So I’m not really searching for company and I’m lazy when it comes to chasing women. My recent relations~~~ was with a middle-aged co-worker (boss of mine), very attractive and persuasive, who literally seduced me. Now looking behind I can see all the tricks she pulled on me saying stuff like “I don’t believe you got what it takes to bang me”, “you are unlike every other man”, “don’t you care about me at all”, “I’ts all right, I know my husband is cheating too”, “it can’t be wrong if it feels so good” and so on. What can I say, I gave in. Dick believes like Bill Burr said. Now I would be smarter and keep this s~~~ contained. She wanted me to buy her gifts and send her romantic texts. She said she wanted me to make her FEEL GOOD. It finally ended when I got tired of her BS and started feeling too much guilt for banging another man’s wife. Before that I found another job so no chance for her to manipulate me through workplace. Still meet her sometimes when I go to lunch (it’s a really small town so not much choice where I eat) but I have the control now, especially after seeing the red pill.

A few years earlier I was finishing my master’s degree and working as a real estate agent in another city. Got it going with a girl I met when I brokered rental flats. She was 2 years younger than me and seemed like a nice girl-next-door. We spent some time together and had good sex. Tried to keep her entertained and give enough attention. Took her where she needed in my car. Took her to work when we spent the night together. Didn’t have much money so I had to be creative and we managed to have a good time visiting various events or driving out to the nature. At weekends I drove home to help out because my mom was living alone in a big house and also had to take care of my grandma who was getting a light Alzheimer. I told my girlfriend in the beginning that I need to get out of the city at least in the weekends to have some rest and help my family. At first this wasn’t a problem and some weekends she also visited her family some 200 miles away. A few times she even came with me. Things started to go sour after we’d dated 3 months. She said she’s never going to live in the same house with my mom. I thought, wtf we dated like 3 months, nobody said we have to move to my moms house and I sure as hell aint buying you a house not yet. I felt ashamed for not having my own place and disappointed about her materialistic ultimatum. I guess my attitude changed and one day when she said something like “don’t you think we have grown a little apart” I answered “you’re right, no point to keep this going”. And that’s that. I can’t make a good face at a bad game.

College and highschool were gynocentric. My highschool class had 30 students, 7 of them were males. College class was about the male/female ratio. I had friendly relations with a few female students. They were like dudes with long hair to me, they weren’t attractive to me. I preferred skinnier women. I was useful to them thanks to my car and we helped each other with assignments. Anyways they trusted me enough so I overheard some of the conversations about their private life. One of them cheated on her bf because she felt like it. Sucked another guys c~~~. I didn’t need to hear that. The other one was living with numerous older men, I guess they provided for her. Vulgar, I thought as a foolish idealist I was. Saw their thought patterns, double standards, and got my first red pills at the time. I thought if had a girlfriend how could I know she’s not f~~~ing me over behind my back? They were good at making a sweet puppy face.

Later another college girls in a class few years behind me kept me in the friendzone. I got to know the friendzone like my own pockets. Heard the bulls~~~ about the guys she wanted to date, the parties she attended, drove her around in my car and even lent her a few hundred euros (which she paid a few months late) I didn’t even want to date her really, maybe just release the sexual tension.

Nowadays I don’t search for female friends OR life partners anymore. I’ve seen enough. I focus on myself and hope to become better man every day. I like to read philosophy, also like gaming, gardenwork and recently I started lifting to feel more secure about myself. Some days red pill rage comes haunting but I would never return to blue pill hell. The past is behind and future seems awesome!

@keymaster, is there a way to put terms like the below where search engines will pick them up? Does google even use key words these days?

sovereignty, manhood, meninist

Women are the same the world over ….. sadly.

Welcome

Enjoy the peace and quiet,

Enjoy not having drama,

Enjoy living a life of logic,

Enjoy chasing your dreams,

Enjoy making your own destiny.

Owning rental property and enjoying life seems like a plan. Gotta secure oneself financially. My generation has to worry for its own pension and social  security net.

Welcome fellow Estonian

Tere! How did you become MGTOW?